Yes, all of this is her doing. If she could stop entangling in this life, perhaps her na would have already disappeared from Xu Musen's world.
His relationship with An Nuannuan would surely be better, even if she's gone...
Maybe by then, to him, "Yao Mingyue" would only exist in the mory with slight lant over the vicissitudes of life, and wouldn't be this painful now.
Ultimately, it's all because of her—selfish, willful, yet cowardly and insecure...
Xu Musen walked up to her. Looking at the girl with tear-filled eyes, pale and fragile, his tone was still as sharp as a knife. He reached out, held her chin, and made her face him. Her cheeks, soaked with tears, touched his fingertips.
Xu Musen slightly lowered his head, gazing into her eyes.
"It's you who said you would always need . It's you who tried every possible way to make sure my life only had you. Now, after you've occupied most of my life, you want to leave without even giving a chance to talk it over. What do you take for? What do you take my care for you for? What do you take my heart for?"
Yao Mingyue trembled. Facing Xu Musen's increasingly close face and penetrating gaze, she couldn't utter a word, tears falling uncontrollably.
She really wanted to explain that she never intended to leave him and had so many words to say to him. But now, she could only murmur, "I'm sorry..."
"What I want to hear is not an apology, but why you hid your departure from . Why did you hide and make these decisions alone?"
Xu Musen stared at her, and Yao Mingyue couldn't evade his gaze.
Yao Mingyue's tightly bitten lip quivered slightly: "I didn't an to hide from you... but I knew what I had to face. You finally had your own life, I couldn't take your future to satisfy my own selfishness. I'm sorry... consider as soone selfish and unreasonable at that ti..."
This was a future even Yao Mingyue couldn't foresee. If she could co back alive, perhaps all the struggles along the way would have an outco.
But what if she didn't co back?
Then all the consequences would have to be borne by Xu Musen.
Because she loved him, she had to hide it from him even more...
She raised her eyes, feeling Xu Musen's warm palm. Her tear-streaked cheeks dared not show too much reluctance. She bit her lip, a firm resolve flashing in her eyes.
"Didn't you say? We all have our own lives. Now, I want to seek my own life too. Anyway... you already have soone you like and your own life. Even without annoying , it's not a big deal, is it?"
Yao Mingyue raised her head, forcing a seemingly indifferent smile through her tear-filled eyes: "After all, this world keeps turning regardless of anyone's absence. Without you, this jerk, maybe I'd live even better."
Xu Musen stared deeply into her eyes, then suddenly smiled: "This stubborn attitude, this is the real you."
Yao Mingyue's gaze trembled, wanting to say sothing, but Xu Musen had already taken out a letter from his pocket.
This was the letter Yao Mingyue left before quietly departing.
Xu Musen held the letter, looking at the dazed girl in front of him: "I haven't had a chance to read this letter yet, but I think we can read it together."
Without waiting for her refusal, Xu Musen softly began.
The beginning of the envelope.
"Xu Musen, when you see this letter, probably your engagent party is over, and I've already left.
Forgive my silent departure, though it doesn't matter if you don't. After all, you can do nothing about it, who's to bla for my stubbornness and unreasonableness? (Prideful smile.)
I'm not intentionally hiding from you, just that my body had a slight... problem. If not dealt with properly, perhaps... I won't be able to continue being the wicked supporting actress ruining you and Nuannuan's relationship.
Upon reading this, did you breathe a sigh of relief, you jerk? (Grinding teeth)"
Upon reading this, Xu Musen silently looked at the tiny drawing of a frustrated face she made, then at the pale-faced girl in front of him.
A little problem.
As if it were just a casual ga that could be resurrected anyti.
But only the writer of the letter understands how difficult it was to pen these words.
"Forget it, it's your big day today. I won't talk about this. Actually, these past days I've been silently watching everything—watching you guys set up the venue, watching your lively welcoming of guests, seeing the bustling engagent scene, and seeing you in a suit hugging An Nuannuan in her white wedding dress as you got into the wedding car.
Today, you look very handso. More handso than at our wedding, not because of the attire but because of your smile—it's the smile of truly marrying the one you love.
I saw you being embraced and accepted by everyone, receiving all blessings, being recognized and surrounded. It's... what we regrettably never had.
How ridiculous, our relationship was closer, yet I never made you smile like that.
Is this... my failure as your ex-wife?"
Playful words that made Xu Musen's expression somber. On these few lines, a tear blurred so characters, while Yao Mingyue bit her lip harder.
"Sorry, I couldn't co to our appointnt. I've been thinking about this decision for a long ti. Don't bla my mom; it was I who asked her not to tell anyone.
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