Why Did I Become the Villainess? Chapter 135 - : Hearts Breaking

I imdiately get up from my bed, panting. The dream seems surreal. Prince Fraser and Princess Paislee having a secret relationship? I smile bitterly.

It is what is supposed to happen, Csille. Co on, cheer up. We still have plenty of ti to prepare myself for that.

I sigh. I look at the clock hanging on the wall, and my eyes imdiately widen when I realized what ti is it. It's already twelve in the afternoon. It's the reason why I'm starving.

I imdiately freshen up myself and check the dining room, but there's no one inside. I check the kitchen, and I see two maids doing the dishes. They imdiately bow their head when they see .

"Lady Csille! Why did you leave your room? Are you okay now?" One of the maids asked anxiously. She keeps looking at my back. It's as if she is expecting soone will pop out from behind .

"I'm starving. Also, you don't have to worry about . I'm already okay. Where are the others?"

The two maids look at each other before they drag one of the chairs to let sit. "We apologize, Lady Csille. Soone is assigned to bring you your lunch. That person probably forgot it. We'll prepare your lunch imdiately. Do you have specific food you like to it?"

I smile at the maid. She looks so anxious. She probably thought I would be mad at her. "Anything would do."

One of the maids imdiately calls the chef while the other continues to wash the dishes.

"Where are the others? Are they training again? And did the Crown Prince said sothing about ?"

The maid stops what she is doing and faces . It's rude not to face the person you are talking to. "All of them get up early to continue their training. The Crown Prince didn't say anything about you, Lady Csille. But Mister Leander told us that we should call him if you wake up." The maid's eyes widen. "We need-"

I wave my hand at the maid. "No need. I'll go to the library after eating my lunch. Just continue what you are doing."

I imdiately get out of the kitchen. I don't want the maid to see the tears that are starting to stream from my eyes.

He really doesn't care about . He hates now. I smile bitterly at myself. Finally, he hates now. But my heart couldn't help but wish that he would care for again. I missed those days when I got fever he will rush to and takes care of .

In just a mont, everything was gone. He doesn't even care if I didn't eat breakfast or lunch. He doesn't even care if I will die with the fever I have. He doesn't care about now. He's probably mad at because I made him hope that we can work things out, but in the end, I break up with him.

I could feel my heart starts to break into pieces. It hurts. It really hurts. It hurts to the point that I want to run towards him, hugs him tightly, and take back my words. It hurts soo much that I want to be selfish. But I know I cannot do that. No matter what I do will be the Villainess, and nothing can change that fact.

I take a deep breath to try to control my emotions. I cannot let my emotions get to . We have a lot of problems we need to solve right now. I have no ti for this.

After eating my breakfast, I imdiately check the library to talk to Rufus. I have sothing to talk to him. It's sothing important, and only Rufus can help .

However, I didn't see anyone in the library. They are all probably training in the training ground.

I suddenly felt guilty. I only trained for a couple of days after we ca here, but the four of them are always training every day. Aren't I too lazy?

I check the library again before deciding to go to the etiquette room. I'll probably just train for the whole afternoon. Although I don't have to train much because the real Csille will be the one who will be competing. And I don't have to worry because the real Csille can definitely top the etiquette without a problem.

I am now walking past the garden that doesn't have many flowers. My steps halted when I realized there's one flower that stood out. It's a striped carnation.

I walked towards the flower and squatted down in front of it. I touch its petals and smile. This flower definitely describes my feelings for Prince Fraser.

Striped Carnation. The flower of refusal. In the flower language, it can an 'Sorry I Can't Be with You' or 'Wish I Could Be with You'.

I smile bitterly at the flower. I really wish I can be with him. But I know I cannot. I definitely can't. I want to be selfish, but what can my selfishness result into? The death of all the people? What's the use of being happy if everyone will die in return. Including him. I cannot bear to see that happen.

I get up and take a look at the flower before walking straight to the Etiquette room. What welcos is a clean room. A proof that I rarely visit this room to train. I shake my head. I really need to start training. Although I want to avoid Prince Fraser, I cannot affect the competition. We definitely need to win this.

I look around and frown. "What would I do? I already trained for flower arrangents and tea ceremonies. Should I do embroidery now?"

I check the cabinets if there are things I need for embroidery, but I couldn't find any. Where would Eve put the things for embroidery?

