After Mother ng walked away, ng Sangyu slowly headed back to her bedchamber step by step, Nurse Feng devastated behind her. She opened her mouth to speak a few tis, but stopped herself.
Nurse if you have anything to ask, you can. ng Sangyu rubbed the fur on ABaos back as she spoke.
Your Ladyship, the duchess said you were shielding the Gracious Consort from harm, exactly what does this an? It couldnt, it couldnt be that all of the favor and love His Majesty has shown you are fake? Nurse Feng still couldnt really accept the reality.
It is so, His Majestys favor for is but to show favor to the ng family, in order to restrain the family of the empress and the Li family. Im no more than a gun in the His Majestys hands. Where he points is where I have to hit. I cannot disobey the consequence of disobedience you just have to look at the current empresss family. As for the Gracious Consort, the sa three years in the palace, the sa rise in five ranks in three years, the favor she has received is no less than mine. But under His Majestys purposeful arrangent, Im one step ahead of her every ti. Thus, I beca the favored consort before the peoples eyes. She, on the other hand, has lived peacefully hiding behind my spotlight. So between the two of us, who do you think the emperor is actually good to? ng Sangyus voice was disinterested, with neither anger nor hate. It was as if she was talking about soone else.
So it was like this! Nurse Feng muttered, her eyes blank and her mind fallen back into her mories. Suddenly, she raised her head and hurriedly asked, Then the dicine for having children His Majesty especially found for you really, really is
Yeah. Father has hundred of thousands of brave soldiers under his command. If I were to bear a son, in order to protect father would definitely not willingly retire. For scholars to bankrupt a nation they must go through much efforts, but if a general were to revolt, all he would need to do is raise the sword in his hand. His Majesty is most averse to empress lines holding strong power, this type of situation is sothing he would definitely not allow to happen. Not only , how do you think the empress died? Was it really ? She was forced to death by His Majesty and the won of this entire inner palace! ng Sangyu coldly laughed, her eyes looking distantly out the window. She didnt notice that in her lap, ABao gaze was frozen in shock on her.
The empress was not forced to death by Your Ladyship? Nurse Feng asked surprised.
Her family had already fallen, the son she gave birth to had also passed, and her health was deteriorating to its end. What good would it bring to force her to death? She listened to rumors and suspected that her son was poisoned to death by . She had wanted to use the last of her to take down with her. Naturally, I couldnt just sit and wait for her to do that. ng Sangyu sighed, in a low voice, All I did was go see her and tell her the truth. I never harm children. All she had to do was calm down and get soone to investigate to find out. In the whole palace, other than , who hadnt tried harming her child? The Worthy Consorts screen divider, the Imperial Consorts purse, the Beautiful Consorts story book, her confidants incense even the prideful Gracious Consort gifted a set of poisoned porcelain. She didnt look for these people, but especially ca after a shielding tool like , I couldnt let her die so unjustly. The day after, she probably affird the truth herself, got angry and just went like that. So people werent able to achieve their goal of using her to get , naturally they needed to create so rumors for His Majesty to co after . Its too bad that Im still of use to His Majesty, His Majesty wouldnt do anything to so they could only be disappointed in the end.
So this is how it is other than this phrase, Nurse Feng could not find other words to describe express her feelings.
Emperor Zhouwu had already stiffened completely into a fossil. The Virtuous Consort aside, he had always thought that the empress was forced to death by the Virtuous Consort. The empresss family had already fallen, he never thought of taking the empresss life, much less the child of formal lineage he had been waiting for. Hearing that the virtuous consort saw the empress and the empresss passed away in anger, he had to force his outrage down at the ti and had disgusted the Virtuous Consort since. But now, from beginning to end he was blinded, fooled by a bunch of won! And the Gracious Consort, she actually also pushed forward the events from behind! Prideful? Honorable? I see! This is her pride and honor!
For the first ti, Emperor Zhouwu started reflecting on whether he was too full of himself. Prideful to the point of becoming an idiot.
Not only so, why do you think my brother had beco how he is? Nurse, you must rember how intelligent he was when he was little. He was forcibly raised to be unaccomplished by my father and mother! Because the revered Duke household doesnt need an genius and talented heir! To ruin their own child is stabbing the hearts of father and mother! But to live, what other choice did they have? ng Sangyu lowered her head and covered her eyes, refusing to allow the tears in her eyes to be seen.
Emperor Zhouwus heart tightened. He didnt dare to look at her expression.
Its been hard on you Your Ladyship! Why didnt Your Ladyship tell earlier? Nurse Feng kneeled at her feet in uncontrollable tears.
