The Werewolf's Chapter 77: I want to live

Chapter 77: I want to live

Jabi.

’’Stay with .’’

Those words have been stuck to my mind all day. Like how is it even possible? why would he want to be with ?

I rember the words we exchange after. They make my heart race. This man sohow has found a way into my heart. Slowly, he has crawled into the place I never welcod anyone.

’’I have an apartnt. Not too far from the house. Stay there with . I will take care of you.’’

Shaking my head in disbelief ’’How, why? I am so confused,’’ I mutter still at a loss for words.

He smiles, that deep smile that sohow you can see it in your eyes and my heart lts. I am one hundred percent attracted to Darrien. The way he looks, from his face to his body. He is everything I want in a person but the way he looks at

shows anything but attraction.

He reaches for . It is just a simple touch, nothing too extra but I didn’t know I needed this comfort from him until this mont. He rests his hand on my shoulder and for the first ti in a long ti I exhale out all the pent-up frustration, all the pain, all the suffering.

He doesn’t take his hand off

as he answers my question ’’I don’t know why; I just know that I want to. I want to be the one you depend on. I want to be the one that makes you smile; I want to go hunting with you. I want to be your everything.’’

It is almost like he doesn’t believe those words are coming out of his mouth. He seems as shocked as I am.

This is new to both of us.

I don’t know if I have the courage to dwell on him. To depend on him. I have never depended on anyone. Losing my parents at such a young age, I have always known not to expect anything from anyone. Beau is the only one that ever showed

a little kindness but I also never expected that kindness from him, I never felt entitled to it. The fact that it could end at any ti always stayed at the back of my mind. I waited for him to give up on , everyone in the pack said I was a lost cause. There was no way I would find an alpha. There was no way I would ever be loved. Now Darrien is here, telling

that he wants to do all these things for

and I believe him. there is no doubt in my mind that he is honest. The sincerity in the tone of his voice spills out and takes over my whole being.

’’And what happens when you don’t want to anymore?’’

He smiles, with his hand still on

and I wait for his response. People change, he could decide that he doesn’t want to have anything to do with

anymore. He is a vampire; I am a fucking werewolf. We are like water and oil, we don’t mix.

’’That’s not going to happen.’’

His words are assuring.

He makes

want this new life.

I will gladly abandon the pack.

Leave everyone behind for this life with him.

Maybe we can be water and oil after being mixed in the best kind of al there is out there. I know a relationship can work between our kinds. Beau and Alanis make it work. I see the way he looks at him. I want that. I want it so bad.

I am not saying this is a relationship.

I know he doesn’t feel that way about .

I wish he would but I know he doesn’t.

I don’t know what this is but being with him makes

feel better, makes

stronger. I haven’t felt this agile in a long ti. I feel like I can take on the world. All my worries are slowly fading because of him.

’’Get your things and co back here, I want you to try and trust .’’ my heart races at his words because I haven’t agreed but deep down. I know I would.

I will do anything to be close to him.

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’’You are leaving,’’ Rex questions with raised brows. He doesn’t want

to leave. He says I am abandoning the pack.

I am saving myself.

I am being selfish for once in my life.

’’I am not leaving. I need to try, see how this will work with Darrien. He went hunting with

today. will you believe I went hunting without an Alpha and I didn’t die?’’

His eyes focus on the road but stray as I tell him what happened. The fact that I succeeded in hunting with Darrien just proves that whatever this is can work. I haven’t hunted since Beau went missing. No one in the pack wants to be involved with . I am just a worthless oga. They don’t care about .

’’That is impossible,’’ he mutters.

I smile.

’’It happened. Darrien cares about . he wants to be there for . sothing I can say no one else in that pack does.’’

’’That’s not fair,’’ he accuses.

I roll my eyes ’’You’ve gone hunting with Isabelle. Did you ever think to take

with you? Beau is the only one that even gave a shit about . I am tired, tired of wanting to belong sowhere that I don’t. I think this is for the best.’’

This is all the anger within

bursting out. I have wanted to say those words for so long. I wanted to tell them all how I feel but I never had the courage. I never had the courage to speak up.

’’Things have been hectic. It slipped my mind,’’ he tries to justify but we both know that he just doesn’t care. He has his own problems. I am not trying to guilt-trip him. this is not about him but about

and why I need to leave. Now is the best ti. There is no control in the pack. We keep deceiving ourselves. Deep down everyone knows Fallon is not the best leader. He is the villain in this story but the people left to decide that now is the ti to be cowardice. No one wants to stand up against him and it is crumbling the pack.

’’You don’t have to explain. It is fine. I need to do this.’’

He sighs ’’They are going to get Beau back; Alanis is not coming back without him. Are you going to explain this to him?’’

I strongly believe that Beau will co back. He is a fighter and it is not easy to bring a fighter down. Alanis is strong too, he loves his mate, so that is enough to make him determined. I don’t know what they know because as usual, no one will tell

anything but I know that they have a lead. Before they left, Darrien told

to be back before they returned. He gave

the most beautiful smile and assured

that he was real. That this thing between us is real.

He has slowly beco the push I need to keep on living. Dying seems like a distant mory. I don’t want to die; I want to live for him.

Rex parks his car in the lot that leads to our community. We are not supposed to be passing through the woods alone. Now, here we are two ogas, walking down this dangerous path alone. Especially at this ti of the vampires hunting us.

It feels like sothing is wrong.

I am not one that is quick at sensing these things but the aura is strange. I feel a sensation within

and it terrifies .

Rex doesn’t seem to notice anything as we continue on the pathway that leads to our ho.

’’Sothing is wrong,’’ I manage pathetically trembling.

Rex stops walking and looks at

with uncertainty in his eyes. I frown because I don’t want to face whatever is happening. The closer we get to the community, the faster my heart races from the fear of the unknown. It is not a good idea to walk into whatever is happening blindly but Rex doesn’t seem to think there is anything wrong.

I walk behind him with shaking hands. It’s too quiet. The pack is never this quiet. We walk to the fences and I see it before he does. The blood on the wooden fence. It is a trail, almost like a fingerprint. Sothing is so wrong ’’Rex, stop,’’ I grab his hand before he can open the sliding fence.

Slowly pointing the blood his eyes open wide from shock as he takes a step back. A step away from the place that is supposed to be ho ’’We need to get out of here,’’ I plead desperately.

The door opens before we have a chance to escape and a man walks out of it, completely covered in blood, from the smile on his face I can tell it’s not his. His scent is strong and very disgusting.

He is a vampire.

Shit.

I am not ready to die.

Not yet.

I just decided to live.