I look at the storage room and smile. Maybe she stores it in there. I imdiately check the storage room. It took a lot of ti to find what I need because there's a lot of things stored in the storage room. Things that are needed for the Etiquette category. And since I wasn't the one who arranged things here, so I find it difficult to search around it.

I smile to myself when I find what I needed. I already have the sewing needle, embroidery thread, embroidery scissors, embroidery hoop, and fabric.

I am about to get out of the storage room when I heard the door opens. I frown. Who is that person?

I don't know why but I don't feel like showing myself to that person. What if it's Prince Fraser? I would rather be stuck in here than to face him. After all, I have said to him last ti? I still don't want to see him. I'm afraid I will change my mind. I'm afraid I will rush towards him and hug him tight.

I heard movents outside. The person is probably walking around the room. My eyes imdiately widen. I imdiately lock the storage room so that person can't co inside. No matter who is that person is, I don't want to see him or her.

Silence is the only thing I could hear after. Did the person left already? But why didn't I heard the door open and close?

I was startled when I heard a faint sound. I put my ear on the door to check what is that sound. My eyes widened when I realized that the sound is a sob. That person is sobbing. But why is that person sobbing? And who is the person?

The sobbing continues for a couple of minutes before that person started to talk. I covered my mouth when I realized who that person is.

"Csille, why are you so unfair? I know I have done sothing wrong too. But why did you broke off to just like that? It's as if I was never an important person in your life? Why is it soo easy for you to break up with ? Didn't you say you like ? Where is that like now? What happened?"

I heard Prince Fraser said with a trembling voice. I even heard his voice break. I cover my mouth to muffled my sobs. I thought he didn't care already, but I was wrong. He still cares, but he forces himself not to care because I broke up with him already.

I silently slump on the floor. My knees are getting weaker. I thought that the pain I am feeling before is already too much, but after hearing Prince Fraser's words. I feel the pain triples. It really hurts. Damn. Why do I feel hurt like this? It is even painful than the first ti I had my heart broken. He is just fourteen years old. Why does it hurts like this?

I hear Prince Fraser continue to sobs outside. While I bite my lips to stop myself from sobbing too. I cannot let him know that I could hear him.

"Csille, I want to know why? I want you to tell what should I do so I can fix this. I still want to be with you and only you. Please, I beg of you, tell what I should do. I miss you already."

I cry even harder when I heard what he said. How I wish I could do sothing to fix this. However, how can I fix sothing that isn't supposed to happen? How can I fix a mistake?

I miss him too. I really do. But what can I do? I am tied to the novel. Even he is tied to the novel. Even if I pushed this, there would co a ti that he will fall in love with the female lead. So, why force sothing that will end in the dust?

I lean my head on the wall. I badly want to get out of this room and run to him. Tell him that I'm taking back my decision. That I don't want to break up with him. But my conscience wouldn't let do it.

I'm sorry, Fraser. I'm sorry if I cannot do anything. Believe , if only I have a choice, I wouldn't do this. But it's the only thing I can do for the two of us. For everyone. I'm so sorry. Please forgive for always hurting you. If I can only take away your pain, I would gladly take it. But I cannot do that. So, I'm sorry. I'm really sorry. I still like you.

"Csille, do you hate ? Do you hate this much to even break up with ? I-I th-" his voice broke, and I feel my heart broke too. "I thought you wouldn't hate ? Didn't you promise that? But why? Why does it feels like you hate ? I already told you I could compromise, right? I can. Just give another chance, and I promise not to ss it up. Just another chance, Csille. All I am asking is a chance." He sobs again.

It's a good thing I couldn't see him right now, or else I would probably run to him and hugs him tight.

Chance? Fraser, if I can only decide for myself, I would give you a chance. Even the chance of a lifeti. But I don't have any other option, Fraser. It's the only thing I can do for you. I hope soday, you will realize why I am doing this.

"It hurts, Csille. It really hurts that I couldn't even talk to you. While Rufus and Leander can talk to you whenever they want. Why? I am your fiancé. But why can't I talk to you? Why did it turn like this, Csille? I miss you. I really miss you."

I bite my lips hard until it bleeds. I need to muffle my sobs. I don't want him to see like this, or else I don't know if I could still control my heart.

"I miss you too, Fraser. I really do," I whispered to myself. I close my eyes and try to control my unstable. But how can I do that? If I can still hear Prince Fraser sobs.