Chapter 220: I can handle all that you give
Blue.
"There is soone at the door for you,’’ Jules walks into my room without even knocking. I look up from my phone and the last ssage that my mother left. I don’t know what is going on in the coven because she hasn’t told
anything but it seems like there is sothing wrong.
Mom has always been clingy. She has always kept
on a tight leash but this is a lot more than she has ever done. All the calls, ssages, begging
to co ho. I am still upset with her but the love I have for that woman gets on my nerves.
I need you ho. This is a 911
Even as I watch Jules leave, I linger on the ssage because I don’t know how to respond to her. Another ssage pops up.
Please call
when you get my ssages.
I drop my phone on the bed and walk out of the room. I am sure it is Rex and Jules being the person he is probably didn’t let him in. he is a very conservative man. He likes to keep to himself most ti. I guess that is why he has survived as lone wolf for so long. His room door closes and I sigh loudly. He is leaving the pack in two days, so that is why he has had a snarky attitude with . He doesn’t understand why I want to stay, and yeah, I haven’t told him the reason—at this point, I don’t even know why I am hiding it from him.
It’s just that a part of
feels like he wouldn’t understand or support this. Especially with how avoidance and unaccepting Gyles is. I open the door and shock takes over my face.
"Gyles,’’ I manage, shocked that he is the one that is here. After last night, I didn’t think I would see him for like a week. He is very good at avoiding things.
"Were you asleep?’’ he asks nervously.
Why is he nervous?
"No, co in,’’ I move aside to give him space to enter the house. He does that hesitantly. He is in my house, on his own. I don’t know what it ans but I can’t help but be excited.
I lead him further into the house until we get to my room. He sighs loudly. I can sense his aura. He is freaking scared.
"You don’t have to be scared of ,’’ I tell him calmly.
He ca here on his own. I didn’t force him to co here "Are you doing that thing you usually do?’’ he asks .
I furrow my brow as I smile slightly "What thing?’’ He walks over to the bed and stands at the edge "You can sit,’’ I tell him.
He shakes his head and then obeys "The thing where you use your powers to read people?’’
My willed sense is not a power that I use. It is not sothing I can just switch off. It is sothing that happens on its own.
"I am not using it. I just sense things a lot deeper than others,’’ I explain. We are having a conversation about my magic like that is the most important thing to discuss right now. I don’t know how he feels about today.
Why he is even here in the first place?
"I am sorry,’’ he blurts out loudly at the sa ti getting off the bed.
I nod.
He runs his hands through his hair and his shirt rides up. I can’t help myself. I am not thinking of anything sexual right now but it is almost a full moon. My wolf is horny and the v line of his waist isn’t helping.
"Why are you sorry?’’ I manage with a cough. I need to get my mind out of the gutter because there is no way he is here to get it down with .
Fuck, who says get it down?
I don’t even know.
"For being a major jerk. Shit, I didn’t rehearse that. Don’t think I did,’’ he takes a step away from
and walks all the way to the window. The moon is shining brightly.
"It is almost a full moon,’’ he voices out my thoughts.
Connect with him.
My wolf pleads. I have never sensed as much desperation from him as I do at this mont. I don’t bla him. We are both in this together. Both unwanted.
"Why are you here Gyles?’’
I can’t dilly dally and pretend like things aren’t rocky. I made a promise to him earlier. One that I don’t want to keep and Rex seems to think that I should go the other direction. Lie to him and make him rember everything. I think he would hate
more if I do that but I am all out of options. I don’t know what else I can do to win his heart. It is not like it is ready for
to take. I have tried everything. Tried to be a friend, tried to help him with his issues. He has felt the pull. The one thing that weakens a wolf who doesn’t accept its mate and he is still stubborn. I am all out of options.
"I don’t know,’’ he confesses and I can tell that his confession is taking a lot from him. I have never known him to be vulnerable and maybe he is that way with Rex but he has never been that way with .
Right now, I sense a lot of vulnerability emanating from him.
I walk closer to him, he turns around imdiately and I don’t stop walking until I am in front of him. Our eyes et. He pulls
in completely. I don’t know if it is the sa for him.
"Is this about helping you forget, is that why you ca?’’
He shakes his head. We are so close. I want to reach out and touch him. Get the sa feelings I got when he hugged .
"I thought so at first but now I am not so sure anymore.’’
I sigh "You don’t want to anymore."
There is this part of
that is already excited. If he tells
that he doesn’t want to forget anymore. Then I don’t have to do anything that I don’t want to.
"I do but that is not why I am here.’’
Fuck, so much for being hopeful.
I nod because I don’t know what else to say. He ca here on his own but I don’t want to get too excited about it because at the end of this visit, all my expectations might be crushed with just a couple of words from him.
I wait for him to speak. Let the words co out on his own. I don’t want to assu anything and then be disappointed.
"I don’t know why I am here. That is the truth. I just found myself here,’’ he confesses.
My heart thuds against my chest.
He ca here because he missed you.
My wolf is fishing. Looking for a light at the end of our very, very dark tunnel. I don’t know what to think or how to feel about his confession because I don’t even know what it ans.
"Why?’’
He moves back, I move forward, we do this until his back hits the wall. I am not trying to ambush him, I just want to be close to him. My body is acting out on its own.
"I don’t know, maybe this all happened because of the hug. I don’t want you but sothing keeps pulling
to you.’’ he cries.
I don’t feel his pain. I like the torture he is going through. I want him to suffer all the emotions that co with this. He can’t act selfishly and then expect
to just give him what he wants. I reach for him. He is blaming the hug. I know it has sothing to do with how he feels right now.
"I don’t know what I am doing, I will probably regret this in the morning but can I kiss you?’’ he asks looking up at . His eyes are dark, sensual. Everything I have dread. Right now, he is here. In my room and I like to think that is progress.
Kiss him.
My wolf cries out, desperate for a little affection from the man standing in front of . You know how when you et your other half, you get a sense of completion within you. I don’t feel complete with Rex, he is just part of the process. I need Gyles to feel that way. We all need each other. So none of us will ever be complete without the other.
This is sothing that I can’t refuse because no matter how much he pushes
away, or how bad he treats , I will always want him. I will always go back to him. I get that it is a ssed up situation but no one is ever given more than they can handle.
I can handle everything that Gyles throws at .
Even this.
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