My mind is still a little shaky as I start to beco lucid again. Fuck, that was a bad one. Although it doesn't feel like I was down for as long as I should have been, given how extre this attack felt. I don't even really rember what happened before I broke down, only the overwhelming amount of fear and panic that I was experiencing. I rember hearing voices talking while I was catatonic, but their words didn't make sense with
being lost in the abyss like I was. What I can feel firmly now though is the warmth and comfort that whoever is holding
is giving . Their hands are raking through my hair like Sandra usually does, but these comfy pillows that I'm resting on definitely are not hers.
mories start to return to , conversations and a woman who is impossibly beautiful straddling my waist. Her vibrant, purple eyes that seed to drill into my soul. I start to take in my surroundings again, and I can tell that on top of being cradled, I assu by the fox woman I just t, I'm being enveloped in several fluffy objects that feel amazing.
I open my eyes as much as I can, which sadly takes most of my strength. I'm always so wiped out after these episodes; I've had to have Sandra straight up feed
after so attacks because my body was just that exhausted. My eyelids open once, before closing heavily again making
force them open once more, my blurry tear-filled sight looking around the still dark cave that I rember falling asleep in. I wiggle just enough that I can look up and see who owns these perfect sleeping spots, my fizzled brain firing on no cylinders.
As I thought, it is the beyond sexy fox woman that is holding
gently to her chest, surrounding
in safety and comfort. Even in my addled state, I can still identify her clean carpet like scent and the warmth from her body fills
with security. I look deeply into those athyst eyes before asking the only question that makes sense right now.
"Am I dreaming again?" Even I can hear how soft and vulnerable my voice sounds, but I literally cannot care right now. I just want to stay in this comfy, safe embrace forever.
I see a faint smile touch her heavenly face, her eyes having a faint squint as she looks down to behold my sorry state before she says, "You constantly continue to be adorable, do you know that Miss Dufort? How are you feeling? Do you want
to put you down?" The concern in her voice and her eyes bleeds through and further warms my heart.
"No! No, please just... let
stay here awhile longer. Sorry, I know this is probably awkward, but you're beyond comfy to rest on. This is healing
better than the therapists back ho." I respond, probably too quickly with a blush forming across my face.
Her smile deepens as she uses one of her hands to stroke my cheek softly. "Very well, we can stay like this for a ti. Alia, what happened if you don't mind
asking? If you're not ready to share, I understand, but I just want to make sure you express what exactly caused such an extre reaction, so that I learn what not to do in the future." She says with her voice soft and full of care.
I sigh in her embrace, pushing my face against the hand that is stroking my cheek, before giving her the full Alia experience.
"I... struggle with panic attacks. I have since I hit puberty, and they can be pretty severe. Random thoughts can pop into my head and send
into a spiral, usually without
being able to do much to stop it. Sotis they are nothing, just a minute or two of a freak out before I can pick myself back up and keep going. But other tis I will be down for days if soone else doesn't help
out of it. The doctors... healers... back ho never knew why I had such severe episodes. I had a solid, safe family that loved , I wasn't being bullied or anything growing up, nothing external that could trigger such extre reactions. Eventually, they decided that it must be so kind of... defect with the chemicals in my brain. So chemicals being produced too much, while others not enough.
Sadly, the world I was from did not have a great understanding of the brain still, so the options for care and recovery were limited. I went through so many different dicines trying to get so kind of relief. So worked but brought other side effects that made it nearly impossible to live, and others just didn't work at all. I went to a lot of therapy, and that is what helped the most honestly. Just being able to talk out my thought process without the fear of judgent.
But what happened this ti was that I was scared. Terrified." I hug Akiko tightly, if she is still in her torture / interrogation phase then
being honest and vulnerable might help. And I'm feeling pretty fucking honest and vulnerable right now. Co-dependent accusations be damned. "I don't know how you or anyone from here would react to soone like , who just shows up out of nowhere, from a different reality. Back ho, anything different was almost always t with violence. We had genocides because so people looked slightly different or worshiped a different god.
You were so... intense when you started really asking questions, and I just... *sob*... I couldn't stop the panic from building. And you had my hands basically tied down, and had my face locked up, and were laying on top of
so I couldn't move at all. Plus, I had just woken up! Madam Akiko, that was honestly the most scared I've ever felt in my life, even including those fucking bears. I thought if you found out about , or didn't think I was being honest, you were going to kill , or worse. I did briefly think you were just going to... scoop
and make
into so kind of sex slave or sothing by how you were acting before." I finally choke out, tears beginning to fall again against her voluptuous chest.
"Oh Alia, I am truly and deeply sorry for my actions. I know the value of that statent is probably a poor balm right now, but I will promise you now that nothing of the sort will happen again from . I... had a talk with your benefactor spirit. She was able to explain the most pressing things, so worry not. No more questioning like that from . Now, I just want to make sure you are well and discuss how we can move forward. In truth, transmigrators like yourself are exceptionally rare but not unheard of. They are usually heralds of change and rapid growth, often fueling advancent and chaos equally. However, I vow to you now that I will do my utmost to protect you since I have caused you such distress.