Quickly get up nurse. ng Sangyu hurriedly helped her up. She gently explained, Nurse youre personality is so upright and your unable to hide things. If you had known all the nooks and crannies of these things, when His Majesty cos it would be difficult for you hide it and His Majesty would beco suspicious. Thats why Ive hidden this from you. But now its different. The Gracious Consorts wish has already co true. Father will also soon give away his military power and retire from court. Im no longer of use to His Majesty. If I still dont let you know the truth, Im afraid you would encourage to curry favor. I would be troubled by that.
Your Ladyship, this servants a fool, this servant will never do it again! Nurse Feng imdiately pointed to the sky and swore, guilt and regret filled her heart.
I believe you nurse. ng Sangyu raised her head. She forced back the tears in her eyes and in a strangely contagious light and cheerful voice, from now on well be living hard tis. I still have to rely on nurse for a lot of things. Nurse you will take care of and help like before, right?
This servant is willing to do anything for Your Ladyship! Nurse Feng wiped her tears dry and quickly composed herself.
Nurse Fengs words are too harsh. ng Sangyu shook her head and laughed, joking, actually Im not pitiful, in this palace theres a person more pitiful than . Every ti I think of him, I feel better.
Who? Nurse Fengs gaze changed.
That person is the emperor. Shen Huiru, no matter appearance, talent or virtue, not a single one is outstanding. But she has an advantage, she doesnt have a strong family. And her prideful personality makes her unwilling to compete for favor and give people a feeling of being power thirsty. Loving a woman like this is safe and easy, with no threat to imperial power. What His Majesty loves is not her person, but this feeling of safety. A person who lives in a cage he set for himself, even his feelings go through layers of calculation dont you think His Majesty is the most pitiful of us all? Whats even more pitiful is that he loved the wrong person! Does Shen Huiru really only love his person and not power? Not likely! ng Sangyu lowered her eyes, shaking her head with a mocking laugh.
Nurse Feng thought about it montarily then nodded, letting out a sigh.
Emperor Zhouwu quickly raised his head and looked towards the woman. With a fiery gaze in his eyes, there was an intense emotion resonating through his heart, as if thunder struck the walls of his heart. How could this woman be so intelligent, so perceptive? She has completely peeled away the defense of his heavily guarded heart! He had thought that Shen Huiru was the person that understood him most, but looking at it now, the person that understands him most is right here.
The Virtuous Consort is so attentive of , could it be that she had once towards .Badump badump, Emperor Zhouwus disillusioned heart once again began beating furiously.
Your Ladyship you understand His Majesty so well, is it because of deep rooted love for His Majesty? Nurse Feng asked hesitantly. Only love would make a woman so attentive of a man.
Emperor Zhouwu clenched his paws, full of hopefulness, waiting for the womans answer.
Deep rooted love? The Virtuous Consort enunciated these four words, her expression like a smile yet not a smile, Nurse, would you fall in love with a person who uses you, hurts you and throws you away after youre no longer of use? Im not a masochist, I wont take a path to death like that. His majesty and I are just employer and employee relationship, were just both using each other, theres nothing else to it. A woman with a heart and emotional would not be able to survive in this palace.
Emperor Zhouwus furiously beating heart abruptly stopped. In his head other than chaos there was only the four words both using each other!
Nurse Fengs worried expression softened. She hesitated a mont before again asking, Then Your Ladyship do you hate His Majesty?
Emperor Zhouwu stiffened his back and tail. He felt like he almost couldnt breath anymore.
Haha~ As if she heard a joke, ng Sangyu waved her hand and lightly laughed, Why should I hate His Majesty? What would hating him do for ? Do you really think I dont have a way to avoid all that dicine? I just dont want to bear a child for him. Theres no love nor hate. Instead of wasting my feelings on him, be torn and pained, its better to love myself and live my own life. Dont you think so, nurse?
Nurse Feng also gave a relaxed laugh, nodding her head in agreent.
These words beca the last straw to shattering Emperor Zhouwus hopes. A ripping pain ca from his heart and Emperor Zhouwu gave a painful whimper, jumped off the Virtuous Consorts lap and stumbled outside. He needed so ti to himself to sort out these feelings of stabbing pain in his heart.
Seeing ABao run out, ng Sangyu wasnt very worried. She just thought he wanted to play by himself for a bit. Recently ABao has beco more and more obedient. Even without soone watching after him he understands he cant run out of Bixiao Palace. The ti he spends wandering the garden definitely wont be more than an hour.
But ng Sangyu predicted wrongly this ti. ABao had left for more than four hours. Even when it was ti for dinner he wasnt back.
Your Ladyship, weve already looked all over the places ABao usually likes to go to, but we havent caught sight of him. Bi Shui and Yin Cui reported in a low voice, hurriedly entering from outside the hall.
