(From Blue's Perspective)
I had just a bit of everything that Mother brought for . We chatted a little as well. But sothing was wrong. I had a feeling that she did not co here just to hang out with .
"Mother, actually I would like to ask you if you need sothing from ," I said as I could not take it anymore.
"... Ah, it's nothing much. I actually wanted to ask you about Detrius. But it's not my main purpose, of course," she said.
"About Detrius?"
"My son is always wary of . He doesn't co to et and if I co to et him, he doesn't et . I am always worried about him. I just wish to get closer to him. That's why I want to ask for your help. Will you please help get closer to my son?"
I gritted my teeth. She was the one who abandoned him when he was so little. She was the one who made him feel insecure and ruined his ntal health. And now she was saying that she wanted to get closer to her son and he was ignoring her? Did she not know anything?
'I can't believe people can think like this as well. What does she expect him to do? Love her all of a sudden when she did not love her at all? She made him feel miserable. It was one of the reasons for his obsessive nature. He wants to make sothing his because he never had anything that actually belonged to him.
This is what she made him feel. His father and mother made him like this. And now she is asking for this?'
I was so angry that my hands were trembling and I felt my body heating up from the inside.
Should I just kill her?
"Blue! What's wrong?"
I was forced out of my thoughts the mont Mother touched my hand. I panted and looked around.
What was I thinking? That kind of killing innateness- I had never felt that way before no matter how angry I was.
"Are you alright?"
"Leave..."
"What?"
"Leave right now!"
"Blue, if anything is wrong, please tell ."
"Nothing is wrong. Please leave. I am begging you," I said.
"Ah, alright... Take care of yourself..."
I grabbed the bottle from the coffee table and drank the whole water. I was sweating and my hands were trembling. It was not because I was angry. It was because I was scared, scared of myself.
"Huh..."
I was fine now. But for a mont back then, it was like I had lost myself and my senses were going in a strange direction. I should have felt that it was not normal. But the scariest thing was that ti, that kind of innate felt very natural.
I stayed there for a long ti. I did not even know when I had fallen asleep. Perhaps I was too exhausted that I fell asleep just like that.
There was a ray of black light. How could light be black? I did not know, but it was like I was seeing it. Perhaps it was just my imagination.
I heard a voice. It was a man and he was saying sothing. I had heard this voice before, but I still could not recognize it. It was like I had lost my sense of thinking about sothing.
"It's okay, you know. It's okay to embrace what you are born with. There is nothing wrong with using what you have. You are born for this. So, it is only natural that you will feel like that."
'Who...?'
I wanted to ask who it was and what he ant. Why was he with ? But nothing ca out of my throat. Was it a dream? But even if it was a dream, why could I not say anything?
"It's okay. Everything is okay. I will make sure you live for what you are born for. That husband of yours will never be able to make you truly happy. He wants to lock you up. He wants to own you.
More than that, he does not want that your power is fully awakened. Because if that happens, you won't rely on him much and you will be able to leave him whenever you want to. But I want the best for you. I know deep inside you crave freedom. Freedom is more valuable than love. You will understand it sooner or later if only you let your heart open.
Think about what you really want."
'Get out of my head! Stop it!'
"Once your power is fully awakened, you will be able to leave him. You can do even a better thing. If he tries to stop you, you can just get rid of him. You can kill him. It's alright. He is keeping you locked here anyway."
'Shut up!'
'Why can't I speak? I want to yell at him! I want to hit his head! He is ssing with ... I can't even see his face! Who is this?
I hate this... I hate everything... Away... I want to go away from this man. I don't know if it's a dream or not. If it is, then I want to wake up.
Please... let wake up...!'
His words were disgusting. I knew he was wrong. I was trying not to be affected by his words. It was like he was trying to play with my mind and turn into his puppet, just like Detrius said.
'Wait... What? Detrius said... He said this about my father who appeared once in my dream and then another ti when I was in the carriage. What if it's him? After all, his words suggest that he is telling to awaken my power.
And we think that he could awaken my power since I have too much black mana in ... It can be him, the person who appeared in my dream just now. He knows about my birth. He knows that I am the result of an experint. Isn't it because he is the one who has perford the experint? He knows about Dem's personality problem as well.
He is now trying to get against him and make Dem look like the villain here. I know what Dem wants. If he has been hiding it from , then I would perhaps think about what this man said in my dream. But Dem did not hide it. He told everything and wants to get better. I know Dem wants to lock up.
But is this man any different? Doesn't he want to use as well?'
"Shut it!"
When I finally managed to let out my voice, I found myself waking up and sweating profusely. I was on the couch where I had fallen asleep.
I heard a noise in front of and I looked straight. It was Sapphire. She had jumped in surprise as I suddenly made a noise like that and a book fell from my table.
"Sapphire... When did you co? No, it doesn't matter. Co here, Sapphy. I want to hold you because... I am scared..."
Sapphire always listened to well and liked . She quickly ca to and jumped on my lap. I hugged her tightly and kissed her head.
"Did you have fun with Ava? She likes you and you seem to like her too. I think I should gift her a cat for her birthday. What do you think? You can choose the cat with ?"
"You know I am under a lot of pressure these days. Work is fine, but these dreams... They are freaking out. Then that man who is supposed to be my father or whatever appeared before again yesterday. He wears a mask, so I can't see his face... Then a man is saying weird stuff to in my dream.
He is trying to get against Dem... And today, I got that dangerous thought of killing soone just because I was angry... I don't know what to do. I am scared. What do you think I should do, Sapphire?"
Sapphire snuggled closer to and kept on putting her paw on my hand. She was maybe trying to comfort .
"Thank you... Thank you for comforting . It's strange how calm I feel when I am with you. Is it because we have a ntal connection between us? I guess the connection is stronger than I thought it was."
"Should I walk a bit more now? Thankfully, no one was in this room, so they did not see in that way... I was being strange, almost like an animal. I don't know if it's a matter to worry about, but I am worried. Anyway, let's just get back to work. I will give you milk then."
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