I know you know very little of this world, but I will speak plainly to you. My actions here were beyond unbecoming and could be viewed as malicious by several. I am at the peak of mortal cultivation, the strongest soone can be before becoming Immortal, and I took advantage of you. I deeply and truly apologize, Alia. If you find it within yourself to forgive , I will offer any aid possible, including taking you in as my personal disciple so that no other outside influences can harm you as you acclimate to this world.
However, if you wish for us to part ways after my unsightly behavior, I fully understand. I will leave you with several treasures, pills, and manuals so that you may find your path successful, and we shan't speak to each other again." She finishes.
I hold her eyes the entire ti she is speaking, and I can see honest regret and sadness when she talks about her fuck up. Even more so when she suggests for us to part ways, like it pains her to even suggest it. I turn my face back down into her breasts, and nuzzle in as I hold her tight, seeking the grounding comfort that she is providing. I hear her softly chuckle as she goes back to stroking my hair, her tails gently moving against
trying to give additional security and heat.
What do I want to do? I need a place that is safe to start doing this cultivation stuff and start healing Sandra. I also need to trust that place, or that person, so that I won't worry about them taking advantage of
or selling
out once they realize how broken Luck is. Apparently, Ios and her have had a conversation already, which I wasn't aware was possible. I look back up to Akiko.
"Can I speak to Ios? Oh, that's the na of the ghost or spirit that's inside
you keep ntioning, just in case she didn't ntion it when y'all talked before. I just need to clarify sothings, and make sure what we decide on is what both of us want." I say calmly and with a steady voice, thankfully. I did let a 'y'all' slip out, but you can't win them all.
"Of course Alia, I shall simply continue holding you and keeping you warm~." She replies with a wink. The way my heart still flutters when she does, even while I'm still recovering from the panic attack, really speaks volus for how down bad I am for this foxy woman.
I nod before briefly saying, "Thank you, I'll be right back." and then try ntally talking to Ios. I think I rember her saying we could talk like this, but I haven't yet tried to since it's easier to just speak out loud.
Ios, are you there?
'Hey honey, how are you feeling? I know you're in the middle of working through everything, but if you need
to buy sothing just let
know.' I hear her sing song voice filled with care touch my mind. I smile a bit, it sure is nice to be pampered! Too bad it took a near mind breaking panic attack to get here though.
Thank you hun. No, I'm okay for right now. I'm still kind of... numb but Akiko is surprisingly good at pulling
back to normal. Speaking of, apparently you two had a conversation? I thought you could only talk to
or Ilya, after we heal Sandra of course.
'Good, I'm glad you're recovering sweetie! ~ The offer is always open, so if you decide you need sothing just let
know. We have the points for a lot of stuff right now.' She responds with her previous tone before a loud scoff cos into the channel, 'That ridiculous fox. I get why you're into her, but she really fucked up Aims. I was honestly this close to just buying a small-scale shaped explosive that would have at least maid her stubbornly beautiful form.' She finishes with a huff.
Well, to be fair I don't think anyone is truly ready to deal with the ss that is . I'm kind of a lot, if you haven't noticed yet. Anyway, what did you tell her? Just so I don't rehash anything.
'Alia, you are an amazing person flaws and all, don't think less of yourself because you struggle with sothing outside of your control. As for what the dumb fox and I discussed, I used a few points to buy a one-use quantum entanglent communication device that I could access and speak to her with. Trust , I will never use points without your permission unless you are in grave danger, which I considered you to be at the ti.
I filled her in on the basics. She knows you're a transmigrator, obviously, and she knows her place now. She honestly did seem regretful about putting you into a lvl 10 panic attack, and her concern over Sandra and you also seed genuine. As much as I dislike her for how she handled this whole interaction, I think we can trust her. You should take her offer of becoming her disciple and moving to her village. If she is legit then she can screen us from any prying eyes and give you a place to start cultivating. Not to ntion, she knows more about this world and how it works than I do, having lived in it for who knows how long.'
Ignoring that extrely terrifying emphasis on Akiko knowing her place, I continue. ???????? ????????s?? ??????????????s ???? NoveI??ire
Are you sure? I'm pretty down for following her, I'm not going to lie. Yeah, she was beyond intense and scary, but when I wasn't panicking, I saw a lot of honesty and care in her eyes. Plus, she could have just robbed and killed us at any ti, or threw
in chains or sothing when she found out how valuable I am. Anyway, I just want to make sure you are okay with going with her, this effects you too honey.
'You're a sweetheart, Alia. I wouldn't have suggested it if I wasn't at least okay with it, but I really do appreciate you making sure. Let's go with Akiko but keep her honest. And try not to get too horny! You make piss poor decisions when you get wet Aims! Hehe~' Her teasing laugh echoes inside my mind as I once again flush in embarrassnt. I can tell Akiko notices but chooses not to say anything which I appreciate beyond asure. I need to stop making a fool of myself in front of her!
