(From Blue's Perspective)
"When have you beco so kind and good-natured, Cyan? I never thought you would care for others," I said. I still had my head on Dem's chest. I just did not want to get up.
"I don't. I was just testing you," he said. "I was seeing if they were right."
"Right about what?"
"That you have changed," he said. "Well, Blue, I always thought you were weak enough to never be able to truly defend yourself and fight against Azure. But then again, now, it doesn't really seem that way. Cruelty, ruthlessness, and selfishness are all that you will need to fight him. He will play with your mind, but you need to know what is real and fake. Maybe King Detrius was not useless.
He played a major part in your life."
"He is the one I love, Cyan. And he loved . More than that, nothing else matters."
"Love," he chuckled. "Not just love, Blue. Twisted love. Because it is twisted, you dared to be the person you are now. You forced yourself, but it is all because of that twisted love. Tell what you would have done if you were simply in love with him.
If it was only pure love."
Pure love… It was not sothing we ever had. Our love was demanding. Our love was selfish. Our love was toxic. But we were toxic together. There was so kind of balance in our love, that the healthiest love did not. Discover hidden content at My Virtual Library Empire
"I would have cried and let him go," I said. "Because I could not bear to cause him pain, see him that way."
"Yes, because if he doesn't wake up even with the antidote, the poison would spread in his entire body all at once and it would cause him crucial pain until he died," he said.
"I cannot let the chance slip. Yes, it might cause him pain, but if there is a chance to save him, I will take it. He would have done the sa," I said.
"The pain will not stop with him. You will feel the sa pain he was feeling. Because you are mates. When a werewolf dies, their mate feels whatever they were feeling at their last mont. You knew this, didn't you?"
"It's not enough to stop . I need him. He needs . I need him not for my happiness, but simply to stay alive and sane," I said.
Cyan chuckled. He liked the fact that I changed. He did not want to be weak because he wanted to defeat Azure and I was his only chance.
I did not leave. I stayed by Dem's side. I slept for an hour or two by his side, hugging him. He was not warm anymore. The familiar feeling I had gotten every ti he would hug was not there. But it was him.
"I have made Evan the godfather of our child. He accepted. I know what you are thinking. Luc is already our baby's uncle as I am his adoptive sister. Forget the adoptive part. I am his sister.
And honestly speaking, it was Evan who had been by my side the whole ti. He supported a lot, you know. He listened to my whining, took care of all my cravings regardless of the ti, and comforted when I needed so kind words. He also helped with my work. He is a good friend. That's why I thought it would be a good decision to make him our child's godfather," I said.
"You know, I think it will be a boy. A boy with your personality. Maybe he will look like you, or maybe , or both of us. I should be excited… But I am just… terrified. I wish you were by my side. I know you are with .
You are always with . Just not like that. Like, I wish you could hold my hand, say it will be alright. Hell, I just wish I could hear how much you love once again."
Tears fell from my eyes on his bare chest. He was naked. He had been kept naked because Cyan and Doctor Dimitri said it was necessary. At least, he was covered with a blanket. Dem did not like getting naked in front of others. He did not even take his shirt off when others were near.
I cleared my throat. "I read the bond between mates is truly crazy. There is a myth that says the spirit kind of remains with their mate even after a werewolf… Dem, but you are alive. You cannot be with , can you? You must feel so lonely here all alone. I wish I could talk to you," I said.
"I feel lonely too. When I close my eyes, I feel suffocated. When I manage to fall asleep sohow, I have nightmares. But there is no one to hold . Oh, I don't need anyone to hold . It's you… You used to hold in your arms and tell it will be alright, and you were with .
But now…? Do you get nightmares too? Is holding you helping? Honey, you could not even see how I look now that I am quite heavily pregnant… You said you wanted to see this way and do a lot of things. You know, I have started to wear the king of dresses I always found uncomfortable. The reason is not that great.
I just wanted to get out of my comfort zone in all kinds of ways and… I wanted to look confident, too confident."
Then I laughed. "I even went to the war wearing a really revealing dress. Can you believe it? I rember how surprised the knights were. First of all, I went there when I was pregnant and as they had known at that ti, being a human only. And secondly, I was wearing a scandalous dress.
I an, I wanted to make a scene. What is a better weapon to make a scene than to ride a dragon and wear a scandalous dress, followed by an army of birds? You should have seen the way I looked. My breasts have grown. I think you would like this part about being pregnant. Ah, and I also wish you could et Vigor.
It is such a good child. It thinks of as its mother. Well, I am, technically. I told it about you. Vigor should be glad to et you and I know you will, at least, be fond of your dragon child too."
I talked for a long ti. After I asked sothing, every ti, I would wait a few seconds, then answer the questions myself. Even if I did not get any answer, I kept telling him everything. I always loved sharing literally everything with him. Our relationship was always too open. We shared even weird thoughts with each and laugh about it.
There was no one to laugh with now. But I just imagined his replies, his expressions, his reactions in my head. It was enough. For now.
I spent the night there. I slept once in a while, then woke up again, talked for a bit and slept once more.
Three days passed. I was looking through the docunts. I had been working the entire night in my workshop. Doctor Dimitri suggested a few things and it seed to work better. But I could not keep on working forever. I needed a break every now and then.
And especially now, as my stomach had started to ache a lot after I ca from the toilet last night.
"Are you sure you are okay? You don't look good," Evan said.
"I don't know. The pain… It's not the usual kind," I said. "It kind of goes away, then after a while, cos back again. Like right now, I am not in pain. It will co back again. I think the ti is near."
"Your water hasn't broken, has it?"
"No. I didn't feel anything like that," I said, shaking my head.
"Where is Doctor Dimitri? I don't have a good feeling," he said.
"He went to the cottage last night after Cyan sent him a letter," I said. "It said they will need to add one of those plants with huge nas in the antidote."
"Doctor Dimitri really needs to be with you. Or, any doctor. It's not safe right now."
"He will co back soon. Maybe within one or two hours," I said. "Co on, what can go wrong in this small amount of ti?"
But a lot of things could go wrong. It was not just my stomach ache, but it was the sudden sight of a huge snake, at least, that was what the knights who inford us call it, which had slithered out of the forest, destroying the trees on the way. And with that snake, ca a huge army of dark mages.
We had been ready. I knew they would do sothing.
But I did not know I would not be there to lead them, that my stomach would start hurting so bad that even as a first ti mother, I knew I would give birth soon.
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