Trapped In A Novel As The Breeding Mate For Four Powerful Alphas Chapter 26: This was my chance

While I was trying to wonder what had conspired while I was asleep, Ki-hoon's eyes darted down towards .

He probably noticed my little movents and realized I had woken up. Even when pressing my eyelids tight, I couldn't deceive him.

"If you're awake, you should at least say sothing," he said and I gulped, realizing I had been caught.

"I... I didn't want to interrupt," I said, opening my eyes to look at his face. God, he was handso. My eyes slowly fell on the book in his hand and I was once again curious if he was actually the owner of that library.

Should I ask?

Wait, let's not get over our heads. He seed to dismiss my question when I asked if he was the one who carried out of the library, so for now...

"M-master, what are you... Doing here?" I asked in a soft and low tone.

Probably scared that I would offend him if I asked boldly and without restraint.

"I already told you that I would be here till you woke up," he said and dropped the book on the bookshelf. "Did you think I would break my promise?"

"A promise?" Wasn't that too big of a word to use in this instance?

"Why?" He asked, looking down at . "Can I not make promises?"

"No, I didn't say that." I said. "I... Just thought," I slowly darted my eyes away. "...you would be busy. There must be more important things for you to do, right?"

Ki-hoon went silent, but then he looked away, his mind wandering, and I took this mont to catch my breath. I was on thin ice around this man and it made hold my breath without thinking.

Even breathing seed to be an issue in his presence. Was that how much I was scared of him?

No, I wasn't scared of him. I was scared of what he could do to .

"Jo-Pil," Ki-hoon called and turned his gaze back to .

"Yes, master?"

"Why did you cry?" He asked and I got lost. Cry? Who cried? ? When did I cry?

I looked at him puzzled but he sighed and shook his head.

"Forget it." He said but I squinted my eyes. No, this was an opportunity to score so points with him.

I just needed to think of what he was referring to.

Just then, I rembered that a few tears slid down from my eyes when it felt like he was doubting and really going to 'check' and even have sex with .

I was so devastated that my efforts would amount to nothing and without realizing it, tears had slid down my eyes.

But he wasn't planning to check, he just wanted to check my temperature. Wait, hold on. What if he did intend to check but when he saw my tears, he decided not to because he saw I was hurt?

Him asking that now just proved there was so truth to that, right? This man was worried about hurting , especially when I hadn't done anything to offend him, and he knew, probably, that his hatred for was all as a result of a setup.

This was my chance.

"I was scared," I said and he shifted his gaze back to . "I told you what you wanted to hear. I told the truth, but it seed like you did not believe . It felt like I was being hated on and I... I was being doubted. If you, who was one of the people who helped out of my debt, ca to doubt and hated then I would have no one left in the world."

Without realizing it, tears started sliding down my eyes again. I was still lying down so they fell down the corners of my eyes.

I get that I needed to make my performance real but what was with the tears? It wasn't my doing, I swear. I wasn't forcing it but they just wouldn't stop flowing.

"There are so many things I'm scared about but I know I can not make demands since it is not my place. I don't have the right. But still... I hoped we could get along. I hoped we could at least be on talking terms and you would co to trust . But I was arrogant to think like that because we are not on equal footing, and realizing that broke more."

I was embarrassed. Embarrassed that I couldn't even control my own tears and scared that most of what I said was actually what I felt in my heart.

I felt naked.

In this dream, where the world resembled that of the novel I read to the very last detail, I felt like a foreigner. I was lost, confused, and scared.

It was to the point that I began to have doubts if this was an actual dream, as I chose to believe, or the reality that I would live for the rest of my life.

And then when giving him an excuse as to why I was crying, I ended up spitting out what I really felt.

Even if they were all fiction, an imagination of soone's fantasy, a well-crafted character on a numbered page, I was still in their world. And because there was no one to lean on in this dangerous fictional world, I wished to at least have one person to be on my side.

A life insurance, or sothing like that.

"Jo-Pil," Ki-hoon called, taking my hand, which he had been holding all along and my gaze followed my hand to his face, where he pressed my hand to his lips and kissed it.

Wait, what? Why did he do that? Was this his way of comforting ?

"You might not know, but it's thanks to you I am where I am today," he said, and I gave him a confused expression. "You might not believe it since you don't rember but if you did rember, then you'd understand what I'm saying. But for now, I want you to know that for the past five years, I have had hatred in my heart towards you because of what I chose to believe."

I gulped.

"But even as I hated you to the core and thought of making you suffer as much as you made suffer when I eventually found you, I had this flicker of hope in my heart that all I had been made to believe about you was wrong. With each passing day, I wished you would appear before and tell the truth. Tell it was all a misunderstanding. I told myself I would believe it. I would believe you," his gaze fell softly on mine. "And even if you made up a story, an excuse as to why you had to be away from for five years, I would still believe it. But with each passing day, you made wait for you. Each passing day I was made to live with the reality that you were no longer the person I believed you were; my anger and hatred burned, consuming and my personality. It... Changed ."