Mirian sat on the cliffside overlooking Arriroba. Nearby, Zayd was explaining his recent adventure to his friends. “… and then we went wooosh and we were so high up! And there was a two-headed vole-tur and it said scraaaw! and then we flew past a big magic color going bwooosh! and then we were here!”
“No way,” said one of the other children.
As if that was going to stop him. “And then…!”
Grandpa Irabi sat next to Mirian. Dhelia and Jeron were both having a stiff drink or five a ways off. Mirian had just finished going through her explanation to the village elder.
“Does he rember dying?” Irabi asked.
“Of course he does. Part of the reason I flew him here is so he’d have sothing exciting at the front of his mind, instead of the horror he witnessed.”
“That you made him witness,” Irabi said. On seeing her face twitch, he said, “If it sounds like I’m being harsh, I am. You must take responsibility for your actions, though I don’t know how you’ll do it. It’s certainly beyond .”
Mirian looked to the horizon. It was late enough in the cycle now that she could see the occasional distant arcane eruption glittering. “I don’t know either. How much responsibility do I have to all these dead people? And they are all dead. Including you.”
Irabi, as usual, took his ti responding. “I ca to terms with my death a long ti ago. Doesn’t bother .” His eyes weren’t fixed on the horizon, but on Zayd and the other children, who were now chasing each other. “You’re dealing with a number of philosophical issues, then. How does one balance power with responsibility? What ethical violations are permissible given your circumstances? And… hmm. Sothing else I picked up on as you were talking. I don’t know how to put it into words.”
“I think, ‘How cold do I need to beco to suffering to succeed’?”
“Hmm,” Irabi said, and went quiet for nearly an hour. In that ti, Zayd and his friends grew tired of their gas and collapsed on the grass, got bored and got up to play again, attempted to steal food before it was ready for the evening al, got scolded, went off to pout, played another ga, then collapsed back on the grass to rest again.
“We beco what we practice,” Irabi said finally. “My grandfather was a soldier in the Unification Wars. He grew numb to protect himself from what he saw. When he ca ho, he never thawed. He’ll never be counted as a casualty of the war, but he was one too. I’ve wondered often if he could have survived the war any other way. Wondered if there was so way to turn him back into the man my grandmother says he was before he left. Or is it like pouring silt into a river, then trying to retrieve the pieces one by one?”
“There’s a spell for that,” Mirian said sardonically. Then, “But I see your point. I was kinder when this all started. I used to cry every ti one of my friends died. But they’ve died… so many tis.” Her voice was hollow as she said it.
“Power. How to deal with power?” Irabi tapped his finger on his knee, then proclaid, “Did you know I’m the most powerful man in Arriroba?”
Mirian raised an eyebrow. “Not the head elder? Not the council? Not Degasiab who owns the mill and most of the farms around here?”
“The council may make the rules, and the head elder the judgnts. Degasiab certainly may throw his weight around, sure. But if I started saying how displeased I was with the elders or Degasiab, why, I think the village would throw them out. The tax collector may have the backing of Parliant—though I suppose not any more after your stunt in Palendurio—but if I told people I think we pay too much, I think the tax man would walk away with less coin than their ledgers told them the village ought to pay. Not all power cos from laws or threats of force. The best power cos from respect. Trust. And love.”
Mirian felt a knot in her stomach twist.
“Zayd loves you. So do Dhelia and Jeron. You know that, of course, but I think you need to hear it. Rember that love doesn’t look like obedience.”
Mirian shook her head softly. “It’s not exactly a way to run an army, or a governnt. I need discipline. An architect can’t build a house if no one bothers to check their asurents or follow the plan.”
Irabi nodded. “Of course. I ant more that if you make people want to follow you, things may feel different. If an architect loves you, she’ll build you a house. But if a farr loves you, he’ll grow you a field. Don’t try to get the farr to draw the blueprints.”
“I see,” Mirian said. For a ti, they sat there in silence again.
“I don’t suppose I’ve told you what I was like when I lived in Madinhar?”
“You haven’t.”
“I don’t much like talking about it. My grandfather was a violent man. My father learned well from him. I went to Madinhar to escape, but it didn’t take long before I didn’t have a coral beadcoin to my na. So I did what most desperate people turn to.”
Mirian looked at Irabi. “You were a criminal?”
“I was. And I hated myself a little more each ti I robbed soone, or burgled a shop, but I couldn’t see any other way out. At least then I had a few beadcoins. Then one day, while I was sitting on the street, casing a shop across the way, a young man asked if I needed help.
“I swore at him, ranted at him, told him he didn’t know a damn thing about . So you know what he did? Asked what my story was. Then, when I’d told him about my grandfather and father, he asked the sa question he’d been intending to all that ti. He said, ‘May I buy you a dinner?’
“His kindness was as inevitable as the dawn. I don’t believe there’s a single thing I could have said to turn that man away. My stomach was grumbling, so I went. And as I ate, I looked him over. His clothes were tattered. His boots had holes in them. When he opened up his purse to pay, I saw that he was using his last coins for the al. After that, I realized quite a bit.”
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“That, despite circumstances, you had a choice?”
“More than that. I realized how much like my father I’d beco, and how I always had a justification for my cruelties, just like he did. The man who’d been kind—why, I think his father must have been a nice man. If Enteria had been full of people like him, there’d never be another war. So, I saw a notice that there were farmhands needed in Arriroba. Never had been there, but I traveled up with the next caravan. And I knew what kind of man I wanted to beco, after that. Thought perhaps I could be the kind voice for those people who didn’t have one. So days, when my hands were bleeding and every part of ached and I still was poor, I wished I’d stayed in Madinhar and kept to thieving. The world doesn’t make it easy, sotis. Anyways, you can guess the rest. It took a lot of effort to beco the person I am today.”
