Chapter 494: Do what you need to
Darrien
I take a deep breath and in a flash, I am back in the community. Jabi and his wolf are gone. I am all alone again but it doesn’t feel like it. Sohow, seeing him again is all I needed to gain the strength to go on.
I was so scared that he was hurting and alone and even though he is, seeing him just shows
how strong he is. I know what I need to do and I know that Alanis wants
to trust Blue but I am not so sure that they will be able to find him. I have to wait for two days before they even do anything. I walk back to the community and to Blue’s house. I know Alanis and Beau have it handled but I just need to hear what he has to say. I need to know the progress he has on the whole situation.
I can’t do anything else but that.
I will hate myself if anything happens but I have to at least try to do sothing right. I knock on Blue’s door and I wait for him to open. When he does,
He is wearing a faded blue t-shirt and a pair of old blue jeans. His hair is ssy and he looks like he just woke up. Yeah, he looks like he has been sleeping, this is the person that is supposed to help . I understand that it is late and he needs to sleep but I at least expect him to be finding a solution to this. If the roles were reversed and one of his mates were missing, he would not be sleeping.
"Hey,’’ he rubs his eyes with his hands
, his voice is hoarse.
"Hey," I say to him because I don’t want to get upset. This is not his fault, he is not the person who should be blad for this.
"You can co in," he opens the door all the way and I walk in, the door squeaks with every footstep.
"I know why you are here and I don’t think I have the answers you need right now,’’ he tells
imdiately. Almost like a disclair. I am just here to tell him that I will be going back to Amber for help.
I know what we need to use.
Sohow, Jabi is still connected to , even though Lenny tried to block our connection, his wolf is still very much connected to . So she can use
as the link.
I would be his possession that she could use to find him. Blue stares at , he looks like he is thinking and I don’t bla him.
"Alanis said you were gathering so things for a potion, how will that help ?’’ I am not sure that I want to know what he is thinking because I have already made up my mind. I have to work fast and Amber is the fastest route to take right now. "Well first things first, are you ok?’’ he walks towards
and he looks a bit nervous.
"I am ok," I tell him and he nods.
"We are in this together, no matter what happens, we are a team now," he chuckles a bit nervously at that last part. I nod and look at him.
"I saw Jabi’s wolf today,’’ I tell him.
He furrows his brows "Like in a dream?’’
I shake my head "In the flesh, he ca to . Lenny took him to an island, he is all alone and I need to find him. I know you are doing your best to make a locating spell but how long is it really going to take you?’’
"I don’t know, another couple of days, then I need to wait for the potion to settle and take effect.’’
I sigh running my hands through my hair "I don’t have a couple of days, I need to find him now."
He nods in understanding "Do you have another option?"
"I have soone else, she can help ,’’ I pause and take a deep breath nervously "I think so. Fuck, I have never felt this helpless in all my life.’’
I am really breaking down in front of a lot of people these days and maybe this is the vulnerability that I have warded off for so long.
I think this feeling of helplessness is what has driven
to do things that I do. I want to feel the need to control sothing because right now, I feel out of control.
"You have to do what you need to do to find him. I will keep working on my end but if you can get to him faster, then try Amber, don’t wait for ."
He is basically telling
that I can do this my way.
I ca here to get assurance from him but it doesn’t seem like he is going to give
the assurance that I need.
I sigh and shake my head "I guess I have to," I say it almost like a mantra. I look at him.
Blue seems to have understood the hopelessness I am feeling and I can see the sadness in his eyes. I don’t know if it is sadness for
or sadness for Jabi. Either way, I have the answer that I need.
I need to go back to Amber.
I stand up and he walks out of the house with . He doesn’t talk for a few minutes. I feel the awkwardness growing with every passing second.
"Thanks for this,’’ I tell him because just accommodating my vulnerability is enough.
"Anyti."
I walk out of the door and get to my car. This is the second night in a row that I will go over to Amber’s house but I know that she would never send
away.
No matter the situation.
This is just sothing I need to do.
She is the only one that can help .
She is the only one that can find him.
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