I leave my cozy, booby nest and look back up into Akiko's perfect face, "Okay, we have a consensus. If you are serious about protecting
from others and giving
a space to train and learn how to cultivate, I will beco your disciple. Ios told
you know a bit about my situation, and I am more than willing to talk more about it when we get to wherever you plan on taking , but you should know I have no idea where to even start this. I only know what Qi is by context clues from the System, and I have no idea how these ranks and stuff work."
"Truly? You would still be anable to becoming my disciple after everything that has transpired?" Her response catches
off guard, like she was expecting
to just turn tail the second she let go of .
"Yes, Madam Akiko, if you would honor your promise, or whatever, then I would like to take you up on your offer. You are apparently on the peak of what is considered strong in these parts, and while our first impression wasn't stellar, you seem genuine about your regret and your offer. If you're seriously offering
protection and training, I will take it. My main goal is learning how to heal... Oh right, do you even know what or who is resting here?" I pat my stomach gently.
"No," She responds with a nod, "I asked the spirit Ios, purely due to my own fascination and just to make sure that you wouldn't be hard or affected by it in your fugue state. However, she made it plainly clear that I was to ask you if I was still curious after our interaction. I'll admit that I am curious, but I do not want to pressure you into revealing information you are not comfortable sharing with ."
"Well, you're going to find out eventually. I probably, literally, cannot keep a secret from you if you do that pampering attack on
like you did at the start. That was... my God that was amazing. I don't think I've ever been so turned on..." Apparently my brain is still rebooting, because I just spilled the tea like it was going out of style. I think the entire upper half of my body is red from embarrassnt, and I bury my face in my hands.
I feel Akiko's body shake as she laughs loudly, with a lodic tone behind it. I burrow myself deeper into her chest, hands still covering my face and my legs curl up as I try to do my best impression of a turtle and shrink down. This day fucking sucks. These days? Has it been 2 yet?
"Ara~ You are too much Alia! I do not think I have ever had soone be so forward and honest with , while seemingly too shy to do so. It's fine my dear, I know the effect I have on people I find attractive, and if that is sothing you want to pursue, I won't stop you. I feel after our first eting however, we should strive to be honest with each other regarding it. Regardless, you were about to shed light on the secondary soul's existence?"
Thankfully she leaves
an out. Still doing my best impression of a tomato, I tell her, "That soul is my sister's... We both died at the sa ti, in the sa place back on Earth. My old world. Apparently from what Ios said, the plan was for both her and I to appear here together, but sothing went wrong in the process. I was able to be reborn here but Sandra, that's her na, was damaged either from the accident that killed us or sohow during transit, and she burrowed into my body as it was being remade. Ios thinks that it was a certifiable, unique, never to happen again event. Which sounds pretty aweso, but it also ans that her soul is still damaged inside of .
I'll be honest Madam Akiko, my main goal right now is learning how to cultivate so that I can feed Sandra's soul enough energy to start healing. I have a skill from the System that will let ... resurrect her... once her soul has been repaired. Also, while we're discussing it... I do think you're beyond attractive. I would be overjoyed if we were to have so fun nights together, trust
on that. But certain things have co to light that make it apparent that Sandra and I may have been more than sisters in our feelings for each other.
To be honest, I'm still trying to co to terms with that. Search my feelings, trying to evaluate if its true, all that. But, looking back on so things that happened and how Sandra acted sotis, I can increasingly see how there might be so truth behind it. If it is a real thing, then I don't want to start any kind of romantic relationship before Sandra gets healed enough for us to discuss those feelings. The last thing I want to do is betray her like that, if that is how she feels. I hope you can understand and I'm sorry for leading you on." I finish my blurb by tucking my head down to avoid her gaze, once more sinking into her chest.
"My~ You simply cannot stop providing fascinating situations, can you dear Alia? I think that is more than fair, as I would hate to co between whatever connection you share with your beloved Sandra. The fact that you seem to still be considering
for romantic pursuits despite your connection, and how restrained and fair you are regarding other's feelings, brings
great comfort and hope.
Very well, I accept these conditions, Alia Aims Dufort. If you accept, you will beco my personal disciple in the Fox Village at my personal estate. We shall train you in weapons, crafts, and cultivation. I will also personally rake through the Village's library to search for anything that may aid in your goal of bringing Sandra back to the mortal plane in addition to keeping outside forces from affecting you. What say you?" She looks down at
and then gently raises her hand up so that if I accept, I would grasp it.
So, this is it? The classic branch in the road, where you have to choose your path going forward. Ios has given her approval, begrudgingly, and its true that Akiko is probably the strongest person around. I still have a decent amount of fear regarding all of this, but I can't let myself be paralyzed by it. No, this is the best chance I will probably ever have, from soone that is not only hot as hell, but interested in my safety and is willingly going to put effort into helping
heal Sandra. The answer is obvious then, isn't it?
"I accept, Madam Akiko. Thank you." I grasp her hand while still being cradled by her tails and raise my head to et her eyes once more. Her shining, violet eyes still hold that sa feeling of care, now laced with a bit of excitent, as the rest of her face is calm and serene with a small smile. I let the joy of finding my path wash over
and soon et her smile with a big one of my own, my eyes closing shut and teeth on full display as my lips turn upward.
Hold on Sandra, I'll get you back soon.
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