233: 148: Nai’er baby, I’m sorry!
(3 updates)_2 233: 148: Nai’er baby, I’m sorry!
(3 updates)_2 She sobbed and said, “I, I have thought countless tis about the scene of us eting again, but not once was it like it is now…”
“ too,” Suo Lun said awkwardly.
“Yesterday morning, when you charged in with Xuesha’s head, the sunlight obscured your face.
I looked at your silhouette and suddenly found you looked very much like Suo Lun.
But when the sunlight shifted and I saw your face again, I was sure you were not Suo Lun, because you were completely different.
A face can change, but the look in the eyes cannot, and your eyes were altogether different,” Yan Nai’er said.
“In the past, your gaze was very naughty, always brimming with mischief, as if I could strip you with my eyes, but I simply chose not to.”
At that mont, Suo Lun had fully realized the adorable aspect of Yan Nai’er.
Even when she spoke about stripping clothes, she was dead serious.
Suo Ningbing had said that Yan Nai’er was innocent at heart, serious on the surface, and she never beat around the bush when speaking.
If she couldn’t express herself verbally, she would start using her fists.
So every ti she quarreled with Suo Lun, it would start with Yan Nai’er blushing and stuttering, and end with her pumling Suo Lun with her fists.
“You, you really have changed a lot.
I can’t recognize you anymore,” Yan Nai’er said with a complicated look in her eyes.
“You have too,” Suo Lun said.
“You’ve changed even more, so much so that when I first saw you, I didn’t dare to acknowledge you, thinking you must have a sister nad Yan Shuang.”
Seeing Suo Lun’s awkwardness, a far cry from his previously slick self, a certain indescribable sadness surged in Yan Nai’er’s heart.
After thinking for a while, she asked, “I’ve been far from you, and I’ve even deliberately avoided news about you.
How have you been during this ti?”
Suo Lun shook his head and said, “Not so good.
My father is gone, Suo Hanyi has rebelled, and Tianshui City Territory has been usurped.”
Yan Nai’er’s eyes trembled, and she said, “I haven’t been well either.
My father is also gone, and my Silver Wolf Legion…
is also about to be swallowed by others.”
Thus, the two fell silent again.
“How is Sister Ning Bing?” Yan Nai’er asked.
Suo Lun’s gaze softened as he said, “Sister is alright.
Her demands are simple; as long as I am safe, she is content.”
“Oh,” Yan Nai’er fell silent again.
The two of them were like people chatting on QQ who suddenly ran out of things to say.
Finally, it was Yan Nai’er who broke the silence.
“Turing Duo said that you ca to find for my army.
Is she right?” Yan Nai’er asked, her eyes fixed on Suo Lun.
She had always wanted to ask this question.
Now, if Suo Lun said no, it would be a lie.
If he said yes, it would be hurtful.
You abandoned before, and now you’ve returned to my side to take advantage of my army, stealthily concealing your identity.
How shaless is that?
Suo Lun lowered his head and nodded, “Yes.”
Yan Nai’er’s eyes widened as she continued, “You didn’t co to see , but you wanted to conquer , to nd our broken relationship, and then take my Silver Wolf Legion, right?”
Yan Nai’er had always been this direct, never one to beat around the bush.
Suo Lun almost bowed his head to his crotch and nodded, “Yes.”
A profoundly sad glance passed through Yan Nai’er’s eyes, her eyelashes even trembling slightly as she held back tears.
“I, I don’t bla you…” Yan Nai’er said with a tremble in her voice.
“You did it for the family.
It’s right to use anyone for that.
Just like I’m not pure and innocent, in order to keep the Silver Wolf Legion, I’ve been choosing a man to marry off to.
By doing so, I have already betrayed our love.”
Suddenly, Suo Lun felt a desire to cry from his sorrow.
He was now experiencing the pain of the scoundrel Suo Lun, that feeling of being filled with guilt.
Please, Suo Lun has already abandoned you, and he even openly transferred his affections to soone else.
Yet at this mont, you’re saying what you’re doing is betraying your love.
Yan Nai’er continued, “If no one had exposed your identity, and you continued by my side as Lanling, what would you have done?”
