(From Detrius's Perspective)
This ti the doctor seed more capable than the previous ones. At least, he could prescribe so dicines and give us so hope. Though it was not enough, I still decided to try everything so my wife would get better. If there was a chance, then I try everything for her to get better.
And I also appreciated the doctor's gaze towards her. He was just being professional and that was exactly what I wanted. The problem was most of the doctors were male and I did not like the way most of them looked at her. But the last one was good at being professional and Blue did not seem uncomfortable as well.
"Can you get up a bit so I can feed you the dicine?" I asked.
She nodded slightly. It seed even just a simple move even made her whole body tremble. That was how weak she was...
I helped her get up and she leaned against my shoulder. I helped her take the dicine. Her lips trembled slightly against my finger. If I had known that it would happen if she conceived my child, perhaps I would find any other way.
"I-I have... s-sothing to... tell you," she mumbled.
"What is it?" I asked and wrapped my arm around her. "Let wrap the blanket around you. It's cold..."
As I wrapped the blanket around her, I could feel even more that she had gotten slender. I was always worried about her since she always looked weak and never ate enough though she said that it was enough for her. I always felt like she ate like a little bird. But now she was eating even less.
"Luc... told a-about... a few t-things," she said.
"Luc? Did he tell you about sothing strange?" I asked. I did not need her to tell to know what Luc might tell her. He surely said what he was thinking that night at the magic tower. Even though I told him not to do unnecessary things, he still told her this.
"W-Well, he isn't... all t-that wrong... He has a p-point..."
"Did he tell you about all the dark mage things?" I asked.
She nodded. "R-Rember... I told y-you that... my father is n-not... exactly my f-father?" she said. "I d-don't really...
look like t-them... so it h-has to be... true, r-right?"
"I will beat him up," I muttered under my breath.
"L-Listen to... f-first...," she slapped on my shoulder though it was more like the feel of wind on skin. "So, L-Luc told... t-that h-he sensed... black m-mana from t-that... night.
H-He is... s-suspecting..."
"I will beat him to death."
"D-Dem!"
"Yes, love?"
"You... you're n-not... listening to m-!"
"I am," I said. "I understand what you an. What else did he say?"
Though I did not want to listen to what idiotic thing that punk had said, I did not want to upset my sweet wife. I liked it when she was angry since she looked adorable, but now that she was sick, I did not want to stress her out.
"H-He said... that... well, it's a-about... my recovery..."
"What? What did he say?" I asked eagerly. Even though I sotis hated his guts and his strange personality, if he could cure her, I would even listen to all his words.
"C-Calm down...," she muttered. "W-Well, if I-I truly... have black m-mana inside ... and if m-my power as... a dark mage is a-awakened, I-I will be... able to r-recover."
"Will you be okay if I leave for a while now? I will leave your maid with you," I said.
"W-Why?"
"I will go talk to Luc and find out as much as possible about it," I said. "Why didn't he tell this before?"
"I-Isn't that... your fault?"
"My?"
"Y-You are the one... who read his m-mind and then you e-even... were angry a-at him... You k-kept telling... him not t-to think... about weird...
t-things even t-though he was... right," she pouted. "You s-should've l-listened to h-him first... You are a-always like t-that with e-everyone... You even d-don't... listen t-to s-sotis.
Even a w-while... ago, you d-did not... listen t-to properly... and was s-saying that you w-will... b-beat Luc up... You need to be a bit...
more c-considerate o-of others a-and... listen t-to them p-properly."
'Is it just or she is complaining more than normal? I wonder if it's another effect of pregnancy...'
"You d-don't... love a-anymore?"
"Where did that co from?" I asked.
"Y-You don't l-listen... to ..."
"But I listened to you, didn't I? Or how would I find out about it? I can't even read your mind because of the necklace," I pointed out.
She rubbed her index finger against her lips. "So, y-you listened... to ?"
"Yes, I did," I nodded.
"Oh... T-That ans... you l-love ," she said.
"That's right."
"Oh, ok t-then," she said and it seed like she relaxed all of a sudden.
'So cute...'
Only if she was not sick, I could enjoy this mont fully. Though I did not want any kind, if it was with her, anything was okay. But I still did not know how to feel if our child beco like . One thing was sure- I would not be too fond of it.
"I need to go now. You will be ok, right?"
"N-No..."
"What no?"
"N-No..."
"You don't want to leave?" I asked.
"D-Don't... l-leave..."
I sighed. "Alright, will it be okay if I go after you sleep?"
"B-But I... don't w-want y-you to... leave m-... You said you l-love ..."
"Okay, I won't leave. Is it okay now?" I asked.
"Hmm...," she nodded.
'I'm sorry, but because I love you, I have to go. If it's for you, I sotis can't listen to even you...'
"Want to lie down?" I asked.
"N-No...," she shook her head. "I w-want... you to t-take in y-your arms... and stay like... t-that..."
"Is that so? Then I will do as my wife wishes," I chuckled.
I took her in my arms and sat on the bed, resting my head against the headrest. She snuggled close to and closed her eyes. It seed like she was listening to my heartbeat.
None of us said anything. But the silence was not uncomfortable. It was filled with emotions. It had been like this for the past two weeks. It was as if she was relaxed in the silence and I always looked for comfort in it. With my sick wife in my arms, I just stared blankly at the ceiling, sighing, wondering when she would be able to smile brightly at again.
I had never known how much soone could be affected if soone else was sick. I always thought I would never feel sothing like this. But who knew that soday I would feel so helpless even though I was the king, the most powerful in the kingdom, for soone so little and fragile like a tiny bird?
"Get better quickly, darling," I said as I hugged her. "And smile at again."
I had never felt sad. It was the first ti. With her, almost everything was a first. She made feel different. I wondered if I was the sa. I did not let anyone else get her.
I made sure she was mine and no one else got the chance to get closer to her or make her happy. It was a selfish desire of a selfish person. Her smile- I wanted to be the reason for it. I wanted her to be happy, but she needed to be happy with . I wondered if her heart also stopped for a mont when I embraced her because she was so surprised and happy.
Did her mind also get hazy when I was close to her? Did she want to touch for no reason at all? And did she ever fear if we got separated? Because I did...
Every ti I would feel her close to , I would fear what would happen if she looked at soone else and felt like he could be better than her husband. What if she would look at him the way she looked at when she said she loved ? That look on her face- I wanted to be the sole person to be able to see it.
There was only one thing I could wish for that her love for would never fade away. I was not a good person, but I could make her happy. 'So please be satisfied with a bad person who can make you happy... Because if you don't, perhaps I have to lock you up so you can't leave and even if you hate for it, I just want you to be close to .'
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