It wasnt until Jiang Wang drove onto the highway that he finally relaxed, feeling like he had escaped from the clutches of evil with Teacher Ji.
They could have arrived ho at three oclock in the afternoon and had dinner together, but now it was already evening, and they would probably not arrive until late at night.
There were many sections of the national highway without street lights, drivers could only rely on their cars headlights to guide the way, which made driving very troubleso.
The radio constantly chattered about todays news, and there was the sound of wind whistling outside the window. The world suddenly turned into a monotonous straight line.
Jiang Wang noticed that Ji Linqiu hadnt made a sound the whole way, worried that he was in a bad mood, so he comforted him.
My parents passed away early. In fact, I envy you a little bit. After all, you can still accompany yours. The man tried not to poke into any sensitive topics. But dont sacrifice the rest of your life for a few nice words from others.
Even if you get married, they will still gossip about you. Even if you have a child later on, they will still comnt on whether the childs grades are good or not.
Ji Linqiu humd a sound of agreent softly.
Jiang Wang liked seeing him leaning against the car window in a daze, but this posture revealed his slender neck, making him look particularly fragile.
Its good to have high standards. Dont worry. Ill find a few suitable people for you later, and you can get to know them and see how you get along.
No need.
Jiang Wang, Ji Linqiu looked into the dark distance, his voice calm, Im gay.
Jiang Wang was initially stunned, but then he smiled, So what? Its just a small thing.
He didnt expect it to be like this.
Jiang Wang received a lot of clients in his previous life and had t many gay people.
He would not show any avoidance, even if those won or n flirted in front of him and talked to each other with affectionate tones, it was as natural as any married couple.
He couldnt be bothered to think why so people would like soone of the sa gender, but there was still a subtle resistance in his heart.
He just never thought one would be just around him.
In such a far-off place, the teacher who he valued and respected was gay.
For a mont, he wanted to advise Ji Linqiu to be more open-minded, but quickly realized that it was a very arrogant thought.
Its like saying a man chooses to be with the sa sex only because he couldnt get along with won.
To the point where saying things like Its okay, I dont discriminate or Are you afraid of won?, would beco a mockery of unknown color.
After thinking about it, in the end, he said very cautiously and in a euphemistic tone.
Still, pay attention to safety.
Ji Linqiu understood what he was talking about, but just shook his head and laughed.
No need to worry.
I am a man, but cant get close to won.
I am a gay man, but I dislike n touching .
After thinking about it, maybe I am nothing at all, and I shouldnt have existed from the beginning.
Jiang Wangs gaze froze, realizing that what Ji Linqiu had said before about never being in a relationship at all ant that he had never had intimate contact with n and won.
No He slowed down, and finally turned his head to look at Ji Linqiu: You dont have to force yourself like this.
In fact, if I dare to tell any parent that I am gay, I can say goodbye to my job, and even the landlord wont rent a house to .
When Ji Linqiu ntioned this, there was a kind of detained calmness, as if he was not talking about himself at all.
Have you ever experienced anything bad?
No, he said slowly: Its just that whenever I am touched by other n, my mind imdiately reminds that Im gay.
And this thought alone was enough to make disgusted with myself.
Ive been to Qing Bar, and Ive t so similar people there.
So people hide cautiously, even forcing themselves to marry and sleep with won.
So people directly choose to have fun and indulge in pleasure. On their way to f**k and be f**ked every day, with an endless supply of condoms in their bags.
When Ji Linqiu said this, he was quite arrogant and self-abandoned. It was probably because he had been suppressed by his family so severely in the past few days that he was willing to speak out at the risk of losing Jiang Wang, his friend.
Im not like anyone else.
Im like a lost goose, the kind that flies south every winter. Jiang Wang, you have seen it before right?
But Im lost, confused. Flying north without knowing where to go, and unable to return south at all.
Jiang Wang, I am that goose.
Jiang Wang turned his head to look at him again and slowly stepped on the brakes to park the car, his voice soft and low.
Teacher Ji, would you feel disgusted if I touched you too?
In fact, he had almost touched him when they first t, but Ji Linqiu avoided it.
Xingxing was asleep at the teachers house that day. When he accompanied Ji Linqiu ho, his wet hair got stained with so wall dust so he wanted to help brush it off.
