(From Detrius's Perspective)
"I didn't know either. I an, I don't rember the ti I got sick last. Well, it was perhaps a long ti ago. I don't rember anything at all," I said. "It's uncomfortable to tell him about my problems. I don't know why.
I didn't face these problems when I was telling him about your problems."
"Really? Well, I don't think it's too rare. I heard that a lot of adults have this uncomfortable feeling."
I was taken aback by many things today. First of all, I fell asleep soti else other than my usual sleeping ti. It had never happened before. Then, I got sick. Thankfully, it was not a contagious fever, but rather just a normal fever. I also discovered that I was very uncomfortable talking to doctors when it ca to my health.
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I was under a lot of ntal pressure as well. I did not have any doubt that Mother was indeed with the dark mage. But the news affected more than I thought.
I wished I could just turn my thinking ability off for a while.
"Does your head hurt a lot?" Blue asked, looking at with her blue eyes full of affection.
When she looked at like that, it gave an imdiate sense of peace.
"Not much. I am fine," I replied, giving her a smile.
"You are not," she mumbled tearfully. "You are in pain, aren't you?"
"I am not that weak, my love," I said, placing a strand of hair behind her ear.
"No, you are hurting emotionally. I know it," she said, shaking her head. "And I can't do anything about it. It makes feel so useless."
"The fact that you are here with and you care for so much makes feel a lot less pressured, darling. So, don't worry. Yeah, the news truly did not make feel good and I… am under much more pressure than I thought I would be. But I will be okay. Just keep on being with ."
"I will be with you. Forever."
"You know, what I fear the most? I know that I am not the best guy. I have a questionable personality. That's why I always fear that you will find a much gentler guy who will love you and not be obsessed with you, try to lock you up, and force you to stay with him. I am scared. Funny, isn't it?
I know it all, yet I cannot change it."
"Dem, listen to ," she said firmly. "I love you. That's why I am with you. Yes, you won't let leave even if I wanted to, but I don't. I don't want to leave, and neither will I ever want to. My love is not that normal either.
I don't know if you understand or not, but I do. I know that my love for you is quite abnormal as well. I guess we both are the sa. You are just a bit more than , but in the end, we both share our thoughts. And I don't need a gentle guy. I prefer the type of person you are; kinda forceful, dominant, yet loving.
You see, I am a… masochist. And I guess I am kinda odd too for preferring you to be forceful at tis. But we match in that, don't we? The way you are forceful, I don't hate it."
"You really don't hate it?" I asked, surprised.
She shook her head, averting her gaze. Her ear and cheek were red. I knew she was a masochist in bed, but I did not think she liked my forceful behaviors most of the ti. I also knew that her liking of my behavior was the result of being the first person to love her like this. She liked most of the things I did because she was never shown this much love before by anyone.
But I did not tell her that.
I did not rember much of a thing of that night the next morning. I felt better. My fever had cald down as well. But there was one thing I knew. My wife had not slept the previous night at all. When I woke up, I found her sleeping on my chest with her hand in a bowl full of water and a towel in her hand.
She was placing the wet towel on my forehead the whole night and perhaps wiped my whole body too, because I found myself naked and wrapped in the blanket.
"My fever has gone down, all thanks to her," I told the doctor as he ca to check up on in the morning.
"Her Highness surely seems to have worked very hard," he said.
He did not ask many things since he seed to know that I was uncomfortable. I felt quite energetic in the morning and it did not feel like I had been sick just the previous night.
My wife perhaps fell asleep in the morning. She did not notice when I woke up. I covered her with the blanket so she could sleep comfortably.
"My love, do you love this much that you care about more than you care about yourself?" I mumbled, touching her face gently with my finger. "I love you so much too. And I am glad that you love this much. But darling, don't push yourself. I don't like to see you suffer either. So, take care of yourself, hm?"
I kissed her on the forehead before leaving for work. I did not need to train the knights since it was not my job. The commanders did so usually. I trained in the evening most of the ti. I kind of liked to work out, but I mostly did it to stay fit and also to stay attractive in my wife's eyes. Well, she did not tell that I needed to do it.
But I just wanted to.
After all, who did not want to stand attractive to their partners?
I thought there was a lot of work pent up because I did not work one day. But oddly, there were only the things of today, not yesterday's.
"Did the Queen take care of everything yesterday, Kenzo?" I asked the beta.
"Yes, Your Highness. Her Highness did everything. After finishing her side of work, Her Highness sent Lord Reece to get the docunts that Your Highness was ant to take care of yesterday."
"Everything?"
"That is right, Your Highness."
'Is she crazy? What was she thinking, doing that much work? She must have been so tired. Did she have to go that far?'
"Next ti, she wants to do this much work, don't let her," I said.
"Your Highness, how can I deny Her Highness?"
It was the first ti I did not like the fact that we had the sa amount of power. If I had more power, I could have made sure she did not overwork when I could not work for so reason. I was too worried about her health and I had my reasons. My wife had a weak body. I was afraid she would fall sick again.
Since I could not use my power on her to stop this, I decided to tell about not to do it anymore.
'I will tell her when she wakes up.'
"Kenzo, I need you to check as much of the ocean as possible. It won't be an easy task, so use as many mazes and divers as you need. I need to find the dead body of the previous queen," I said. "And, check the mansion and the side palace. Bring everything that you find there that has not been moved- any docunts, even just a torn piece of paper, any dresses, literally just anything.
Bring everything to ."
It was sure that Mother did control my mind. Now, I needed to know another thing. I needed to know if she was truly dead, or if it all was part of her other plan. I did not trust that person at all anymore. I did not even want to acknowledge her as my mother. She was just a random woman who had the face of a mother.
But her mind surely did not match that of a mother's.
There were a lot of unanswered questions. Most of the answers were based on the proofs that we found and our logic and theories. No one told any of us the truth. It would not be a surprise if one day we found out everything we thought was a lie. But it was highly unlikely.
Sotis, I just wanted to forget all of our problems and stay with my Blue only. If only I could stay the rest of my life with her without worrying about anything, I would not need anything else. She was all I needed and all I would ever need.
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