I didn't have much work to do in the office because Lilla and Mairenn had already taken care of the docunts I needed to work on these past few days. So, my plan of drowning myself with work didn't happen.
I just spent an hour or two working with docunts today and spent the rest of my morning doing nothing at all.
I look at the clock and heave a sigh when I realize it's already ten in the morning. I didn't even realize I was staring blankly in thin air for hours now.
I was about to go out and check what is happening in the Foundation when I bumped into Lilla, who was about to knock on my door.
"Da Csille! Doctor Pascal is here to talk to you. Should I send him in?"
I frown. Brother Pascal? Why is he here? Is he here to scold again?
"Da Csille?"
I nod my head at Lilla. "Please, send him in. Also, make sure no one will interrupt our conversation.
I don't want anyone to know the current situation in the Lauretré family. Everyone in the Foundation has seen how Brother Pascal takes care of Csille, and I'm sure they will be in shock when they see us arguing. So, to avoid any conflict or gossip about it, I decided to just keep it from everyone.
Lilla imdiately left to fetch Brother Pascal while I pretended that I was doing sothing in my office. I am reading an old docunt that I have found in my office.
I don't want Brother Pascal thinks that I was avoiding them. Although that is partially true. That I am here in the Foundation because I was avoiding the confrontation with them.
A mont after, the door opened, and I heard soone walk inside my office. I continue to pretend that I am busy reading sothing.
I heard a sigh. "Csille."
I look up and stare at Brother Pascal. He has a guilty look on his face. "I heard from Lilla that you were busy working in the Foundation. So, I wouldn't take too much of your ti and be straightforward."
I nod my head and wait for him to talk. I don't know his purpose for coming here, so I would rather hear what he wants to say first before I say anything.
I can see the hesitation in his eyes. "I ca here to check on you. Aunt and Uncle were busy with their respective jobs, so they couldn't visit you at the Foundation. We were terrified when we woke up, and we couldn't find you in the guest room. It's a good thing the guards inford us that you left early this morning to work in the Foundation. Csille, yo-"
I scoff and interrupt him. "Are you worried that I sneak out again? Are you here to check if what I have said to the guards is true? That I will be working in the Foundation?" I stare at Brother Pascal and smile sadly. "Don't I have any rights to do what I want to do?"
I heard him sigh. "I am not here to argue with you, Csille. I'm just here to make sure you are safe and to apologize for what I have done yesterday. I know I beco overboard when I take down your door, and I'm sorry. I just got tired of your whims these days. That's why I have done that. However, I never plan to take away your rights. I'm sorry."
I actually expected this would happen. Brother Pascal is the responsible type of person. He will apologize to anyone if he knows he has done sothing wrong to them.
I take a deep breath and nod my head. I'm actually not mad about what he did. Maybe disappointed but not mad. I know I was the reason why he had done those things.
"I understand. However, I hope you wouldn't repeat what you have done."
I want to apologize to him too, because I know I said hurtful things to him last night. But I need to talk like the real Csille, and I know she wouldn't apologize for what she has said to him.
Brother Pascal stares at for a couple of seconds. He is probably expecting that I would also apologize to him too, but he will only be disappointed. The real Csille is not humble like Brother Pascal. So, even if he stays here for the whole day, I'm sure the real Csille will not apologize to him.
I heard him sigh after. "I will be leaving then. Take care of yourself, Csille."
He left after he said those words. I just stare at his back and smile sadly.
I know I disappointed him. I know he was expecting to apologize to him too, but I never did.
"I'm sorry, Brother. I couldn't do what you want to do because that is not how the real Csille deals with things. You also know her. She doesn't know how to apologize to soone. So, I'm sorry."
Lunch has arrived. I was planning to treat everyone to a al. But I was startled to see Rufus sitting in the wheelchair while being pushed by a guard behind him.
He smiles widely at when he sees . "Csille," he said in a hoarse voice. It's understandable, though. He just woke up, and his throat is still adjusting.
I look at Lilla and frown. But Lilla shakes her head at and shrugs her shoulders, indicating that she doesn't know why Rufus is here.
What is this Prince doing here? He just woke up yesterday. Isn't he supposed to be resting in the hospital?
Rufus's smile froze when he noticed the confusion in my expression. Then he pouts at . "Purplany, don't you miss ? Why does it looks like you're not happy to see here?"
