Use Me Like A Drug (omegaverse bl) Chapter 178: I’m not yours

Yujun’s POV

"This is..." Jisung says purse his lips, examining and the alpha.

Our eyes are locked in a heated stare down and the tension between us is sothing we have never experienced before.

The alpha’s chest is still rumbling with the growl he was letting out, refusing to back down from whatever this is, I don’t know what is going through his mind but what is going through mine is that trusted Jaehyun to listen to .

"I asked you to let it go" I say and Jisung walks over to the wall near Jaehyun to lean against it silently, I see the small smile on the man’s face, like he’s watching a cody unfold.

"And I just couldn’t let it go" Jaehyun says as he pushes himself to sit up, wincing and groaning from the pain of moving around.

"It is none of your business" I hiss at him.

"It’s not? Really? How is not my business when it cos to you?" he asks, looking genuinely confused and I rub at my eyes, this is starting to irritate more than it should.

I don’t plan to let any other alpha dictate my life, I ran away from Chan and my family for a reason, I chose him for a reason.

"You breeched my trust, I asked you to leave it" I say with my teeth clenched, letting the words co out like small growls, I am deeply offended with him.

The alpha looks like the words I just said hurts him worse than being shot, his shoulder drops slightly and deanor lts into sothing painful and sad.

"Yujun, I saw you freeze when that man showed up on the tv, do you know how crazy it drives when I think about it?" Jaehyun asks.

I shut my eyes and run my fingers through my hair. This is nothing but pride, alpha ego, using a helpless oga to make himself.

"So you breeched my trust because of your alpha pride?" I ask quietly, doing my best to keep down the anger simring inside of and the alpha freezes looking at like I sprouted another head.

"Yujun, what the fuck?" he asks with his face confused.

How dare he act clueless? I get up in anger, Jisung isn’t laughing anymore, he is looking at like I have gone crazy.

Maybe I have, maybe I haven’t, I don’t know. All I know is that the man I was going to jump in front of a bullet for is the man that was going behind my back.

The sa way my father has gone behind my back all my life and the sa way Chan was going behind my back...alpha pride.

"Choi Yujun, calm down" Jisung says and I wipe the hot tear that was starting to stream down my face.

"I told you to let it go, we spoke about it twice and I said exactly the sa thing" I say to Jaehyun.

"Alpha pride? Yujun, I was fucking scared for you" Jaehyun says, raising his voice as he says it and I wrap my arms around myself.

"I can take care of myself" I say to him, and he throw his head back, clenching his teeth to probably ward off the pain in his body.

"I don’t doubt that, precious, I’ve seen what you can do, hell...I just, you’re mine and how can I sit back knowing there’s a threat-"

"I’m not yours" I growl at him, my eyes shining blue in defiance and my oga howls in pain, slamming himself against the walls of my heart.

It hurts to say it, but it hurts Jaehyun more, his eyes change from brown to red.

"Fuck don’t say that" he whispers.

"It’s true. I am not yours; you don’t get to control what happens in my life" I yells and walk over to the closet to grab the nearest clothes and throw it on my body.

"Yujun, wait, please" Jaehyun pleads and swings his legs over the side of the bed, my eyes are burning with tears.

"Junnah, let’s talk about this" he says and groans as he gets up, Jisung holds his shoulder to gets him to calm down.

I don’t look back at him as I leave the room and walk out of the building, it’s late but I let my legs carry outside the gates of Hwangyeon.

The winds howl in my ear as if they are reminding of every hurt the alpha I was born to inflicted on ; every ti I had been locked in a room for accidentally being , all the tis I slipped up, every ti I wasn’t alpha enough.

Every ti I received my ’trainings’, every scar, every wound...it’s all starting to feel vivid that I let out a sob.

I lift the shirt I had picked to wipe my tears when I sll the patchouli on it and my legs co to a stop and I sniffle weakly.

’Why can’t I sll you?’ Jaehyun’s words from the first ti we started eting each other, the ti he pretended to blackmail while keeping safe.

’Jaehyun isn’t your father’ my oga says and I sniffle again.

He’s the sa alpha that has knelt for , the alpha that healed , the alpha that has cried for , the alpha that is offering his throne to .

The look on his face when I said he breeched my trust flashes through my mind, the way his alpha whimpered when I said I wasn’t his fills my mind...I took it too far.

Maybe I should return and we should talk about it.

’Alpha loves us’ my oga says and I sigh before turning around to go back ho, when I bump into an alpha who has an ugly smile on his face.

"You’re the one releasing that delicious scent?" he asks and I frown, "no, excuse " I mumble and walk forward.

"No so fast" he says and holds my arm to keep from moving further, "let go" I growl at him and he laughs.

"I know you, you are the oga bitch from that video" he says and I blanch.

The X video.

"Let go" I growl again and he licks his lips, "you will be begging to co when I start with you" he says and tightens his hand on .