Xiao Xingshuang almost unconsciously removed her glasses imdiately.
"Xingshuang, is this your comrade-in-arms? Why don't you greet her properly?" Her mother's tone carried a hint of reproach.
"Oh, hello."
Xiao Xingshuang, as usual, dressed simply in jeans and a white T-shirt. Yet even aside from her towering chest, her slender waist and hips were enough to make anyone's nose bleed.
"Are you in a hurry? If not, shall we take a stroll?" Shen Mochen raised an eyebrow.
"Yes, yes, go for a walk. Who knows when you'll see each other again!" Xiao's mother hurriedly said.
Xiao Xingshuang was silent for a long ti before nodding.
In the early sumr afternoon, there were hardly any people outside. A rain had just fallen in the morning, leaving the garden filled with the fresh scent of flowers and earth, and the bushes and lawns under the sowhat hot sun displayed a richer green.
In the garden was a small fountain, from whose center bubbled up a jet of water, falling into the basin below with a gentle sound of flowing water.
Shen Mochen said indifferently, "You left quite quickly, without even a goodbye. Was it that urgent with Roman?"
Xiao Xingshuang silently shook her head.
Shen Mochen continued, "The captain and the others were thinking of celebrating your birthday. You knew that, right? And yet you still left?"
Xiao Xingshuang remained silent, this ti not even nodding, just hanging her head low, unusually droopy.
Seeing this, Shen Mochen was at a loss for words, suddenly feeling as if he was bullying a little girl.
"I didn't an to bla you, just that... it didn't seem right." Shen Mochen sighed, "They are all quite nice to you, right? I thought you were all friends."
"I..." Xiao Xingshuang finally spoke. She sat on a bench in the garden, her eyes downcast on the grass growing between the cracks in the concrete path, "I don't know."
"What do you not know? Don't you know whether you are friends or not?" Shen Mochen felt inexplicably annoyed, "Should I call them first to ask if they consider you a friend? Though I guess they'd be annoyed by such an obvious and silly question."
"No, I didn't an that..." Xiao Xingshuang shook her head softly, "I don't know why I left, I hadn't planned it this way. I just didn't want them to throw a birthday party."
"Why?"
"I don't know why, maybe I just didn't want to trouble them. I was planning to stay till the end, but when I heard them discussing the birthday party, I felt scared... I was really scared of them being so nice to , so I ran away."
Shen Mochen was both surprised and bewildered, temporarily at a loss for words.
"Are you really that unaccustod to people being nice to you?" Shen Mochen's voice softened slightly.
Xiao Xingshuang hesitated for a long ti: "They are all good people, it's just that I don't deserve it."
"I think there's nothing about deserving or not, I think you are excellent, worthy of others' friendship. Is it because of the issues with the previous team that you feel this way?"
"Do you know about my past?"
Shen Mochen shook his head, "I don't know, but I can probably guess. Did you have a falling out with others in your previous team?"
"Not just in the previous team, but always. I've always been kind of dumb, never knowing how to interact with others properly, always disliked by people."
"If it's just being disliked by girls, I don't see anything strange about that. People instinctively despise those who pose a threat to them, while showing tolerance to those they far surpass to demonstrate their own goodness. When I was young, boys often disliked too. I knew it was because I was handso, but being handso isn't my fault, they were just envious and resentful."
Xiao Xingshuang thought for a mont and chuckled softly, "…there are always a lot of conflicts. It's easy to hurt others unintentionally."
"Let think, like so girl blaming you for stealing her boyfriend, or being called a slut or a vixen, or getting special treatnt by boys that provokes public anger, or being pestered by the opposite sex and feeling extrely annoyed but having nowhere to vent because everyone else just thinks you're showing off? Or being bullied, isolated, slandered, and rumored because you stand out too much?"
Xiao Xingshuang was stunned for a long ti, she hadn't expected Shen Mochen to understand so well, was he the sa as her?
"You're right, I'm the sa as you. Whatever you've been through, I've been through as well… Of course, I have higher emotional intelligence, so I know how to deal with these issues, plus I'm quite fierce in fights, so gradually, no one dared to offend anymore," Shen Mochen shrugged, "But I can understand your troubles; your personality does make you an easy target for venting."
"Thank you for understanding. Maybe that's why I'm scared to accept their kindness. I don't know how to repay it. My mind has been so confused these days… They're really nice people, only 0819 would accept like this."
Perhaps because she was about to leave, Xiao Xingshuang was more talkative than usual. She spoke quickly, perhaps as an expression of her excitent.
Her fists clenched tight, her shoulders trembling slightly, as if holding back tears, "I'm sorry, I'm a coward who shirks responsibility."
"Don't take it to heart…" Shen Mochen sighed deeply, a smile soon returning to his face. He patted Xiao Xingshuang's shoulder, "If you've decided to run, then run. At least you're not leaving because you dislike them."
Xiao Xingshuang's voice was low, "Please, apologize to them for . I really appreciate their willingness to accept , this is the first ti I haven't been betrayed by friends. Especially Xia Qingrou, she has always been nice to , yet I've been hostile towards her unilaterally. I'm really a terrible woman."
"I can sense your hostility towards her, but may I know why?"
"…No special reason," Xiao Xingshuang licked her lips, her throat feeling dry, "I'm just jealous of her."
"Jealous of her?"
Shen Mochen was startled at first, thinking to himself, are you jealous that she has a boyfriend as handso as ?
But that wasn't it, Shen Mochen had felt since the first day that Xiao Xingshuang didn't quite like her.
"Her family is wealthy, her parents are so accomplished, she grew up in the capital and was able to study piano and dance. She might go to National University, she knows so much about fun and leisure, she's so happy and free. Even if she hadn't awakened her superpower, she would still have a brilliant life… I'm so jealous of her, why aren't we the sa? Why do I have to struggle so much, why is my family like this, why can't I learn piano or dance, why…"
As Xiao Xingshuang spoke, she clenched her fists tightly, her face once again displaying a trace of anger and unmistakable jealousy.
Shen Mochen watched Xiao Xingshuang's sowhat twisted expression and couldn't help but reach out to gently smooth her cheek.
In that case, shouldn't Liu Chaoyan be even more worthy of resentnt? Yet Xiao Xingshuang didn't even dare to feel jealous of Liu Chaoyan, because that was absolutely unattainable.
How pitiful.
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