I look at Rufus and heave a sigh. "Apologies, Prince Rufus, I just didn't expect I would see you here. Haven't you just woken up yesterday? Is it okay for you to be here?" Rufus frowned when he heard what I had said. "Prince Rufus? Why are you addressing like that? Also, I asked the Doctors to allow to co here. Don't worry. I have brought one with ." He then looks at his back, and I see a woman wearing a Doctor's coat. "So, you don't have to worry. I ca here because I heard what happened while I was unconscious. Csille-"
I shake my head and interrupt him. Although I was happy that he was here, I needed to push him away. I need to make him see that I am distancing myself from him.
Rufus will only get hurt if he continues being friendly with , the future traitor of the Vrawyth Kingdom.
"Your highness, please return to the Hospital. I don't think it's okay for you to wander around." I look at the Doctor. "Am I right, Doctor?"
The Doctor looks at Rufus at first before she looks at and nods her head. "Apologies, Prince Rufus but Da Csille is right. It is not good for your health to be out. You just woke up, and you still need to rest."
I was about to suggest them to bring Rufus back to the Hospital, but Rufus said sothing first. I don't want anything to happen to him.
"Csille, what are you doing? Why are you addressing , your highness, and Prince Rufus? Are you mad at because I wasn't there with you when I needed you the most? Is it the reason why you never visited once in the Hospital?" A tear fell from Rufus's eyes, and my
heart breaks when I see that.
I don't want to hurt him, but I need to do this. I need to push everyone important to because I don't want to involve them with Csille's tragic future.
I can bear to deal with those things in the future, but I won't be able to bear to see the people
I love suffer with . So, even if it's painful to hurt them, I don't have a choice.
I ignore what he said and look at the Doctor behind him. "Bring him back to the Hospital. The Duke and the Dutchess will surely get mad once they know you brought him out."
The guard and the Doctor look at Rufus. They want to hear if Rufus agrees with what I have
suggested.
So, I look at him too and shake my head. "Your highness ple-"
I wasn't able to continue what I said because Rufus cut off. "Stop it, Csille. You know I
hate it when you call that way." Then I heard him sigh. "I know my cousin has hurt you but do you need to push too? I am not Prince Fraser, Csille. So, why are you throwing away our friendship just like that?"
I almost cried when I heard what he said, but I just forced myself to still look cold. "Your highness, I don't understand what you are saying. This has nothing to do with his highness Prince Fraser. I am doing this because this is what I should do in the first place. I am only a Da, and you are a Prince. It wouldn't be right if I just addressed you by your na only. So, I hope you wouldn't misunderstand things here."
Rufus laughs sarcastically. "You have been calling that way ever since we were young, and you never had an issue with it before. But because your engagent with my cousin got canceled, you started to act like this? I thought we were friends?"
We are, Rufus, and you will always be a friend of mine. But I need to do this. I don't want to hurt you more in the future. So, please don't make it too hard for . I am also in pain every
ti I push you away.
If you only knew that.
I bow my head at him. "Your highness, please don't be stubborn and let them take you back.
We will all get in trouble if the Duke and the Dutchess know about this. So, please, I am begging you. Please go ba-"
He laughed sadly and raised his hand to make stop from talking. He then stares at with his teary eyes. "If that is what you want to do, then I would do that. You don't need to push
anymore."
He snaps his fingers while staring at . I can see the disappointnt in his eyes. He is disappointed with , and it's the first ti I have seen that from him. "Take back to the
Hospital."
The guard and the Doctor bow their heads before they push Rufus's wheelchair towards the
exit.
I just stare at them and smile bitterly. Sooner or later, I will lose everything and everyone. This is just the start.
I was startled when Rufus suddenly stopped the guard and the Doctor from pushing his wheelchair. He then tries his best to look back at . "Csille, please don't push . I don't want to lose my only friend."
I felt my hand tremble, and my eyes moisten when I heard what he said. But I force myself not to cry or make him see that I am affected by what is happening.
I can't let him see that I am regretting this decision. That I don't like to push him away. Rufus smiled bitterly when he didn't see any reaction from . "If you need anyone, you
know where you can find . I will be waiting for you, purplany."
He then asks the guard to push his wheelchair away from the Foundation. The mont I see his carriage left, I feel tears start to fall from my eyes. I thought I was
strong enough to face Csille's future, but I was wrong. No matter how much I prepare myself,
I can't still prepare myself for the pain.
I was busy crying silently when I felt sothing hold my hand. I look down and find Lilla
holding my hand while staring at worriedly. "Da Csille, why do you do things that hurt you?"
I smile bitterly. Why? Because I am the Villainess, and villainess aren't ant to be happy.
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