Chapter 377: A little selfishness never hurt anyone
Alanis
I have tried to sleep but I can’t sleep not knowing what is up with Beau. I don’t want to worry about him because Justin assured
that he is fine. he is a big boy; he can take care of himself. I am so sure about that.
I have been trying to convince myself not to call Rex. I know they have stuff that they are dealing with but beau and Bells are not answering my calls. He is making
into so psychotic overanalyzing stalker. My finger lingers on Rex’s na, just as I am about to press the call button. Beau’s picture flashes on the screen. I look at the ti on my phone. It is almost one in the morning.
I don’t mind that he spent the whole day out but I just need to make sure he is okay first. "Where are you?’’ I answer the phone with a sure frown on my face.
"I am so sorry. I should have called. I have been looking for my phone everywhere. Please forgive .’’ he rambles into the phone. He doesn’t sound drunk, so he can co back ho tonight. I don’t want him spending the night outside. I hate that he is not in bed without . I feel so empty and alone.
"Co ho,’’ I mutter quietly into the phone. The window is open and wind travels all over the room. I want him next to . I don’t know why I am acting so clingy. I miss him so much.
"It’s very late and I am too drunk right now. I know this was stupid of
and I regret leaving you but I will be back tomorrow.’’ He manages quietly.
I know he is lying to . I know too much about him to know when he is not being honest. I just don’t know why he is lying right now.
"I can co to you. where are you?’’
He sighs into the phone "I don’t want you roaming around at night. Please just go to bed for tonight.’’
"I don’t want to. You are lying to .’’
"I am not."
I roll my eyes "Then co ho. It is late and I am so cold without you. You can’t leave your pregnant boyfriend alone at night. It is not fair.’’
I hear him groan; it is easy for
to get what I want when it cos to beau. I know what is going to co next before he even utters a word.
"fuck, I will be ho in thirty,’’ he breaths into the phone and I smile, already happy that he is letting
have my way. he ends the call without even a word and I know what he is going to do. I know he is going to run here. I don’t know if it was selfish of , asking him to drop everything. this is supposed to be his night out with his best friend and I am hogging up. I want to feel guilty but the only thing I feel is excitent. I am so happy that he is coming ho that I don’t even care that he might be lying to
right now.
I text Gyles, telling him everything that happened but he doesn’t reply. I guess he is asleep. I wait for Beau and it feels like ti is going very slow. I try to stay up by getting so food from the kitchen but the wait is the worst thing. After what seems like fifteen minutes my eyes start to close.
I count to ten in my head, as I wait. I don’t want to fall asleep on him. I want him to co and see that I waited for him.
The harder I try to stay up, the more sleep calls. Not long after I try to control myself, I fall asleep.
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I sll his scent before I open my eyes. I feel the warmth that only he can give . the one that he promised
for the rest of our lives. His breath is heavy as I open my eyes. "Go back to sleep,’’ he mutters quietly.
I shake my head and start to sit up. I look at him and he is dressed in a pair of jeans and one of his many black shirts. He is sweaty, almost like he ca straight to bed. "What ti is it?’’ I ask resting my head on the headboard. The plate of chicken is still on the bedside table. My eyes are foggy. I didn’t even know I was this tired.
"About two in the morning,’’ he manages. He looks exhausted. I don’t even sll any alcohol on him.
"When did you co ho?’’
His eyes shift away from mine "About an hour ago.’’
"Why didn’t you wake
up?’’ I ask him.
"You looked so peaceful, why would I wake you up?’’ he pulls
into his arms again and I rest my head on his chest.
"You are all sweaty.’’
He nods and I feel his lips on my forehead as he places a soft kiss on it "Well soone ordered
back ho, I had no choice but to run over.’’
I want to feel bad but he is here. In my arms, this is all I wanted when I asked him to co over "You need a shower,’’ I tell him, scrunching up my nose. He laughs heartily and I rember why I love him. I know I am being selfish and I will make it up to him tomorrow. I just need to satisfy my craving for him.
He grabs my hands as I try to kiss him "You just said I stink.’’
I nod. "I don’t mind.’’
He rolls his eyes playfully and presses his lips to mine. I kiss him with so much longing that he grabs
by my waist as I climb on top of him. I don’t know what is wrong with
today. The hormones and Belis. It must all be catching up to . I don’t want to think about all that. I just want him tonight.
I tug at his sweaty clothes until he is completely naked. He fights with my shorts and our bodies rub against each other.
Slowly pulling away he smiles "You should have just said you were horny. I would have dropped everything imdiately,’’ I push him away from
playfully and this gets a laugh out of him.
I don’t argue or stray from my mission.
I guess being selfish isn’t the worst thing to happen.
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