To Kiss An Idol Chapter 63

63 The Flashback – The Cheating

My heart stopped beating with the anticipation of an answer. Maybe my problems were about to vanish. The real happiness in my life was about to knock. But I was still scared to hope, to hope for a better life, to hope for getting old with the man whom I loved.

“They said... they said...” he gulped.

“What, Ritvik?” I was done with nicknas.

“They said... No.”

Instantly a tear dropped from my eyes. I could hear the shattering of my heart. I was right to be scared to hope. I didn’t deserve any happiness. God was punishing .

“What happened Ritvik? What did you say? What did they say? Please tell the details,” I pleaded.

“Well, my dad was suspicious that I had soone in Delhi. He asked about you, and I had to tell him that I liked you. He then asked if I wanted to marry you and I said yes. But he said that I cannot marry you. You belong to a different caste, a different community, sorry my parents won’t accept you ever,” he replied casually as if he felt nothing for . I was just a fling with whom he was passing the ti.

I could feel my blood boil. “You asshole!” I chided him. “You said you would talk to them but your dad asked you about . You didn’t even have the courage to start the conversation. And you said you like , like ? What happened to ‘loving ’? Was all that a lie? Now I am of a different caste and community, where were these caste and community when you professed your love for , when you slept with , when you got pregnant? Your parents won’t accept ? Your parents won’t accept ?? Your motherfucker! Absolute bastard! Now you tell after showing the dream of marriage and family for years. I stopped talking to my family for years. They have still not called . They didn’t even want to know if I am alive or dead and you say your parents won’t accept . My parents won’t accept , your parents won’t accept , you won’t accept , then what I am doing in this world? I should die, don’t you think?”

“Ritz!” he begged.

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But I was not done. “Don’t you call by my na,” I shrieked. “You are dead to . I hate you. You took my everything, Ritvik. Now, I am just a shell of a person, nothing more. I lost everything, my friend, my boyfriend, my fiancé, my family, my future kid, I even lost my future, Ritvik. And everything is because of you. Because you are a coward. I have been fighting for our love, but you just gave up on . I was never your priority, you never fought for . You stayed with because I was convenient, our relationship was convenient, nothing else ever mattered to you.”

“Ritz please, listen to . I have sothing to tell you,” he interrupted again.

And I continued without paying him any heed, “I did everything for you. And you gave tears and remorse. Do you have any idea that since I have been in a relationship with you, I have always been crying for one or the other thing? Before you, I was happy, I had friends and then you ca into my life. I stopped going out with them because I wanted to spend ti with you. You were even jealous of my male friends, I stopped talking to them too, for you, all for you. You were jealous of my promotion and ran away. My parents hit , abused , because of you, but still, I chose you. And your father just said no and that was it. Just a word and you folded. I must not have mattered to you at all. Well then, nice knowing you. Goodbye, asshole!”

And I disconnected the call and threw my phone at the wall. With a loud thud, the phone smashed into the wall and then dropped to the floor. But the irritating phone kept ringing. Leaving the phone on the floor, I ran to the bedroom. I jumped on the bed and covered my ears with my pillow to drain out the noise.

I was on the bed for almost an hour in the sa position. My hands and feet were numb. My phone stopped ringing. I recalled everything I said to him and realised that it was years since I went clubbing. I sat up on the bed and wiped my tears.

Taking out my makeup kit, I changed my look. With smokey eyes and dark red lipstick I was looking sultry. I wore my off-shoulder red bodycon dress and booked a cab. I never drank in my life but that day I wanted to drink whole night. I didn’t care about the sll or taste I just wanted to numb my senses.

I went to Connaught Place where the best of the clubs is situated. I entered the club and directly approached the bar. I asked for a suggestion and the bartender suggested cocktails. I started with cocktails and moved to Vodka. I danced my heart out after that.

On the dance floor, a man approached , and we struck up a conversation. Straight forward he asked if I was looking for a good ti and I said yes. I was looking for a good ti. I wanted good tis in my life, I wanted all the bad tis to leave. I was desperately in need of good tis.

I rember kissing him in his car and then I woke up in his bed, naked. I had a faint recollection of the sex that I had last night. He had to go to his office in the morning, but I wanted to sleep in, so he let sleep in his bed and left alone.

The whole day, the whole afternoon, and the whole evening I kept sleeping. I didn’t have my phone with , so I had no idea what ti it was. Sohow, I dragged myself from the bed and went to his living room to see the ti. It was six in the evening.

“Shit!” I groaned when I saw the ti. My head was pounding with pain. It felt as if soone was hamring a nail in my head. My head was ready to burst open with pain. I rubbed my temple, collected my purse and my shoes, and left his house. I don’t even know who he was. I don’t even rember his face. I just know that I slept with him. I had a one-night stand with a stranger, yet I was not numb.

I was still pissed off at Ritvik.

“Ritvik! Shit!” I suddenly realised that he wanted to talk to after I disconnected the phone. Did he want to say that he didn’t care about his parents and wanted to live his life with ? My heart sank when I realised that I might have cheated on him.

I ran to the streets and imdiately booked a cab and returned to my ho. The mont I opened the door, I ran to pick up the phone that was still on the ground. I looked at the phone, the screen was shattered in pieces. I was impressed that even after that the phone kept working.

The phone was dead now. The battery drained after receiving repeated calls. I instantly plugged the phone into the charger. The screen lit up saying that the battery was zero percent. I waited for a minute till the phone reached one percent.

As soon as the phone displayed one percent, I switched it on. It took a minute for the software to start working again. After a minute, the notification started chiming in. There were 40 calls and one ssage. My heart jumped out of my chest. He called 40 tis.

I imdiately opened the ssage.

“I will leave for Delhi at night and reach there in the morning. We have to talk. I have sothing to tell you. Don’t leave for the office early, wait for ,” the ssage read.

My mouth fell open. My heart leapt out of my chest. I broke down after reading the ssage. He called a cheater and now I was a cheater. I could not stop tears from falling from my eyes. He ca to et , and I was not here. He ca to et after he talked with his parents, and I was not here. What did I do in anger? I was dejected. I was crying inconsolably.

But now I had to act fast. I had to find him. I had to hear from him that he chose the sa way I chose him. I wiped my tears and went to my neighbour. I asked him if he saw Ritvik and he replied that he ca looking for him. He waited for about half an hour and then went to his writing room.

He was waiting for . I had to go to him. I had to see him. I had to talk to him. But what was waiting for , I could not even imagine in my wildest dreams.