The Werewolf King's Bride Chapter 146: Scared, Yet I Want Him

(From Blue's Perspective)

"Aghhhhh!!!"

"What? What was that?" I asked, looking around. "I think it has co from ahead. Let's go."

I pulled Perita's hand before she could protest and advanced towards the origin of the scream.

"Your Highness, please slow down. You're with a child..."

"Oh, right," I said but did not slow down much. But at that ti, I had no idea what kind of horrifying sight I would see.

"What...," I mumbled as my hands shot up over my mouth in shock. A head rolled and stopped right in front of while a headless body lay in front of us with blood gushing out from the neck making a pool of blood on the floor.

"What. Are. You. Doing. Here?" Dem asked, phrasing every single word separately as if he was suppressing his anger.

He had a blood-dipped sword in his left hand and there were a few drops of blood on his ice-cold face.

"I heard a noise..."

"A noise?" he muttered coldly. "And you've co to investigate?"

"Ah, y-yes..."

"Perita!" he suddenly yelled.

"Yes, Your Highness?" she bowed.

"Why would you bring her to sowhere like this?" he asked. "Don't you want to be a knight anymore?"

"My apologies, Your Highness, if I have done sothing wrong. But my job is to serve Her Highness. It is my duty to obey Her Highness. And moreover, Her Highness did not get into any kind of danger nor I have brought her to sowhere dangerous," she said, looking down. "I am afraid I was rely doing my duty."

"She is right... It's not her fault," I said quickly. "I am the one... who asked Perita to bring... here."

"Is that so?" he asked dangerously, advancing towards with slow and steady steps. The head was still in front of . I was trying hard not to look at it, but wherever I looked, there was only blood.

He kicked the head away and I gasped. "Are you scared?" he whispered into my ear.

I could not bring myself to say anything or move. I was too horrified. Perhaps because I was pregnant, I was more horrified than I would be normally.

Perita seed to want to intervene. But she was just a knight. How could she even oppose the king? She already did once a while ago and it made Dem really angry. I had a feeling that if I was not here, perhaps he would ask her for a duel and give unreasonable conditions.

"You don't usually take this way to the bedroom. Why today?" he asked.

"I was waiting for you... in front of the magic tower. You were supposed to go there," I said in a trembling voice.

"Ah, I got late... I had to take care of this thing here."

'Thing?'

"I am sorry," he muttered. "But more than that, I hate the fact that you're here."

His voice was oddly calm and very cold. I felt like my knees would give away. It was mostly because of the dead body that was in front of .

Right before my knees gave away and I thought I would fall to the ground, he held by the waist, stopping the fall midway.

He picked from the ground. I did not have much strength left to protest. These days, after being sick, it was as if I lost all the rights over my own body. Now all I could do was go along with whatever he was doing.

"Perita, make sure no one cos around the bedroom and if there is an ergency or sothing, inform the beta," he said.

"Yes, Your Highness."

I had no idea why he said that. What was he going to do? He said that he would not hit like my family. Then was it a lie?

"You really are very disobedient," he muttered. "I did not know my wife could wander around like this. Ah, you got the necklace back now. Should I break it and never let you wear it again?"

"No... Don't."

"Alright," he said. "If my wife says so, how can I not listen?"

I clutched the front of his outfit tightly. He was really angry. Though he was not yelling at , I could feel that he was controlling himself.

He kicked open the bedroom door and threw on the bed. I gasped as I saw him closing the door with too much force than necessary.

He took a towel and dampened it with the water from the jug that was kept on the bedside table. He did not seem to care as the water fell on the floor.

I watched him as he skillfully cleaned the blood on his hands and face. The bloody sword was still in his hand. He threw it on the floor and it fell with a clunking noise that was too sharp for my ears.

"You know, I like it when you say you love . You even accepted so of my twisted thoughts," he said with a disturbing grin. "But sotis, I wish you were afraid of . I wish you will be afraid so you won't be able to run away from because your knees would give away, just like now."

'Just like now? Yes, my knees gave away... And I hate it, I hate myself for it. Even if I had not left him, I wanted to stick to my ground. I don't have to be strong physically, but ntally- I at least wanted to be able to hold onto my ground. But no matter how much I tried, it was who gave up, every single ti.

I was always like this. I thought I was holding on well for the past eighteen years, but I was wrong. All I did was survive. I did not have much of a thought left of mine. No dreams, no desire, nothing- I did not have anything... When I am not even ntally strong, how the hell am I going to help this man get better?'

"You hate now, don't you?"

"No."

"I told you that I kill others without a second thought, but that was one thing," he said. "Just words are not enough to scare soone. But now that you've witnessed the sa thing I said, are you surprised? Shocked? Scared?"

"Yeah, I am... surprised and scared...," I mumbled.

"But I am afraid I can't let you go," he chuckled. "No matter what, I can't let you leave ."

'Ah, I have heard it a lot of tis. It's not a surprise to hear anymore. It's not like I have much of a desire to leave. He did not hurt , not a single ti. He is always nice to and treats so lovingly that I sotis forget all the tortures from my past. If only he is telling the truth that he didn't bring because of my power, I don't have any plan to leave him.'

He got up on the bed and bent over as I rested on my elbows. He kissed the side of my neck and licked the place.

"Hnn..."

"I wrote a letter to the doctor last night," he said. "And he gave a reply this morning."

"A-About what?"

"He said we can do it as long as we're gentle," he said. "You're getting better even if it's temporary. That's why it is doable now."

'Then, are we going to do it now? Is this what he ans?'

"If I say I want to make love to you now, will you tell yes?"

"What if I say... no?"

"I will stop."

That was sothing I knew without even asking. Dem liked to do it a lot and when he was angry, he was rougher than usual. But every ti, he asked for my permission. Not even a single ti, he did it when I was reluctant. If he wanted, he could and I would not be able to do anything since he could overpower very easily. But he never once tried to do it.

That was sothing I liked about him quite a lot.

"No, let's... do it," I mumbled. "I want it too. It's been... long."

"You know I won't hurt you, right?" he whispered into my ear. "Even if you're scared, please rember this. I don't want to hurt you and I won't. I can kill every single living being in the world, but I can't hurt you. You're too precious to . So, please, at least, believe when I say that I will cherish you."

"I k-know..."

Even if I was scared, I could not help but embrace this man. His masculine scent and the warmth that his arms offered relaxed . It was as if whenever he held , a voice told, 'It's alright. I will save you. You will be fine.'