Grandpa Irabi took a deep breath of air.
“Change the environnt. Set the example for how people interact. Change the social dynamic. You sound like Zhuan, in so ways. Just, without the fancy vocabulary. But it’s not enough.”
“There’s a reason I stayed in Arriroba. Here, I could know everyone. Madinahr was too big for .”
Mirian nodded. “And there’s other systems at work. Degasiab may own a few farms around here, but he’s a minnow to the Akanan leviathans.” She looked at Irabi. “What if you’d robbed that man instead of letting him buy you dinner?”
“I thought about it. Kindness alone isn’t enough. My grandfather knew a kind man. Utterly selfless. He put himself in front of a group of undead soldiers to save his squad during a retreat. Saved my grandfather’s life. In the end, it was the cruel man that lived, and the kind one who died. I’ve often thought that’s why so many cruel n are rich, and kind n poor. Only one is willing to sacrifice.”
Another chill went through Mirian at the ntion of the undead soldiers. Her birth father had faced the sa choice she had. When it was all over, Gaius had tried to choose a small life full of love.
Baracuel hadn’t let him. And he’d lost everything.
Mirian said, “Then there’s two components. Inspiration, love, and creating the environnt where those things flourish is one part. But for that garden to grow, the world needs to change. No one should have the kind of social power that the Akanan magnates have. Nor the Persaman warlords. Nor the generals like Corrmier. But they won’t let that power go. Not without a fight. I can’t overthrow them like Zhuan wants without provoking a terrible war. Baracuel isn’t like Zhughia. But I can’t work with them, either; they sabotage at every turn.”
Irabi sighed. “I never was much good at wrestling with questions like that. Once I put my last weapon down, I knew I could never pick it up again. I know I haven’t answered your questions, Mirian. It’s all beyond this old man. I don’t think anyone has an answer to your questions, or soone would have solved all this ss long ago. Perhaps it's not even possible to have answers to what you face. But I hope so. I hope you can figure it out. And I hope this old man’s chatter has been a bit of help.”
“It has,” Mirian said, more to the wind than to anyone. Then she beca lost in thought. What would Irabi’s world look like? she wondered. And how do we get there? Her thoughts turned inward, and in her mind, she wandered the Mausoleum, fingers tracing over statues and reliefs, wandering from room to room, moving from mory to mory.
When supper was ready, no one ca by to let Mirian know. Perhaps it was the way her eyes glowed as they stayed locked on the horizon, or the way that her contemplation was as heavy as her aura in the nearby air. They didn’t disturb her when it was ti to make their way back down to the village. Dimly, she was aware of Grandpa Irabi muttering sothing to her parents and Zayd waving goodbye to her. By then, the last glimr of dusk light had faded, but she didn’t move. When the last embers of the bonfire had died, Mirian was still looking out at the horizon, not seeing anything at all, just thinking.
Then, as a new glow lit up the night, she looked up. Not at Divir, but at Luamin. Jherica still thought the larger moon might control the Labyrinth. Mirian doubted it. There was no detectable flow of magical energy between Enteria and Luamin. But perhaps…
When she looked back down, she saw a now familiar figure watching her. The tal tubes running from his jaw glinted in the moonlight.
There was sothing different about his posture. He seed… wary. His aura was powerful enough that she could sense it, even at this distance.
But why would he be ready to fight? He’s already seen . Knows that I’m not a threat. Unless…
Realization hit Mirian. “You’re doing what I did to those Akanan spies. Tracking back through ti. You’re just freer to move across the paths of ti than I am. We only see one branch at a ti, but you can move from branch to branch. Which ans… you already know what I’m planning. What I want to see next. Then I’m right in my guess. Do I succeed?”
The man disappeared.
The social problems, she still needed more ti to think over. Cosmic mysteries seed simple in comparison. She’d failed Enteria this cycle, but there was sothing she still could do.
***
Mirian had sketched out her designs while in Arriroba. Then she’d said her goodbyes to her parents and Zayd. Her parents still were wary of her. As well they should be, given what she could do. They couldn’t understand her. Couldn’t begin to understand what she’d been through.
The preparations didn’t take long. Mirian had entire warehouses full of materials she’d been shipping from west Baracuel to draw from.
She’d grown adept at making steel containers for compressed air. She made ten, hoping that would be enough. One of the cylinders she filled with water. She could use collect water to recycle more as long as she didn’t think too much about the water she was recycling. Each container she attached with titanium chains to Equinox. She reinforced the chains with enchantnts, then stocked up on mana elixirs.
“Sacred One, we’ve heard word from Palendurio… what’s going on?” one of her loyalist priests asked as she finished up her work.
“This cycle is unsalvageable. I’ll take the lessons I learned and apply them. I’m sorry,” she told him.
“I… I don’t understand,” the priest said.
“There’s not enough ti left to both move this all to Mayat Shadr and build the device. You can try, I suppose. Or you can fill this dood tiline with as much kindness as you can. I’ll leave the decision up to you.”
“But… where are you going?”
Mirian checked her ti tables one last ti. Checked her calculations. Jherica was wrong about the best way to go there. They were trying to move too much bulk. It was slow and inefficient. However, with Equinox, she’d stumbled upon the perfect thod of transit.
She looked up at the empty sky. “Luamin.”
“The moon!?” the priest exclaid, blanching.
“There’s answers up there. I don’t know what kind. Maybe they’ll help solve all this. Maybe they won’t. But no matter what happens, I’m not giving up. I’m never giving up.” She looked down, and put a gentle hand on his shoulder. “Rember that.”
The priest gulped, then nodded.
Mirian stepped back. She set her pocket watch. The steel containers and chains clanked about.
Then she summoned the leyline repulsors to her armor and shot into the sky.
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