The Werewolf's Chapter 502: You are Jabi

Chapter 502: You are Jabi

Jabi

"Please,’’ Lenny begs as I bite into him.

there is blood everywhere. So much blood but I want more. I want to completely devour him. I want to rip him to shreds.

There is pain in his eyes and all I derive is pleasure. Joy from his misery.

I love the pain he feels.

I want him gone.

I want him to be nothing but a mory.

I want him to be dead.

I open my eyes and I am in a room on a large bed. My hands stretch out for him and the fear hits

imdiately when I notice I am alone in the room--alone on the bed. My heart starts to pound as I try to rember what happened. Everything cos swarming like a

cloud of black smoke in my head.

I killed Lenny--not only did I kill him but I destroyed his whole being. I fed on him, watched him as he begged desperately.

I don’t know how I feel about it all but there is an ache in my chest. I don’t know how Darrien feels about what I did. He is not here, he left

alone, and maybe he is disappointed in . Maybe he now sees

as the monster that I have beco. I sit up on the bed and I am only wearing boxers. I look at my hands, all the traces of blood from yesterday--I don’t even know if it was yesterday. I have lost sense of ti. I don’t even rember coming here. I don’t even rember getting cleaned up.

My hands tremble as I try to stand up from the bed. My knees are weak and I am caught between being afraid and being sick. My stomach aches and my head spins. I grab the edge of the bed to steady myself. It feels like I am going to puke, maybe that is what I need to do. Maybe I need to get it all out of my system.

I feel it coming out of

and in an instant, I run into the door that leads to the bathroom. The room is big, so it takes

a couple of seconds to get there. I fall to my knees and imdiately my stomach is rushing up and filling my mouth with bile. I try to scream but not a sound cos out. I fall over and land on the tile floor. I struggle to breathe as I hear the door to the room open.

I know it is Darrien imdiately, I feel his worry, his fear. I feel all of him like I used to before Lenny took . I feel the connection, the bond, I feel all the things I had gotten used to. I try to lift my head from the floor as I feel a hand on my back. I open my eyes and Darrien is there.

"Jabi?’’ he whispers.

"I’m ok,’’ I say as I push myself up. Darrien helps

to my feet and I gasp for air.

"Are you ok?’’ he asks

again.

"Yeah, I am fine,’’ I say as I wipe the tears from my face. I didn’t even know I was crying. I don’t even know what is happening with

and Dar can see it. He knows

better than anyone and I can tell he is worried about .

I am worried about myself.

"Co on,’’ he grabs

by my arm and I don’t fight him as he helps

to the sink. I don’t protest as he turns on the faucet and splashes so water in my face. He continues this in silence for a couple of seconds. His hands are cool as they touch my face.

He opens the cabinet to take out a towel.

"You can sit down on the toilet if you want,’’ he says softly.

"No, I am fine,’’ I tell him. I feel strange after everything that has happened.

"You can’t continue thinking about it like it was a bad thing,’’ he interrupts my thought, almost like he read my mind.

"I killed him, Dar.’’

He nods "He deserved it. I was going to kill him too. You just beat

to it.’’

I shake my head "It’s not just that I killed him, it was the way I killed him. I lost control and I am scared that it could happen again.’’ He studies my eyes for a mont.

"Do you feel like you are losing control right now?’’

I close my eyes even though I know that he is watching

and waiting for an answer. For now, I just have the lingering fear of everything that happened. I feel the sa way I used to feel in the apartnt, in the community. The fact that it could be so easy to put that day behind , scares the hell out of .

"No. I’m not losing control.’’ I tell him honestly. I feel that the last few days have been the first ti I have faced being myself. Being Jabi.

I need to know if Darrien sees

the sa way.

I close my eyes and I can feel his lips on my cheek. Soft and reassuring. I open my eyes.

"You are Jabi,’’ he whispers. "You have always been Jabi.’’

I nod and his fingers trace my jaw.

"You aren’t gonna lose control again.’’

I shake my head I can’t even find the words to tell him that I don’t want to.

He leans in to kiss .

I close my eyes and I am lost in his kiss.

It feels so familiar. It feels like I haven’t kissed him in years. Like I am getting all I have ever wanted. A reminder of our love. His tongue dances inside my mouth as he kisses .

My hands reach up and I touch his face. He lets

explore, he lets

taste every part of him and I never want it to end. I kiss him, I feel his hands slip down my back and he holds

close.

I close my eyes as I feel his lips on my neck. He doesn’t stop as he snakes his way down. He pulls my boxers off and I help him at the sa ti kissing him.

He cups my butt softly and lifts

up, slowly, I wrap my legs around his waist as he places

on the edge of the sink.

He stares at my face for a mont before he kisses

again. My heart beats against his chest as I claw at him, wanting every bit of this intimacy. Wanting to feel him inside .

A day, two days, feel like an eternity and he feels the sa way.

He puts his hands on my hips and he kisses my neck. He lets his legs fall and places his hands on my thighs. He kisses my stomach and I hear him sigh.

"I want to make love to you,’’

I close my eyes and I can feel his smile against my skin.

"I want to devour you’’

"Please’’

"I will take you to a place where no one can find us.’’

"Please’’ He begins to kiss his way to my lips. He stops, he looks at

gently "I love you Jabi. I will never let anyone make you feel this way again."

It is a promise, one that I completely trust in.

Because he is the one.