Use Me Like A Drug (omegaverse bl) Chapter 156: Helplessly yours

Jaehyun’s POV

I am Hwang Jaehyun.

The mad dog of Hwang clan, the reckless motherfucker responsible for the putting down of countless n.

I have faced death head-on a hundred tis all through my life as the son of Lord Hwang.

I walked into shootouts without bullet proof, faced feral alphas without weapons, hell, I’ve gone into traps deliberately unprepared.

But none of them has sent fear coursing through my veins like the way the thought of losing Yujun is doing.

I’m fucking losing my mind with terror.

My alpha is restlessly pacing my mind, scratching, howling and whining for the oga.

He just returned to , what the hell is he permitted to scare like this?

Doesn’t he know he owns my fucking life? Doesn’t he know that he’s the thread keeping sane?

"Fucking hell" I groan and grab my hair in frustration.

"Get yourself together" my mom snaps at and I drag my palm down my face, forcing myself to breath.

"Mom, what is happening?" I ask in fear, "a male oga is a rare thing, and a male oga successful carrying and delivering a pregnancy is an even rarer thing" mom says.

"His body is trying to protect him from stress by shutting down, he needs all the help he can get to support the pup" he explains to .

His face is set straight, like nurse attending to patients, not like a mom attending to her son.

"But he’s okay...right?" I ask, getting even more scared as I realize...this is mom looking at the sa trauma he faced.

Reminded of how many pups he has lost as well.

"He will be fine; he shouldn’t have gone this long without an alpha’s scent" mom says and turns fully to look at .

"That’s why I need you to put yourself together, son" he says to in a softer tone.

"Fuck" I curse and run my fingers through my hair for the hundredth ti.

"Can you do that for us?" mom asks and I nod my head, I can do that, I can climb over a mountain right now if I have to.

"What exactly do I need to do?" I ask and mom looks at Yujun with a softness that can only be motherly, "just be here, hold him...introduce him to your scent again, and I just know he’ll be fine" mom says.

He pats my shoulder twice and beckons for Yunah and Gawon to follow him, Gawon stands in her spot, she doesn’t want to leave.

"You’re sure he’ll be fine ahjussi?" she asks with a shaky voice and mom gives her a small smile, "positive, co on you, it’s ti to take care of you too" he says.

He doesn’t even know the girl, yet he’s already adopting her.

That’s my mother, the Luna of the Hwang clan with a heart of gold.

As they all leave, I climb into the bed to lay next to Yujun, gently bringing him closer to my body and pressing his nose into my scent gland.

I stay like that for what feels like hours before his entire body shakes and I imdiately release my pheromones; the oga pulls himself closer to .

"I’ve got you" I whisper into his soft hair and he hums.

"Jaehyun" he calls my na, and I tighten my arms around him, "yes, it’s , I’m right here" I say.

"That’s a relief, I thought I was dreaming...I didn’t want to wake up" he says, his speech cos out slurred from just waking up.

"It’s not a dream" I say, keeping my voice low and gentle, and his body relaxes, lting into mine.

We stay silent for a few seconds, and I feel a shiver run through Yujun’s body, I pull away sightly with worry to look in his face.

"Are you okay?" I ask but he doesn’t respond, his scent is starting to stabilize, changing from the sour distress and slowly softening into the Jasmine I have gotten addicted to.

I hug him tighter, I never want to let him go, I will tear apart anyone who tries to snatch him from without hesitation.

"Alpha" Yujun calls in a small and I look down at him, his eyes are glassy, he looks like he’s checking if this is real...

Fuck...what happened to him while he was away from ?

"Junnah, tell what happened" I say to him, and he shakes his head before hiding his face in the crook of my neck.

’Oga is hurting’ my alpha growls.

"I don’t want to" he whispers and I groan, "please...I’ll go crazy if I don’t-"

"Jaehyun, let it go" he says, his voice is tired but his ssage clear, I bit down on my lip to keep from asking again.

"I just want this mont with you" he says and I nod my head even if he isn’t looking at , "please" he adds.

Silence settles in the room again, this ti it feels more natural, like two lovers just existing within each other’s space.

The shudder runs through his body again.

"Alpha" Yujun call in that sa small voice, and I look down at him as he bares his neck for and I swallow thickly.

"Yes...?" I ask, my voice coming out hoarser than expected as I swallow again.

"Scent " he whispers and my alpha perks up.

Our oga is asking for sothing so intimate, sothing so personal...our oga trusts us to mark him with our scent.

I whine in my throat as I dip my head to press my nose into his scent gland.

The scent coming from him is still slightly sour as I run my nose along the length of his neck, releasing my scent as I do, and a soft sigh slips out of his lips.

Eager to take the sour note out of his scent, my alpha makes a whimpering sound that I don’t bother hiding as I seek out his gland, this is my Yujun.

The oga I am willing to die a hundred tis for, the oga I am willing to kill a hundred n for.

My alpha growls as Yujun pulls off his neck.

The look in his eyes is sothing I never imagined I’ll see.

He wants as much as I want him...goddess.

"Jaehyun...Jaehyun kiss " he says and I hold his neck to pull him down and connect our lips.