(From Blue's Perspective)
My head hurt a lot when I woke up. My stomach was not as sore as it had been, but I could not still move around freely. Everything felt uncomfortable. My own body felt foreign, as if it was not my body at all.
The room was pitch-black. But that did not make it hard for to know where I was. I was back in Querencia, in my bedroom.
"You need to eat sothing."
I was not even the least surprised to find my husband sitting beside , rubbing my forehead. I sohow knew he would be here, just like always.
"Ok...," I mumbled as I snuggled up to him.
He used the bell in our room to summon the maids. He claid it was very common in a noble's bedroom, but he despised it and did not have one in his. Besides, he said that he could call them with his mind anyway. But now, since I was here and I could not communicate with my mind like them, he installed it back again.
Two maids along with Ruby ca running. "Ah, Your Highness is awake," Ruby said breathlessly.
"Bring her dinner here," Dem said.
"Yes, Your Highness..."
"Dinner?" I repeated, looking at him. It was nightti when I fell unconscious after taking the dicine the doctor had given because he could not lessen the pain in my stomach. But how was now nightti too?
"You were out for three days," he explained. "The doctor predicted that you would be unconscious for at least one day, but you have only just awoken three days later."
"Ah, I see...," I muttered. "But what happened to ? And what about those two? Did you catch them?"
"I handled everything. You don't need to be concerned," he said.
"... And what happened to ?"
"... You are safe now."
To be honest, I did not need to ask him to know what happened to . That kind of stomach pain- I would be stupid to not know the reason. Still, I wished soone would tell I was mistaken.
"The..."
"You had a miscarriage," he said. "It was forced. They gave you so kind of dicine that caused it."
"... I see..."
I did not know what to feel. I had never seen the child and I was only one month pregnant. There was not much of an attachnt that ford between us. But I felt blankness inside hearing it.
The feeling was dry and shallow, but it was enough to confuse . I sighed and hugged him tighter, searching for solace in his warmth.
"... Do you want to hear what the doctor said?"
"Hmm..."
"He said you might have cramping pains like you did during pregnancy. And, just like nstruation, you will bleed..."
"Eh?"
"However, it will gradually lighten and stop within two weeks. I an, if everything goes as it should."
"Okay... But two weeks..."
Dem and I were pretty frank with literally everything. Unlike so n, he was well-versed in the subject of nstruation. He said he learned about it from a book. Perhaps that was why he had that look on his face that said he understood my frustration.
"I heard your stomach hurt a lot," he said. "I am sorry. I was late."
"It's fine... You needed to take care of them," I said. "That said, where are they?"
"Ah... Your food is here," he said, not answering .
He assisted in sitting and motioned for the maids to leave as soon as they placed the food on the side table.
"You... You killed them, didn't you?"
"... I did."
I inhaled sharply. I never imagined living with soone who would kill others and then talk about it as if he were talking about killing bugs. He was a cold-blooded murderer. He could have just captured them and locked them up in the prison. Instead, he chose to deal with it on his own.
Sotis I was scared to be under the shade of soone like him.
'Will I be able to shine on my own if I awaken my power? Will I be able to be soone who does not need others? In that case, I will gladly awaken my power. I don't want to be with him because I need protection. Rather, I want to be with him because I want to and because I love him. We need to be equal in power so he can't say anymore that I need him to survive.
Right now, he is convinced that the outside world is dangerous for and that I am powerless to protect myself. Because of that, I am the safest when I am with him and I can't survive without him. I did not want to live without him, but I, at least, wanted to be able to survive on my own.'
I was served a very thin soup with soft bread. They surely made it keeping in mind that I had trouble swallowing.
"I would like to wash my mouth and face first," I said.
"Alright," he nodded as he slid down the bed.
He spread his arms and motioned for to co to him so he could carry . Even though my heart was very dry, I could not help but laugh a bit as I slowly made my way to him.
He carried to the restroom and helped wash up. It was a bit hard to stand, so he did not pull his arm away that was around my waist.
"Does your stomach hurt?" he asked.
"Not really... I an, it feels like sothing happened there a while ago and now I am feeling the aftermath of that. But it's not hurting like then now," I said, wiping my face with a towel.
"If you feel any pain, anywhere, don't hesitate to tell . I will call the doctor right away," he said.
"Okay..."
"And I have brought your cat as well."
"Sapphire?"
"Yeah, that one... It is with your maid now."
"She, not it... She is a girl," I corrected him, knowing full well that he would refer to her as 'it' again.
"Yes, yes...," he said, shrugging. "By the way, I don't understand why you call it sapphire. You said it was because her eyes are green. But wouldn't it be better if you referred to her as Erald or sothing? Typically, sapphires are blue."
"Sapphires can also be green. Her eyes are more akin to green sapphires than eralds. I an, I think they look more like green sapphires, which is why..."
"You took your ti naming it."
"Her," I corrected again.
If it were normal ti, I would be able to enjoy this mont with Dem. But my heart was now heavy. Though I was not crying, I was still kind of broken on the inside. The feeling was indescribable and painful in a different way.
Since I was not pregnant anymore, my life was not in danger anymore. It was obvious to without anyone having to tell . Otherwise, my husband would not have sat still and would have grabbed the collars of many doctors and brought them here by now.
Even though my life was not in danger, I still hated the fact that I had to lose my child. I had not gotten attached to it much, yet I felt like this. Now I truly understood how mothers felt losing their children.
He carried back and gently placed on the bed. His touch was light and gentle. I was brought back to our first night together. Since then, his touch had been mostly gentle, as if he was touching sothing very precious to him. At that ti I did not know how he felt toward . If I had known, I might have been able to understand him sooner.
He sat in front of and started feeding slowly. I did not say anything and ate quietly. His eyes were gentle every ti he glanced at . It made my heart ache.
This person's mind was controlled for seven years. It was no joke. I wondered if it was the reason for his personality to beco like this now. He had been through a lot. While I was abused physically, he was being controlled ntally. He suffered no less than .
Now I could not even bla him for his personality to turn out to be like this. I had been trying to make him better step by step. The progress was very slow, but he surely improved. That was my consolation now.
What could I even do more? I fell in love with a sick man, after all.
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