But he didnt expect it to be like this.
Jiang Wang deliberately skipped over this mory and proposed again as if he had never tried it before.
Maybe youre just thinking too much, things arent that complicated.
Ji Linqiu lowered his gaze in silence and nodded slightly after a while.
I will touch your shoulder, the man said gently, Dont be afraid, I will wait for you to relax before putting my entire palm on it.
Ji Linqiu had already held his breath, obediently nodding again.
But his body had already begun to tremble slightly.
Jiang Wang moved slowly, reaching out his hand under Ji Linquis gaze, approaching his shoulder little by little.
Then he felt Ji Linqius body trembling even more intensely.
Relax, he chuckled. Its not the end of the world. We still have to go to work tomorrow.
Ive put my hand down.
His palm was dry and warm, resting on his shoulder like a gentle animal sleeping, diffusing warmth from the center of contact.
Jiang Wang silently counted to five, before slowly moving his hand away.
Ji Linqiu took a deep breath.
I was being lodramatic, he joked at himself. Thats right, Im usually patted on the shoulder by my superiors, and so people even like to hug.
The car started to move slowly, and Jiang Wang turned the radio sound up as if nothing had happened just now.
Do you know what Im thinking?
I dont know. Ji Linqius defense chanism hasnt been lifted yet, and he lowered his eyes and said, When most people hear about homosexuality, their first reaction would be about AIDS and ssing around.
Well, thats not what I was thinking, Jiang Wang yawned. Im thinking, hey, Im finally equal to you.
Equal?Ji Linqiu didnt expect him to use this word.
I used to look up to you all the ti, feeling that you know everything and dont seem to have any weaknesses. Jiang Wang laughed, feeling very childish: Before, when I saw you taking care of Xingwang too much, I felt like both and the child had a lot of flaws, and you were perfect.
It turns out that Teacher Ji can also be embarrassed by his family that he cant speak, and he cant wait to go on blind dates eighty tis a day.
Oh, I suddenly feel we got a lot closer.
Ji Linqiu couldnt help laughing.
Look at you, enjoying my misfortune.
Jiang Wang did not want him to be sad, so he changed the subject casually.
By the way, I bought a new house.
A house?
Yeah, I picked up bargains and copied low prices[1]This phrase is often used to describe a practice of taking advantage of discounted or low-priced items, or exploiting opportunities to buy items at a lower cost or price than their usual value. and got a small single-family villa with a yard. He beca cheerful again, leaving all the negative thoughts behind, I want to dig a small pond to raise koi later, or build a swing for Peng Xingwang.
Ji Linqiu listened intently, correcting his overly imaginative fantasies from ti to ti.
While chatting happily, Peng Xingwang called.
Hey Brother
Youre not asleep yet, Jiang Wang had gotten used to this kid popping up anyti for a chat: Are you having fun at sumr camp?
Today we chased after rabbits!! I almost caught one!!
Jiang Wang faintly felt that sothing was wrong, so he explained that he was still driving, and asked Ji Linqiu to talk to the child.
The child didnt expect that he could chat with his dearest Teacher Ji, the sweetness of his voice imdiately jumped up ten points.
Teacher Ji! I miss you so much! I made a super aweso gift for you, wait for to bring it back to you in a few days!
As soon as Ji Linqiu heard Peng Xingwangs voice, he relaxed unconsciously, and joy appeared on the corners of his eyes and eyebrows.
Dont climb trees, be careful not to break your arm.
But there are squirrels up there!! I really want to touch the squirrels!!
They chatted on speakerphone for more than ten minutes, and Jiang Wang listened to them while driving, occasionally inserting a few words.
In the end, the child reluctantly hung up the phone, saying that the teachers in the camp were urging him to go back to sleep.
Actually, I sneaked out to call you! Rember to think of tomorrow too!
Both n had no choice but to agree.
As they drove back ho, it seed very warm in the car, and the stars in the sky were shining brightly.
TL NOTE:
The developnt we were all waiting for ()
Thank you for reading! Ko-fi? ~_(^O^ )
Translator: asoc1a7
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1This phrase is often used to describe a practice of taking advantage of discounted or low-priced items, or exploiting opportunities to buy items at a lower cost or price than their usual value.
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