Trapped In A Novel As The Breeding Mate For Four Powerful Alphas Chapter 175: It’s because I like Hyung’s touch

"I insist."

I held a serious gaze and hoped he would see how serious I was.

I know I said I would push a little harder and give up so we don’t have to end up in the most awkward situation but my gut feeling was telling that if I left Ki-hoon like this, if I left him to take care of his erection by himself and walk away, the mood between us would take a turn.

I’m not sure if it’s for the worse or for better but it definitely couldn’t be for better after I had been rejected multiple tis while trying to offer my help.

’The dynamic will change.’ I thought. ’He’ll think he owes just because he rejected and would never be able to convince himself that it was alright to touch or kiss from now on. He’ll be caged in his own insecurity and uncertainty after rejecting ."

While it was good that he had a good heart and was rejecting for my own good, because he felt I wasn’t ready yet, it’s still a fact that he’s pushing away his partner’s continuous advance, if at all he sees as his partner.

What right would he have to lay his hand on the partner he rejected?

You understand what I an, right?

So, I decided to prevent sothing like that from happening.

And to do that, I had to go through with this.

’Ugh, I didn’t know I would push this far.’

But the feeling hit halfway so what could I do?

I could ruin Ki-hoon’s self-esteem and force him to close off any sexual relations with . I an, I don’t plan to get ’that’ active yet but you know what I an.

A guy’s gotta get a little action once in a while.

"Jo-Pil, is there a reason you’re insisting on doing this?" He asked and I literally signed inwardly.

I just explained to the readers why I was doing this, just how do you expect to repeat that explanation?

Although, I can’t tell you everything anyway so I’ll put it like this.

"It’s because I like Hyung’s touch." How cliche. "And I feel that if we stop here, Hyung will never be himself to touch again, and you might end up having to use your authority as my master because you can’t bring yourself to be familiar with after rejecting ."

Yeah, that should work.

"I would never."

"And if it did happen?" I quickly responded, knowing he would say sothing like that. "If sohow it ends up that way, what will you do? Will you be able to correct your past mistake?"

No one can change a past mistake without going to the past itself and it’s impossible to do so all Willynilly.

My case is different. I still don’t know why I was sent to another world and then returned here, but to the past before all that horrible stuff happened, but I was going to make good use of it and avoid making mistakes.

I lowered my head, playing with my fingers nervously as I added,

"You never know, Hyung. So, I decided that it’s better to be safe than sorry." I said and smiled.

Ki-hoon stared at and gulped. He was conflicted, I could tell. He must’ve been confident in himself but he couldn’t disregard my worries and decided to follow my words. He wanted to have peace of mind, after all.

How sweet.

So, with this excuse, he decided to go through with it.

"Alright." He said. "But make sure to let know if you feel I’m taking things too far."

We won’t have sex so there’s no reason to worry that we would take things too far.

But seeing he was being extra careful because he couldn’t trust himself, I wondered if there was a part of him I was yet to discover.

’Well, whatever. I’ll discover as things unfold.’

I wasn’t exactly the sexual type, the type that thought about having a one-night stand or getting into a relationship to have a stable sex life, so I never thought that I would be so thrilled by sexual contact.

I an, the trauma also had a part in it but I was going to change that.

’I’m not saying I’m going to be a sex fiend, but in due ti, I’ll have to have sex with my masters. They won’t rush but sothing keeps nagging that I will end up needing the sex.’

Seriously, there seems to be sothing very important that I’m missing.

At that ti, I had no idea that it was a piece of information that would’ve put my non-sex life in jeopardy if I hadn’t decided to start preparing at this point.

But until then, I would just keep taking small steps.

(um, I don’t think Ki-hoon jerking off in front of you, who’s blindfolded, while using you as arousing material, is anything called a small step. Ahem)

"Then, Jo-Pil, pardon ." He said and then kissed .

The kiss was sudden but I did not pull back. Since I was sitting on the bed and he stood before , his large body hovering over , I felt even more overwheld and clue he’d his shirt.

Our lips twirled vigorously, our salivas mixing together like raw eggs getting whisked together in a bowl.

I read in books how good it felt when the male lead kissed the female lead, how their sensual contact sent electric currents flowing through their body and causing them to lose their minds.

I read all of that and felt it might’ve been exaggerated to a great extent because I could never imagine why it would feel so good to suck on another’s tongue and mix each other’s saliva.

If anything, it was gross at so point but when I did it with Seo-Jun the first ti, though I hated that he tricked , I could not deny that it made feel sothing different.

And then with Min-Cheol who was a complete novice, but it still felt light.

I only got to experience how intense and electrifying a kiss could be when they both ’ganged’ up in to steal my breath away, enticing with their bodies, Ki-hoon especially, and drowning in their Pheromones.

It was at that point that I realized that, ’Ah, maybe I have a thing for kissing.’

It was a dangerous practice that I should probably try to control but it’s not like I’m kissing soone every other day. It was in moderation so it was okay. I think.

And now... I was feeling it even more, with my eyes closed and my surrounding feelings foreign to .

The only things that felt familiar to were the scent of Ki-hoon’s Pheromones, his hot lips smacking on mine, his right breath battling with mind and his hot fingertips roaming over my neck.

Everything else felt foreign but in that foreign darkness, I found comfort because of how gentle and tender he treated .

He did not cause any single discomfort and I felt he prioritized my own pleasure to his. So, even though his other hand was occupied, he made up for it with his lips and his other hand.

How was he so good at this? I wonder.