(From Blue's Perspective)
It was his fault. I wanted to talk to him about sothing important. But because of his behavior, I had forgotten about it.
I sighed loudly. It was frustrating not to know about sothing, especially when it ca to him. I did not understand him and because of that, whenever it ca to sothing about him, I would feel more tired than usual. I wanted to understand him, but the more I thought about it, the harder it beca.
There was no way of giving up as well. It was not like I could not, but I did not want to. He was soone who cared for and I liked him too. Of course, I needed to understand him even if it was the hardest thing possible.
I had been tired these days. It was his fault as well. He had been keeping doing it all night and because of that, I could not get a wink of sleep properly till dawn. He got even lesser sleep than , but he looked as energetic as always. I was so jealous of him because of that. If only I had been a bit stronger, I would not have to be so tired all the ti.
I always had lunch alone. Detrius had work, so he would always have his lunch in his study or sotis with his knights. I t so of his knights, but not all of them at once. He had never taken to et them. Perhaps it was not necessary.
"Your Highness, you look beautiful today," Ruby said as I was having lunch.
'What beautiful? I am more fatigued than usual today.'
"Is that so?"
"Yes, Your Highness! You look really beautiful," she exclaid.
I could not even smile. I did not even rember when I fell asleep after lunch. I dreamt about sothing strange.
It was a long ti ago. I was eleven years old. I saw a wolf on the street. It was hit by a car. There was no way I could leave it there. I had used all the money that I had earned from working at a flower shop to treat its wounds.
The wolf was whining. It felt like it understood what I was saying and recognized .
The wolf was reddish and beautiful. I had stayed with it in the forest. I had sneaked into my house to bring a torch and stole so food from the kitchen for it. I knew the consequences, yet I took the risk.
I stayed that night with it in the forest. It was cold, so I had brought my old blanket as well. But I actually wrapped the wolf in it.
The next morning, I found myself wrapped in the sa blanket. The wolf was not there anymore. But what I did not understand was who could have wrapped the blanket around . It was not like the wolf could do that. And where was the wolf? It was not fully recovered.
There was no way it could go away with that injured body.
After I returned ho, I had to face the consequences of my actions. I was beaten up so badly that one of my fingers broke and my back beca bluish. Max and I were almost the sa age.
I had been sick for a whole week and could not move an inch. As I could not earn any money because of my health, I was starved.
Even though I was not regarded as a human being in my family, Max was not treated like that. He would get his als all three tis and he was not beaten up as well. That was because he was a boy. Father did not want a girl. According to him, girls were useless. And I was just a burden to him while Max and Draven were his heirs to take over the family business.
It was not like I wanted to take over his business. It would not make enough money in the first place.
Max had brought as much as he could though it was the amount a bird would eat. I knew he tried. He had cried the whole ti while feeding . It was not enough. Truth be told, it was far from enough. But I still had the al with a smile.
Because I knew he had tried. And moreover, there was no point in crying while it would only burden . It was the ti when I had finally accepted the truth. Since that day, I did not have any hope. I gave up on all the dreams. I lived only to survive the day until my graduation.
I was planning on running away after I graduated.
I woke up suddenly. The dream was not good at all. Especially the beating part seed too real. It had been so long yet I could not forget it. The pain, the screaming- everything was still raw inside .
"You're alright. No one will hurt you. You're fine."
I heard a soothing voice. I opened my eyes slowly only to et the familiar black ones. They were full of worry and care. It felt unreal.
The worry- it was for . He was worried about . Tears started to fall from my eyes and I wrapped my arms around him. This man was worried about . I did not want anything else. 'Please, just worry about .'
He rubbed my back calmingly while holding in his embrace. I felt protected. It was not the first ti. I had this feeling before too and it had been like this since the night he appeared in my life.
"I don't like to see you cry, my wife," he said.
"I'm sor-...
"More importantly, I don't like to see you holding back in front of . So, it's fine to let it all out. Even though I prefer your smile, sotis tears are manageable," he said.
Just as he said, I let it all out. It had been long since I cried properly. I had always tried to hold my tears back. I did not want to let my family see cry. I did not want to look weak in front of them. But when I was with him, the act I put on had no use.
It was like he broke the shield I had kept up until now. But I was glad. It was good to have soone to whom I could open up to and show what I truly felt.
"It was the sa type again, right?" he asked after I cald down a bit. I had my head on his shoulder as he rubbed my back. It was calming.
"... Yeah."
I had been having nightmares a lot of tis. And every ti it happened, I would always find myself in his arms while he would say soothing words to . Without even asking , he knew what type of nightmares I had.
"You know I won't hurt you, right?"
"I'm not afraid of you."
"You shouldn't be. You shouldn't be afraid of anyone," he said. "... Let just kill them. Please."
"No."
"They hurt you, my wife. Please let kill them."
"No, Dem. You shouldn't..."
"I don't care what I should do or I should not! They fucking hurt you!" he suddenly yelled while squeezing tightly in his arms. It was hard for to breathe. But I did not know why I was a bit happy. Soone was saying sothing like this because of .
"... Please..."
"You keep saying that, my wife. But you're still hurting from the inside, aren't you?"
"I am hungry, Dem," I said, ignoring his question. But it was true that I was hungry. I did not have anything after lunch. I had fallen asleep and before I knew it, it had passed a long ti.
"Of course, you're hungry. If you weren't, that would be a surprise," he said. "And before you ask, it's two at night."
"... Huh?"
'It's been that long? I had slept like a log for that long? And more importantly, I couldn't wait for him as I said I would! It was the worst!'
"Why are you sulking? It's okay to sleep, you know," he said. "It's good for your health as well."
"... I couldn't wait for you. I said I would, but I could not keep my word."
"What?"
"I said I would wait for you. But I couldn't...," I mumbled.
"You're worried about that? It's alright. And besides, I told you I will fuck you if you wait."
'Eek! Don't talk like that!'
"That... But..."
"You don't have to say anything, my wife. It's alright that you've slept. And I'm glad that you've taken so rest. Because of , you couldn't sleep at night properly. I'm sorry about that," he said. "Honestly saying, you're so cute that I can't help but get excited.
And you know how dangerous it becos if I get excited, right?"
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