Suo Lun was suddenly at a loss for words because although he had the answer ready, saying it out loud was indeed incredibly sleazy.
“After becoming my prospective husband, you would use your talents to help , ensuring my victory in this struggle, and then seize the opportunity to take my virginity to beco true husband and wife.
Afterward, you would gradually reveal your identity and turn the Silver Wolf Legion into your army, right?” Yan Nai’er said seriously.
Yan Nai’er was very smart; she knew everything but chose not to hide it.
Faced with her eyes, Suo Lun finally understood that the most difficult gaze to et wasn’t one filled with threats but one filled with pure innocence, a gaze that pierced straight into your heart, leaving you with nowhere to hide.
“Yes.” Suo Lun really felt like burying his head in his crotch.
“That plan of yours isn’t right,” Yan Nai’er said.
“If everything truly happened as you planned, then the mont you revealed your true face, I would either crumble or commit suicide.”
Suo Lun’s body shook violently.
Yan Nai’er continued, “After you’ve slept with and then revealed your true identity, should I see you as Lanling or as Suo Lun?
Either way, it would be like catching my lover in adultery with another man, even though you are the sa person; but in my heart, I wouldn’t have known.”
Suo Lun trembled violently, from Yan Nai’er’s perspective, it was indeed the case.
If everything truly unfolded according to plan, then…
the mont he revealed his true identity would indeed be the mont Yan Nai’er’s life was shattered.
Suddenly, Suo Lun felt a chill throughout his body, a wave of fear washed over him, and he was imnsely relieved that none of it had happened yet.
“Suo Lun, we’ve both changed, but you’ve changed more,” Yan Nai’er said.
“The you from before loved to deceive people, never uttering a word of truth.
But now, you no longer lie.”
He no longer lied, but his scheming had deepened, and he had beco even more shaless!
Yan Nai’er said, “The one I love is the bad boy Suo Lun who liked to lie, not the Suo Lun you are now.”
Suo Lun imdiately understood her words; she loved the Suo Lun of her mories, not the matured man now who still had a slick tongue.
She had matured and would definitely not fall for a sweet-talking playboy again.
But the mark of a past love was already etched in her heart, and even though she matured, that mark wouldn’t change.
So people are always eager to leave their past behind, treating it as sothing shaful.
Like past failures, past immaturity, or past failed romances.
Others cherish their past forever, even if they’ve matured and even if their past is painful to rember.
Yan Nai’er asked again, “Suo Lun, do you want to stop fighting with Ji Gang and take the Silver Wolf Legion to Tianshui City to pledge allegiance to you?”
Suo Lun hesitated for a mont, then nodded his head; this indeed was his innermost desire.
“I’m sorry, I can’t do that,” Yan Nai’er said.
“If the Silver Wolf Legion were not in the midst of a crisis, I would be willing to help you.
But now, I would rather die in battle here than flee.”
Suo Lun nodded and said, “I know, so…
I will stay too, I’ll help you.”
“No,” Yan Nai’er shook her head.
“The man by my side could be anyone, but it absolutely cannot be Suo Lun.”
Suo Lun cried out desperately, “Why?”
Yan Nai’er replied, “I’ve said it before, I don’t hate you, but I will also never forgive you.
A broken mirror can never be made whole again.”
Suo Lun exclaid loudly, “I don’t want anything, I don’t want anything, I will stay to help you.”
“No, I don’t want to be indebted to anyone,” Yan Nai’er said.
“Although there’s a saying that goes, ‘Out of sight, out of mind,’ I am thankful for today’s eting, which gives us both the opportunity to say goodbye to the past once and for all, allowing to completely transform from Yan Nai’er to Yan Shuang.”
With a heart afla with urgency, Suo Lun felt a torrent of words surging within him, but he couldn’t utter a single one.
Taking a deep breath, Yan Nai’er began walking towards the outside while saying, “Suo Lun, the love I have for you will always be treasured in my heart, but spilt water can’t be reclaid, and we cannot return to what once was.
Starting from today, we will completely cut off our relationship.
Go, you do your things, and I’ll do mine.
Let’s wish each other well in our hearts, but also stay away from each other.”
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Note: Here’s the third update.
I wrote fourteen thousand words today; I’m truly exhausted, I’m getting old!
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