Sophia’s POV
I killed them all.
I watched them die with a smile on my face.
I wanted to hurt my own family. I wanted to hurt my mom. I said so horrible things to her. I said horrible things to my brother and my dad.
And my mate...
I didn’t want him. I didn’t care about him.
I sobbed again. I couldn’t stop crying. I couldn’t lift my head and look at Lex. I was so ashad of everything that I did and said.
“I missed you,” Lex mumbled again.
Oh, I missed him too. I missed him so much. I thought that I would never see him again. I thought that I would never talk to him again and it broke my heart. He was my best friend and I couldn’t imagine my life without him in it. I missed him every second while I was gone.
“I asked them to bring you sothing to eat,” Lex said softly as he ran his fingers through my hair.
My stomach turned. I couldn’t eat.
“I’m not hungry,” I mumbled, my voice muffled because my head was buried in Lex’s chest.
“You have to eat, Fia,” Lex sighed. “It’s been a while since you last ate sothing.”
And it would be a while until I ate again. I wasn’t hungry and I would be sick if I ate sothing. I wasn’t hungry. I wasn’t thirsty. All I felt was pain and sha.
I always knew sothing like that would happen. I always knew that I would hurt soone. I always knew that the darkness would take over and that I would beco a murderer.
I should have done sothing sooner. I should have found a way to get rid of it sooner. I should have found a way to protect my family and friends from myself. I was dangerous and everyone should have stayed away from .
Especially Hunter.
I couldn’t hurt him again. He deserved better. He deserved soone pure, not . He deserved to be with soone who didn’t kill his grandfather.
I killed his grandfather!
Another wave of panic washed over . I couldn’t breathe. My heart raced and my palms started getting sweaty.
I killed my mate’s grandfather!
I tried to breathe, but it felt like soone wrapped their hands around my neck. I couldn’t breathe!
I lifted my head and gasped for breath.
“Fia!” Lex exclaid as he cupped my cheeks and lifted my head.
I kept my eyes down. I couldn’t look at him. I was too embarrassed to look at him.
“Breathe, Fia, co on,” Lex said softly. “Everything will be okay.”
I forced myself to look up at him. His eyes were filled with tears and he looked like he was in pain.
“Nothing will be okay,” I managed to say breathlessly. “I killed my mate’s grandfather. How can I look him in the eyes ever again? How can I...”
My voice broke and another sob escaped . I looked back down again. I couldn’t look at my brother for more than a few seconds. The embarrassnt was going to swallow whole.
“Goddess, Fia, do you really think that he cares?!” Lex exclaid, lifting my head so I would look at him again. “He never even t the man! Even if he did, he wouldn’t fucking care! That man took you from us! He tortured you! He almost killed you! If you didn’t kill him, I would and I am sure that Hunter would help do it.”
Maybe he wouldn’t. Maybe Hunter would lock him up in a cell. Maybe he wouldn’t want him dead.
“What if...,” I mumbled, but Lex interrupted .
“There is no if, Sophia,” he said sternly. “I am telling you what would have happened if you didn’t do it. I would have killed him with my own two hands. Hunter would have helped . There would be no other option for him. He wouldn’t get out of that building alive.”
I heard what Lex said, but it didn’t help. It didn’t take away the fact that I had blood on my hands. I was still a murderer.
I couldn’t even make it easier on myself by calling it self-defense. It wasn’t self-defense. I killed them while they were screaming for soone to help them. I laughed while they died.
My stomach turned and I felt like I was going to throw up. I closed my eyes and bent my head down.
Lex leaned in and kissed the top of my head.
“I know it’s hard, Fia,” Lex said softly. “We will go through it together. I am here for you.”
I knew that, but I didn’t want to taint him with my darkness. He didn’t deserve to be touched by it. He didn’t deserve a sister like .
‘Stop it!’ Stella scread as she broke through the barrier I was trying to hold up. ‘Stop it, Sophia! Alex loves you more than anything in this world. Hunter can’t live without you. You are exactly what Hunter wants and needs.’
I gulped and lifted the barrier between us again. I couldn’t listen to her now. I didn’t want to listen. I was ashad of myself. I was ashad of the human my wolf had to call hers.
Stella tried to break through again, but I pushed her back. I couldn’t do it now. I simply couldn’t.
I heard the door open and I glanced up. My heart raced when I saw my dad standing at the entrance to the room, holding a plate of food in his hand.
“I was sure that Hunter would bring the food,” Alex mumbled.
“He wanted to, but I asked him if I could do it,” my dad said as he closed the door and approached us. “I wanted to talk to my princess.”
He placed the plate on the nightstand and ca to sit next to . I kept my head down the entire ti.
My dad ran his fingers through my hair and leaned in to kiss my temple.
“Alex, bud, can you give us a few minutes alone?” Dad asked, making Lex tense up.
“Dad...,” Lex spoke, but our dad interrupted him.
“Just a few minutes, buddy,” Dad said softly.
Alex tightened his hold on and took a deep breath. He leaned in and kissed the top of my head.
“I will be right back, Fia, okay?” he said softly.
I nodded. I couldn’t look up at him.
Alex let go and stood up. He walked out of the room slowly.
I closed my eyes and leaned into my dad. He wrapped his arms around and I managed to forget about my pain for a second.
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