Look again! Look carefully! ng Sangyus expression tightened as she ordered anxiously. This dirty muddled palace can even chew up a human, much less a little puppy. Because of long term stress, the people in the palace more or less all have so personality disorders*, with many freaks who enjoy taking their stress out on people and small animals.
Yes! Bi Shui and Yin Cui felt the anxiety in their masters heart. The imdiately sent more servants to look.
ng Sangyu waited for 45 minutes. The sun had reddened to a blood red, hanging off the roof of a palace, and the sky was already dimming to complete darkness. A cold draft rose up from the ground and the large temperature difference between day and night was already evident. Seeing this, her heart was uncontrollably filled with more anxiety.
A whole body with no fur and he dares to play until this late and not return! After I find you we must properly punish you! ng Sangyu circled around the hall, muttering to herself.
Did you find him? After another hour, seeing Bi Shui return, ng Sangyu hurriedly inquired.
Forgive Your Ladyship, weve looked all over Bixiao Palace and havent found ABao. But the servant watching the palace gate said that he hasnt seen ABao run out. This servant was afraid Your Ladyship would worry and especially ca back to report. We will continue searching now. Bi Shui quickly said.
You can go. ng Sangyu furrowed her brows and waved Bi Shui off. She paced back and forth restlessly in the front hall.
Your Ladyship, ABaos so small. Even if he just found a random hole to crawl into it would take people a while to find. Dont worry, he may have curled up sowhere and fell asleep. When he wakes up hell naturally return. Nurse Feng gently comforted. If it was before, if ABao got lost then he got lost. She definitely would not worry. But now that she knows that ABao is special to Her Ladyship, she couldnt help but beco worried.
Fell asleep? A light flashed through ng Sangyus eyes. She imdiately walked out toward her bedchamber. Pushing the door open, she went straight to the glamorous, large carved rosewood bed. She pulled up the sheets and bent down to look under. A small ball was, as expected, sprawled below the bed, blinking his grape like black eyes, looking startled at her!
Found you! ng Sangyu sighed, thinking to herself: kittens and puppies all like going under beds after all!
Not having prepared himself to face the Virtuous Consort, suddenly seeing her beautiful face made Emperor Zhouwu hold his breath and reflexively bring up his paws and cover his eyes.
Whats wrong? Little one co out! The anxiety and anger in her heart was extinguished by ABaos dumb and cute behavior. ng Sangyu called out to him not knowing whether to laugh or to cry.
ABao seems as if hes very upset? Nurse Feng asked suspiciously as she squated down to look. This puppy is rather a little too intuitive. The shape of him curled up in the dark actually could give off such a devastated feeling.
ng Sangyus expression tightened. She thought to herself that it wasnt just her imagination after all. ABaos condition wasnt really right. Not like the ancients apathetic to animals, ng Sangyu knows that little animals also have thoughts and emotions, they also have their own preferences, anger, sadness and happiness. ABao got hurt two tis, and this entire month he has been stuck in Bixiao Palace, not allowed to go out. Just a mont ago he was affected by her and mothers negative emotions as well. He doesnt have depression does he?
ABao quickly co out, co to . I can make yummy food for you and play with you. Ill take you to the imperial garden for walks in the mornings and evenings She enticed him. Her naturally clean and gentle voice carried an unusual power with it that made its way into Emperor Zhouwus heart.
The reality he has believed in is slowly crumbling, his view on life and the world are all being completely overturned. This process is not a comfortable one for Emperor Zhouwu. He had never reflected on himself as deeply before. He has also never seen his weakness so clearly before: listening to and believing in those close to him unreasonably, while over paranoid of others. He lacks the tolerance for others, seeming opinionated and arbitrary. As this continues, it would be only a matter of ti before he and his retainers beco distant. Isnt the chaotic court at the mont the perfect proof?
He was felt incompetent, disappointed in himself, and anxious as if in quicksand, unable to get out. He thought that if he just had a mont to himself he would feel better, but when the Virtuous Consorts vibrant face appeared, when she brightly smiled and spoke with a gentle pampering voice, her words beating on his ear drums and heart, he unconsciously put down his paws, stood up, and slowly walked out from under the bed, uncontrollably plunging into the arms that have been waiting for him.
Good ABao~ so good ng Sangyu picked ABao up and kissed his little mouth, muttering comforting words nonstop. Her care for him was overflowing through her words and action.
Emperor Zhouwu whimpered and began desperately licking the beautiful lips before him, thinking to himself: Wait for us to get our body back, we will definitely love you, care for you, protect you well. Please dont say those words that stabs our heart again!
ng Sangyu just thought that ABao was playing with her. Seeing him suddenly beco lively again, she sighed in relief and warmly gave a few kisses back, causing ABaos little tail to wag even more rapidly.
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