Zhu Yulan recalled the last ti they ate together, her impression of that girl who ca with an attitude of "catching an affair" was still very deep.
She was quite vindictive.
"Doesn't she like you a lot? Why don't you be with her? Don't you like her?"
Zhu Yulan turned the tables.
But this topic imdiately pricked up Yao Mingyue's ears next door; she wished she could stick to the partition like a bat.
Xu Musen fell silent for a while, then shook his head with a smile, "Of course I like her. I won't lie to you. My old state was pretty much like that of your childhood friend... the neighbor who's chasing you now. Stubborn like a bull, not turning back until hitting the south wall."
Xu Musen admitted it very frankly.
This surprised Zhu Yulan a bit.
Yao Mingyue was even more surprised; she felt her earlobes soften slightly, regardless of what her character was like inside.
But facing the person she liked confessing their like for her, her heart couldn't help but leap for joy.
"Then why don't you accept her?"
Zhu Yulan asked again.
"Because I feel that kind of like from before doesn't count as real liking."
"What do you an?"
Zhu Yulan put down the chicken wing she was eating, Yao Mingyue also put down the chicken leg in her mouth.
One asked aloud, the other asked in her heart.
"It ans that liking soone as a childhood friend is actually very complicated. After all, growing up together since childhood is a fate arranged by heaven. With years of contact, both of you have beco a part of each other's lives, it becos a dependency.
As you grow up, naturally as childhood friends, both families would interact from ti to ti. The jokes among the adults, as well as the family-like daily life, eating together, going to and from school together, traveling together... These are more intimate than what little lovers would do.
It looks like happiness, but in reality, it has long exhausted the passion of love. After all, a relationship needs so impulsiveness.
However, childhood friends have already gone through these impulses. That's what many childhood friends an when they say, 'It's hard to make a move when we know each other too well.' Actually, probably most childhood friends confuse dependency and habit with liking, mistaking friendship for love..."
Xu Musen slowly spoke.
Yao Mingyue listened silently; Musen had already discussed these topics with her more than once.
Yao Mingyue admitted there was so truth in these words, but she believed that even if she confused friendship and love, it didn't necessarily an the proportion of love was less than that of friendship.
"Isn't that pretty good? Many people are only together because of various reasons or out of confusion. Being able to be like this is already pretty good."
Zhu Yulan's eyes also sparked so mories, it seed she had seen a lot of such situations.
"Yeah, if it was just that, I could also accept it, but..."
But Yao Mingyue's pathological possessiveness destroyed all the beauty, that suffocating kind of love really made one struggle for breath.
Actually, if Uncle Yao hadn't had an accident,
Yao Mingyue hadn't suffered that blow and psychological trauma, maybe they really could have been together happily for a lifeti.
Regrettably, there are no 'ifs' in this world.
Moreover, in this lifeti, Nuannuan was the first to enter his heart.
An Nuannuan brought Xu Musen the greatest good, that is, she gave him a man's respect and the most asured freedom.
Like gentle water.
Sothing Nuannuan once said,
"If you take with you to play, I'm happy to join you. If you don't take , I'll just wait by myself until you have ti to take along..."
"I like you, but I hope even more to beco the person you like..."
This feeling gave Xu Musen the respect and freedom he desperately lacked in his past life.
It's like sothing said online, why so bigshots are also calculated by beauties.
What you think of as a beauty's trick: "Handso guy, are you lonely?"
High-level beauty's trick: "Silly boy, why do you still like sleeping in class as before?"
If Xu Musen was a beam of light for Yao Mingyue, then An Nuannuan was also a beam of light for Xu Musen.
In the end, Xu Musen shook his head, "My situation with her is a bit special. No matter what happens in the future, I will take good care of her. This is what I promised her."
Xu Musen's words were ambiguous, leaving one unable to tell if it was a rejection or an agreent.
But for such a question, the lack of an answer is, in fact, an answer.
Yao Mingyue sat aside, biting her lips silently; her heart was unsure of what it tasted like.
There was loss, but also a sense of being moved.
She knew that Xu Musen was unlikely to be with her now, and furthermore… there was also an An Nuannuan watching closely.
These days, Yao Mingyue had been restraining herself from seeing Xu Musen too often, because every ti they t, especially when she saw him together with Nuannuan,
She would always feel as if dropping into an abyss; at the sa ti, a kind of extre emotion she was afraid of seed to arise in her heart.
She was like a drowning person, longing for that last straw to grasp onto.
As long as she didn't cling desperately, there was always a glimr of hope.
And Xu Musen's final words were like that straw, at least... he still rembered her.
This was also what Yao Mingyue liked most about him, always treating her well without any boundaries.
Yao Mingyue felt a slight sourness in her heart; she had seriously reflected on her own problems. Now, she hoped to gradually balance things out between them.
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