>>Hael ( Age-13)
I closed the door and went back to sleep that night. Their conversation had ended after Helena just gave up on her and left.
The next morning The Queen ca to be while I was in the library.
"Hael," She sat down next to in the far corner where no one ca to bother .
"Yes?" I closed my book that I wasn’t even reading. I couldn’t stop thinking about what had happened to yesterday. I kept feeling like I was getting betrayed and the only thing trying to keep strong was my mind.
And the only solution my mind had was blocking out feelings. But still, there was a limit and I felt awful.
I would watch my mother from the corners of the palace as she spent most of her days either sleeping or crying or staring into space. I wouldn’t go up to her or even attempt to start a conversation because she never acknowledged anymore
But
All the other elves loved their children. I saw them loving their children, playing with them, talking with them, laughing with them.
So I could tell sothing was wrong with . There must be sothing wrong with , why else would my own mother not even talk to ?
"I heard what Lilia did," The Queen said, "I an I had a talk with her about why she did it."
"..." I looked at her
"She, along with so other elves seed to have misunderstood when I said I’d make you two a pair. I wasn’t talking about marriage, I was just talking about making you two partners. The purpose was simply to get you out of your shell."
"..." I looked away. There was no point in it anymore, I wasn’t going to leave the palace again and I didn’t care about this ’Lilia’ who almost killed or the other kids who bullied .
"I see," She sighed, "You’re not interested," She stood up, "Well, it won’t happen again," She began to walk away, "I’ll try to do sothing about it."
As if
Years have passed and my situation hasn’t changed. Perhaps that’s not her fault, she’s an elf and human years an nothing to her. But I couldn’t say anything to her. I simply watched her back as she left, because she was the only person here who would co and talk to .
She felt like the only connection I had to the living world and I didn’t want to complain to her.
Deep down, I didn’t want her to stop talking to or behave the sa way my mother was behaving with , so I kept my mouth shut.
***
It was one of those nights where I went to sleep thinking about my mother. I saw sothing today. I saw a mother playing with her triplets from the window of the library and I couldn’t help but stare. It was when I was leaving that they caught my eye, otherwise I don’t sit near the window to ever look out of it.
A knot ford in my stomach and weirdly enough, I felt like I wanted to cry when I saw them.
While I watched the boys play with their mother, watched them jump on her as she laughed and caught them, then swung them around, a few tears rolled down my cheeks.
Huh? I touched my cheeks to check what was happening. I was crying?
I had no idea I could cry like that. I thought there was sothing wrong with but sothing so small made the tears stream endlessly.
I sniffled as they laughed, their chuckling felt like it was poison to my ears. I bit my lower lip to stop the pain in my heart but the physical pain did no good, it wasn’t able to stop my aching heart.
My mother couldn’t bear to look at anymore but other moms weren’t like that.
My heart felt heavy and my chest felt constricted. I felt like I wasn’t wanted. I tried to wipe my tears away but they wouldn’t stop coming. I kept wiping them but they kept coming and kept staining my cheeks
Over and over and over again.
I cried for an hour, then when it felt like all my tears had dried, I looked at the triplets leaving the place with their mom. Only when they left did I find myself calming down.
It made realize how badly I was hurting.
I tucked myself in the bed calmly and I thought I had cald down when the images on that family with triplets flashed in my mind, making the tears co out again.
Why am I crying? Those people have got nothing to do with . Why am I crying again? They’re not even in front of this ti!! I pursed my lips as my cheeks flushed.
I tried to stop the tears but they ca out endlessly. It made my head hurt and at so parts it felt like it was difficult to breathe as well.
It was that night where my emotions ca out and I felt lost. My chest tightened with each ragged breath, the pain of my loneliness threatening to suffocate in its relentless grip. I tried to push the tears back, to choke back the sobs that threatened to escape my trembling lips, but they ca unbidden, unstoppable, like a torrential downpour in the midst of a storm.
And as the tears flowed freely, I felt as though I were drowning. Each sob tore through like a knife, leaving raw and exposed,
I couldn’t explain what I was feeling but it hurt so bad that I cried myself to sleep, wishing my mother would co and spend ti with . That I too would have a normal family.
And that I get the validation that I am not strange, that all I need is a proper family for to be happy like other people.
***
It was in the middle of the night, right when the forest is silent and even the owls aren’t hooting either.
"Hael," She shook violently, making fall from the bed, "Wake up!" She whispered but her voice was full of anger, "Wake up right now!"
I was already up before I even fell
"Mom?" I looked at her from the floor and blinked at her in confusion, "Mom!" She really was there.
!!!
