Chapter 54
As soon as I returned “Ho,” I ca out from the carriage in front of the main gate and headed straight to my place without having ti to talk to the butler, maid, and knight general who welcod .
And then I just let myself go to sleep.
I slept soundly without dreaming for the first ti in a while. When I finally opened my eyes, it was in the middle of the night.
I carefully headed downstairs, wearing a robe and shawl over, without making a sound, so that I wouldn’t wake Gwen up.
The appearance of the mansion wrapped in complete darkness would normally have felt strange, but at this mont, I felt comfortable.
……Isn’t it bad to co out and wander around at such a ti when everyone is asleep?
As I moved to the backyard, I saw a cute view of a large and small snowman and a snow castle. Did they co out and play while I was asleep? It would be best if the children remained the sa as usual.
I thought I’d never see them again. I guess I’m luckier than I thought.
How many people in the world have died once and got a second chance?
I looked up at the sky with countless stars, sniffing and pouring in the cold air flowing into my nose.
If my dead husband was looking at , what would he be thinking about by now? I don’t think he would be very angry, but no matter how adult-like a man was, he would have been a little hurt if he was humiliated like that.
Cough, I’m sorry, Johannes, but you told … ..
It was then that the sound of footsteps on thick snow was heard. I stood in the middle of the backyard, looking up at the sky, shaking my head as I apologized to the deceased.
“Jeremy…? Didn’t you sleep yet?”
Jeremy seed to be awake even though he was supposed to be asleep.
The boy, who appeared in his pajamas and was coming this way in the cold night air, suddenly stopped about five feet away and stared at . His dark green eyes, which had always been sparkling with boyish playfulness, seed to sway strangely
“You have to wear a gown. If you co out like that, you’ll catch a cold.”
Then, I took off the shawl over my shoulder.
The boy who looked at with a strange expression opened his mouth and uttered things that I had never heard before, “If you want to et Theo, et him.”
“Huh?”
“So whoever it’s, even if he is the Crown Prince, if anyone likes you… …and if you like him, et him. I don’t care if you remarry.”
Why the hell are you saying this all of a sudden? Maybe he’s mad at because I couldn’t behave properly and was swayed by Theobalt’s courtship? Or because of what I said in court earlier?
I think it’s both. Yeah, well, it’s understandable.
“Jeremy, I told you it isn’t like that. I was just swept away because it’s been so long that soone showed interest in . I’m not in a position to give my heart to anyone yet.”
“That’s not what I ant.”
He ca closer to , shaking his head roughly. Erald eyes that glistened faintly in the dark seed to be blazing, making cringe without realizing it.
“I don’t an… ..but I won’t stop you if you turn away from us now.”
“What…”
“There must be enough people who like you, who will give you the treatnt you deserve. From now on, I an, I an, Shuri–“
It took him a long ti to speak again. There seed to be faint water in the dark green eyes, which seed to be seething with complex emotions, seed to show faint water.
“The responsibility my father placed on you was unjust.”
“You…”
“My family… It’s right for us to take responsibility for our family. We’re the reason you are suffering so much… There’s no reason for you to be hurt by others’ immature children who can’t appreciate your efforts.”
I don’t know how I look right now, but I think it’s quite similar to the face the Empress made in court.
What is this guy talking about? Is this Jeremy in front of ?
“What are you talking about…”
“You know best. I don’t know why you’re so close to us and why you’re so willing to risk insulting yourself in front of people to protect soone like . There’s really no reason for you to waste your whole life on us just to keep the will of the dead.”
“……Jeremy.”
“Like in that dream you’ve been through so vividly… ..don’t waste your precious life on guys like us. Rather, believe it was a precognitive dream and do as you wish from now on. If you take the chance and turn away from us, we won’t die, and we won’t bla you.”
“You’ve done enough already, so you’re fully qualified to think about yourself from now on, so don’t worry about our feelings and do everything you want. It doesn’t matter if you leave or remarry. So, please, please… Let us go while you still can.”
“Don’t look back, don’t hesitate, don’t stop in the middle… Just think of yourself.”
While I was literally in daze, Jeremy was giving a mournful look that was even difficult for to bear.
Tears fell from his eyes.
I stretched out one hand and wiped the boy’s pale cheeks from tears. Then I put the shawl in my other hand on his shoulder.
“Do you really want that? There’s a lot more I haven’t done for you yet. I couldn’t do anything I wanted to do for you or anything I wanted to do with you.”
“….Shuri.”
“My foolish son, I will do what I did in the dream over and over again, and I will remain with you the sa as I have ever been. It’s the life I want, I want to live as your mother.”
A stream of cool wind blew through our hair.
A stem of cool wind blew and passed through our hair.
At the end of the night, a bluish dawn was coming. Our wandering childhood was coming to an end.
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