Episode 78
The discomfort I felt grew more and more as ti passed.
monster.
A monster has entered the mountains.
A monster ruined my trip to the north.
If you encounter a monster, run away…
This is what everyone we t told us during the two days we headed to the center of the mountain range.
Don’t go.
If you go, you will die.
So of them only looked at our appearance and ignored us, but most of them were very afraid of the existence of ‘monsters’.
My discomfort grew as I saw the fear etched into my mind.
Who on earth is this monster that makes us so afraid?
The more I heard about monsters, the more impatient I seed to beco.
I was worried about what would happen if that being touched Reid.
They say that if people who co to the North are afraid, they are at least Sword Expert level or higher.
What could be the reason why such a talented person ca to the North?
Of course, it’s to make money.
Otherwise, there would be no reason to co to this place where there is little food and the environnt is harsh.
At least that’s what I thought.
‘There is no reason to co unless you have a purpose for sothing else like .’
That’s true, but why do I feel so uncomfortable?
My chest felt tight, as if there was food in my stomach.
Beatrice asked with concern, as if my thoughts were showing on my face.
“Lord Redmill, are you okay?”
“uh?”
“Because your face is dark.”
When I looked around at those words, the entire group, including her, was looking at .
Their faces were reddened by the bonfire.
“Nothing.”
“If you have any concerns, please tell . “Even if I can’t solve it, I can listen to it.”
“I’m ready to listen at any ti.”
“Are you worried?”
“….”
I smiled at the sight of the group helping one by one.
And then he opened his mouth towards them.
“I was just wondering who the monster was.”
“A monster?”
“uh. “The monster they talked about keeps getting caught…”
Beatrice closed her mouth at my words.
Mahol said from next to , his eyes shining.
“Whoever that monster is, I will solve it if you ask to.”
Mahol’s words were quite reassuring.
What I’m saying is that I will deal with anyone.
This is what I wanted from him.
But even amidst that reassurance, this uneasy feeling did not go away.
As soon as I kept my mouth shut, the atmosphere beca heavier in an instant.
“I think the atmosphere has beco too dark. “How about we talk about sothing other than this?”
Beatrice joined in on Raina’s words, which she brought up after deciding that the atmosphere was too dark.
“That’s a good idea. Miss Raina. Nothing has happened yet. “It’s not too late to worry about that.”
“that’s right.”
Ellis nodded as if that was correct.
“Even though we’ve been together for quite a while, I think there’s a lot we don’t know about each other. Since this has co to an end, why not say what you want to say? “It’s good to feel good about your past and to lant how you’ve lived so far and what hardships you’ve experienced.”
It was an unexpected suggestion.
Although it was unexpected, it was also a good suggestion.
I didn’t know why things were happening like this, but it was also true that I wanted to know more about her.
‘This is definitely a good opportunity.’
She firmly believed that I was an imaginary being called Red Mill.
If he knew I was Raymond, he wouldn’t have even accompanied , let alone said sothing like that.
In that sense, this was an opportunity.
A chance to find out about her now that I believe she is Red Mill.
Today’s events may provide a stepping stone for to beco closer to her.
“Then let start with you.”
Reina spoke first.
She told what happened at the academy.
What kind of harassnt did you experience from the Iljin people and where did you live?
When the story about Raymond ca out of her mouth, she reflexively looked back at Beatrice.
Her eyes, which were looking at Raina pitifully, changed as soon as Raymond’s na was ntioned.
A strange expression with a variety of emotions mixed together.
“Honestly, I didn’t believe it at first. “When I saw my brother co back in complete disrepair, I blad everyone.”
But things changed when Raymond appeared.
Even though the action was extre, it gave hope.
As she said that, she looked at .
Those eyes were burdenso.
The reason I helped them was for my personal benefit.
I did this to gain Mahol’s favor because I needed him.
Looking at it so positively, there was sothing embarrassing about it.
“I hated everyone.”
And then Mahol opened his mouth.
He said he hated the world and couldn’t have endured it without his brother.
“Thanks to him, we were able to change.”
“….”
After he finished speaking, Beatrice was silent for a while.
He was looking at them with confused eyes, as if his thoughts were complicated.
“I…”
she began slowly.
“It’s hard to believe what you say.”
“….”
Although their bodies trembled at her words, Mahol and Reina listened calmly.
“I think it’s soone I know… but it’s very different from what I knew.”
Her eyes shook violently as she spoke.
“There was a friend of mine. His na is Jerion Skylar.”
“Skylar!”
Raina sighed at the appearance of the famous family.
The Skylar family was a renowned family so distinguished that it was recognized by the Academy.