Has my wish been granted!?! That was my first and only thought.
"Co with ." She presented with her hand.
I was confused, it was dark everywhere, the only thing illuminating the place was the faint moonlight.
I reached out to her without thinking. What was I supposed to think? She was my mother. The sa mother I was hoping would co to and she did!
But I didn’t even get to put my hand on hers when she roughly grabbed my wrist and began to pull . I was pulled up from the floor and not given any ti to process anything as she dragged with her.
No shoes, no jacket, the night was chilly and I was uncomfortable being barefoot but I didn’t say anything. I was secretly praying that she was taking sowhere where we could be together. I prayed that she would be like that mom I saw during the day, who loved it when her boys hugged her, loved it when they kissed her cheek and laughed when they laughed.
But mom took out of the palace and kept dragging away from it.
Where was she taking in the middle of the night?
I didn’t question her. I held it in. I held it in till the point we got out of the elve’s forest.
Sothing felt wrong
Her grip on had begun to hurt but I didn’t want to question her. I was afraid that if I said anything wrong she might leave , and like before, she would ignore .
It was when we reached the part of the forest where we couldn’t even see the elf houses that she used a teleportation spell.
The wind got stronger and the ground illuminated because of the spell, this was when I looked at her in fear.
Sothing’s wrong. Why is she taking away when no one is awake? What is she planning on doing?
My heart rate rose
B-but maybe it’s not sothing bad. She’s coming with after all!! Maybe we’re going back to our house!
The light flashed, forcing to shut my eyes and cover them with my arm. But as the wind died down, Mom grabbed my hand with which I was covering my eyes and began to drag again.
I noticed the trees, they were smaller and thinner. That ant we were far away from the elf territory but we weren’t in the forest near our cottage. We were in soplace new, a place I didn’t recognize.
It was hard to keep up with her when she was being so rough but that’s when sothing sharp grazed my foot
"Ow!" I winced, wanting to stop and check it out. She didn’t stop nor did she let . She dragged along, "Mom," I tried to talk to her and tell her I got injured.
"Don’t," But she refused to listen to my protest and I zipped my lips. I could tell my foot was bleeding, I was more afraid of her abandoning again.
I didn’t say a word, I just kept walking with her, leaving a bloody footprint behind .
***
There was this weird stench that tickled my nose when we were approaching the edge of the forest. The scent of blood, injuries, sweat and suffocation. I didn’t like it even before we got out and the view ca clear to .
!!!
As we exited the forest we ca to an army camp
Wait, what is this? I got an ominous feeling, a gut feeling that sothing bad was indeed happening. I shot my head towards my mother but she was looking at soone.
I turned my head to look at the three n who walked over to us as we stood at the edge of the forest. Simply by looking at them made feel sick and I grabbed Mom’s hand tightly and scooted closer to her.
She spared a glance, then yanked her hand free from mine, making my heart drop.
"Hello, pretty lady," The burly looking bald man said, "Is that the kid you wanted us to take?" He looked at , making feel scared.
"Yes," She moved away from , making feel further bad.
"Mom," I looked at her but she ignored , making bite my lower lip in nervousness.
"Lady, are you sure you want to give him to us," A thin blonde man said. I couldn’t shake the feeling of unease that gnawed at my gut like a hungry beast. The air was thick with tension, the sharp tang of tal and sweat hanging heavy in the air.
"Mom," I looked at her in horror, "Don’t," I had no idea what she had talked about with them, but the whole thing gave a weird feeling. An ominous feeling.
"I don’t care," She pushed towards the n, "Just get him to the humans. He is one, he should live with his kind."
"Mom," I turned to look at her when the burly guy grabbed my shoulders, I tried to protest, "Wait," to beg her not to leave alone in this strange and unfamiliar place, but the words caught in my throat, choked by the lump of fear that had taken root within .
She turned around to leave without sparing a glance
"Mom! Don’t leave !!"
Panic gripped as I watched her disappear from sight, into the forest, my hands trembling with the desperate need to follow her but the n who stood behind wouldn’t allow it.
No! She can’t leave here! This place is wrong! Sothing is very wrong here!!
In the state of panic, I tried to cast magic, picturing it in my head as she did it,
....
But I found myself strangely powerless, as though the very essence of magic had never been there. I couldn’t do it, I had never done it before, so it was definitely not happening here, out of nowhere.
"Mom," I called out for her, my voice a feeble cry in the chaos of the camp, but she was already gone
It was when she abandoned for good that all my hopes vanished
I realized sothing I should have realized long ago
That hope only brought distress and misery and you never get your wishes granted.
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