Chapter 921: 921 Prefer to die rather than go back (2)
Luo Xuan squinted his eyes, as if sizing up Xiao Man.
"Luo Xuan... don’t you think the outside world is beautiful?" Xiao Man smiled, a toxic smile, "Without so much killing... the noisy nights, the drunkards and riddles, the clamor, the laughter, and the love between n and won, living an ordinary life like that for a lifeti would truly be Paradise... I’ve grown accustod to such a life, you can’t make
go back, I can’t do it."
"When I first encountered such a world, it felt so novel. So this is what an ordinary world looks like, with everyone’s face bearing a smile, looking so nice. I tried hard to shed my original appearance, looking for an opportunity to survive among these people, to beco like one of them..."
As Xiao Man spoke, her face was full of yearning.
"For the first ti, I realized that you don’t necessarily need to experience so many life-and-death situations from birth, don’t need to learn to survive in the prival forest, don’t need to eat raw at, don’t need to fight with wolves and leopards..." She paused for a bit, and laughed desolately, "Don’t need to endure so much suffering, the aning of being ’human’ is not what I had understood. They are born and joyfully grow up in the arms of their parents, loved and spoiled... I tried to glimpse the secrets of those people’s growth, envying them every ti I saw. Each ti, I despised my parents more, wondering why they gave birth to us but didn’t want us, letting us grow roots in that kind of place..."
The "us" Xiao Man referred to was her and her sister.
Xiao Man had a sister, nad Helena. She only knew she had a sister, and perhaps her sister knew of her too; she knew they were in the sa place, yet they had never t.
The last ti she heard any news of her sister was many years ago.
During a mission, her sister perished.
The one known as their master only told her this sentence, without any additional information.
"When Li Sinian first gave
flowers, I finally understood the aning behind those people’s smiles. He did many things for
that you wouldn’t know of, showing
what it’s like to be loved—perhaps, he was supposed to love , right? Sotis even I am not sure..." she said, laughing desolately again, sighing, "Living in such a wonderful world, how could I bear to go back. So little by little, I eliminated those people the master had placed by his side. I wanted to say goodbye to that world once and for all, even though I knew that was impossible. One day, those people from that world would still co for , as long as I am still alive."
She didn’t need to hide, for she knew she would be found wherever she went, so she simply lived openly, doing all that ordinary people should do, while he would take care of all the bloody work for her.
For a very long ti, she didn’t have to worry about those things; she really thought she was just Xiao Man.
However, Luo Xuan arrived.
He ca to tell her that she was not Xiao Man; she was Heather.
"Yet even so, what of it? I would rather die than go back to that place. Ever since I left, this is what I thought: either to be killed by those sent by the master, or to be found by Li Sinian and die by his hand... although, it might not be that quick."
Who knows, in the end, by what ans he will let her die.
"Heather, you don’t need to tempt
here," Luo Xuan listened until she finished, then scoffed coldly, "I have no attachnt to this world."
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