In response to that sigh, Beatrice smiled bitterly and looked into space as she spoke.
“10 years. Yeah, it must have been about 10 years. Ten years ago, my friend Jerion attended a banquet held at the Millennium family. “He was so sociable that he had many close friends, and above all, he was known for taking good care of his younger siblings.”
“….”
“But there was an accident. “The hunting ground may have been mismanaged, orcs that shouldn’t have appeared there appeared.”
Suddenly, a spark appeared in her eyes.
She was talking about an incident that remained a lifelong trauma to her.
“If I had been alone, I could have run away. He was so talented in magic that he was called a prodigy. “I was able to pull out one of my own bodies.”
“…But it looks like sothing happened.”
I asked and she turned to .
Her eyes were red.
“yes. After all, his younger brothers were there. “Of course.”
She gritted her teeth, emphasizing ‘if it’s right’.
The record from that ti ca to mind.
“Beatrice and Raymond were there.”
“Uh… if it’s Raymond.”
“yes. “It is probably the man you were talking about.”
When she nodded, Mahol and Raina’s expressions beca strange.
What happened at that ti was kept completely secret, so only those who knew and those who did not know did not know.
“He sacrificed himself to protect his younger brothers. And… the results were disastrous.”
When Jerion said she had beco a vegetable, she gritted her teeth.
“I don’t bla his actions. “Knowing his character, he will repeat the sa behavior whenever the situation arises.”
“….”
“I know that saving people’s lives is a noble thing. But what if the person who survived the sacrifice beca a fool? “What aning does that sacrifice have?”
“…So you were resentful?”
At my words, she looked at and lowered her head.
“I felt resentful.”
Does saying that I felt resentful an that I don’t feel resentful now?
“At first, I tried to understand. Okay, I thought it was just a little difficult because of the shock. “I thought it would have been because it would have been difficult to think about it if I hadn’t said I would go into the hunting ground.”
“It wasn’t. A year passed and I started to resent the fact that things had gotten worse than before. Did he sacrifice himself to save that guy? “Why could he only do that?”
“I was full of such resentnt. Then suddenly a thought occurred to . His own younger brother was also there. “The mont I realized that it wasn’t Raymond’s fault alone, I felt ashad of myself for blaming others.”
“It’s no one’s fault. The situation at that ti was just not good. Raymond, who was fussing about wanting to go to the hunting ground, and I, who couldn’t stop him, knew that it wasn’t his fault for sacrificing himself, but I still resented him… I needed soone to bla. “I felt like I could endure it that way.”
“And Raymond was there. “I thought it was his fault because he lived like a fool despite his sacrifices.”
“How is it now?”
“Right now… I’m not sure. I t Raymond recently. But… a lot has changed. To the point where I doubt if this is the Raymond I know. Far from being incompetent, he was talented. It just took a long ti to figure it out. And it was a bit shocking to see the talent start to shine.”
“so.”
“I couldn’t bla him anymore. How can you be resentful? “He eventually changed himself and got away with it.”
“I guess you’re not like that?”
“yes. I still rember what happened back then. “If I close my eyes, I can picture him sacrificing himself to protect his younger brother.”
Before she knew it, she was imrsed in it.
If others heard it, they couldn’t even tell the difference to the point where they would wonder if she was Beatrice.
“I was embarrassed at first because the person I wanted to bla was gone, and then I started to resent myself for still standing still.”
“….”
“I wanted to change. Because I can’t stay in that position forever. Because it has to change. So…”
“So that’s why you ca to the North.”
“…yes. “I thought that if I deal with monsters and live in the North, I might be able to change myself.”
“Good job.”
“…?”
“Good job. It took ti, but it was sothing that was ant to change in the end. Trying to change isn’t easy. It’s difficult. Still, it’s a good thing you’re trying to do sothing.”
“Ah…”
Clear tears flowed from her eyes.
“uh. “Why am I suddenly like this?”
She lifted her hand and rubbed her eyes.
I could see that he was embarrassed that he had suddenly started crying.
She couldn’t hide her tears for a while.
It was as if everything that had been building up had exploded all at once.
We watched her for a while.
After she cald down sowhat, we went to bed.
The feeling of discomfort towards the monster has disappeared, but now an feeling of discomfort has arisen on the other side.
I couldn’t say that I liked it because I indirectly heard Beatrice’s personal thoughts.
Rather, I only had more worries about what to do with her.
The sight of her blaming herself was shocking in many ways.
I thought they were simply blaming Raymond, but that wasn’t the case.
‘It’s hard to live a real life.’
Dealing with people is also very difficult.
After a night where I couldn’t sleep properly, morning ca.
“Oh shit.”
Another difficulty faced .
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