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Yujun’s POV
The gold in his eyes had disappeared as quickly as if it was never there.
None of this makes sense, Sihyuk clearly fears him, Gawon calls him a god...but he’s sobbing?
’Don’t fall for it’ my oga says, but it’s hard not to...how can I not believe it when he and I clearly suffered the sa thing.
"Yujun, other people have an alpha, but I don’t...I am the alpha" he says.
This new information terrifies even; he’s saying that he’s less man than every man I’ve co across.
"I see the way you’re looking at " he says with a small voice, almost like he’s retreating into his shell.
"I-" I start.
"Just like those people" he says softly, "your eyes say it all...you’re looking at I’m a freak, a weirdo...an anomaly" he chuckles.
’You’re a mistake, a curse, a stain to my bloodline’ my own father’s words and the way he looks at flashes through my mind...quietly yet loudly.
"Do you see it yet?" he asks softly and I lift my head, I want to believe him...I really want to but my entire being is rejecting him.
"All I see is a man I don’t trust" I say with boldness even though my body is frozen on my bed.
’Run, Yujun, run’ my oga screams in my head but I don’t move, I need to get to the bottom of this.
"You’ll see, at the end of the day, I’m a good person" Chan says and tightens his arms around his legs.
"I’m just a hurt man" he says and I shake my head, I don’t give him a response this ti, I don’t have anything to say.
"Yujun, my own parents couldn’t look at "
’He killed his parents’ Gawon’s voice says in my head.
"They thought of a beast" he whispers.
’With a scalpel’
A shiver runs down my spine as I rember the words, a part of wants to ask about his parents whereabouts, but I know that I would only put myself in danger.
"Yujun, I tried killing myself with a scalpel when I was twelve, maybe I’ll be free but it didn’t work" he whispers and I frown.
What?
"A scalpel?" I ask.
"My parents work in the dical departnt, I thought if I perford a surgery on myself, I’ll be normal" he says and terror freezes my body.
Twelve years old...
"They took to the hospital, and I liked it when they knocked out...it felt nice to be where I hear nothing about how strange I am" he says.
He told he hears voices...
"You’re crazy" I whisper.
"I’m not crazy, I just want to show you, it’s hard for " he says with a pitiful look on his face, he looks eerily calm.
"Then if it’s hard for you, what does it have to do with ?" I hiss at him, not seeing any sense in anything he’s saying.
"You know how who discovers your secret matters?" he asks and I frown at him instead of giving an answer.
What is he driving at? What does any of it have to do with ?
"I got caught once" he says and my heart feels heavier all of sudden, "by my mate."
"You have a mate..." I say and he shuts his eyes.
"Had" he says and I blink at him, he turns to show his neck, "Cho Yujin" he says the na and my back straightens.
What?
Why does her na sound so much like mine?
"She was pretty, she smart...she found out I was a born alpha and she...heard sothings that made her hate " he says.
I rember when I was caught, the way fear coursed through my veins but then...it was Jaehyun who found .
"She looked at like I was beast...the lips that used to kiss called a monster" he frowns as he says it, like he’s rembering.
"It broke ..." he speaks like a man lost in his own thoughts.
"It broke you...what did you do?" I ask him.
"I broke her" he says with empty eyes.
Chan’s POV
Yujun flies out of the bed and I do sa, ripping the IV needles out of my skin without feeling any pain.
"You heard sothing too, didn’t you?" I ask as I corner him, and he hisses at with his eyes blue.
"Who told you things about ?" I ask again and he bears his teeth at .
"Stay away from " he growls with the fierceness of an alpha.
"I WILL NEVER HURT YOU!" I roar at him and run my fingers down my face.
"What did you do to those people?" he roars back , and I heave a sigh before putting my hands down.
"They are supposed to love " I say to him calmly, "I’m supposed to be loved, I am special" I say.
"What did you do?" he asks and pushes my chest, making to stumble backwards, he’s as strong as she was.
My Yujin.
"My mother and father, they took for surgery maybe sothing would be done about it...when I ca back, I perford my own surgery on them" I say truthfully.
"Oh my..." Yujun says and place his hand over his mouth.
"Why? What’s wrong?" I ask him confusion, and he shakes his head, the sll of his stress is getting too much.
Yujin reacted this exact sa way after finding out about my identity...right before she lost our baby.
"Yujun, you have to calm down" I whisper to him.
"Calm down? You killed your parents and- and" he stutters, his heart race is pounding in my ears, and I grab his shoulders to look into his eyes.
"Choi Yujun" I say to him in my alpha voice and he goes still.
"You don’t hate " I say and he looks back at with large emotionless eyes.
"You will go to the mansion and be good for , do you understand?" I ask and his lips parts as he answer.
"I understand" he whispers.
"Good" I say and stroke his cheek; his scars are healing...perfect.
He’s getting prettier, in no ti he’ll be round with his pup...he’ll need , he’ll only need , I’ll be all that he has.
He won’t leave ...right?
"Choi Yujun-ah, you will be better than Cho Yujin" I say and he nods.
His eyes are wide and fighting against my command but he nods anyways, that’s all that matters.
I won’t let him go the way Yujin left...No.
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