Chapter 450: Pure Joy mixed with pain
Alanis
Everything happens so fast.
Ogma is by my side and she is making
focus on her. I can’t focus on anything else, all I can think about is my babies, my babies that are about to co into this world.
I don’t know how to feel. I am trying to be strong but this is the scariest thing I have ever had to go through. Not knowing is the worst thing about it. Two other healers co into the room and Ogma starts to talk to them. I can’t pay attention. I don’t even know what they are saying but I stretch my hand out for Beau. He is in a corner in the room and I want him closer.
He runs towards
imdiately and I grab his hand. I squeeze it as hard as I can. The pain is too much. I am trying not to panic but I am failing.
"You are going to be okay, I am right here. I am not going anywhere. I am not leaving you,’’ he tells
and the pain is making
cry. I am trying to hold it in but I can’t, I am just too weak.
"You are going to be okay, you are strong. You can do this, you are going to be just fine,’’ he reassures
and his words are helpful. He is the only one I can hear, the only one that I want to feel.
I can feel the pressure in my stomach and I know that this is it. The babies are coming.
"Alright, that is good, you are doing great,’’ Ogma tells
as I feel pressure on my stomach. I don’t know what she is doing but I feel another one of the healers injects sothing into . It hurts but not as much as the pain that is coming from the inside.
"I am not ready for this,’’ I cry panicking. Everything is a foggy ss right now. I am losing my mind. Scared that I won’t get through his.
"You are doing great,’’ Ogma reassures
again. I am terrified of what is about to happen. I am terrified that I won’t make it. I am terrified that what is going to happen is going to harm the babies.
"I need you,’’ I cry even though Beau is right here beside . There is nothing he can do right now but I just want to get out of this ss.
"I am here baby, I won’t leave you. Trust ,’’ he tells
and I do, I know that he will keep his promise. He is always there for .
I try to focus on his face. I try to keep my eyes open but I just can’t. I can’t focus on anything anymore. I am scared of everything.
"Focus on , you are not alone,’’ he whispers and I do as he says. I focus on him.
I can’t feel anything anymore. Everything is numb, I am numb. Maybe whatever they gave
is working. I close my eyes and Beau’s hand is all I feel at this mont.
"I love you,’’ I whisper, I can feel his hand squeezing mine.
"I love you too so much,’’ He whispers into my ear, his voice is just so soothing right now. Like a warmth that is getting
through a storm. I feel pressure on my stomach but I am too afraid to look.
"Can you check? What is happening?’ I manage to ask but my voice is a bit shaky. I don’t even recognize the person I am right now. He doesn’t let go of
but I open my eyes and he is looking towards Ogma and whatever she is saying is making him smile. He looks so relieved.
"It is okay, we have to keep going,’’ I can feel a tear falling down my face. I want to cry so hard. I hate not knowing what is happening but I just want it all to be over. I try to move, I try to see what is going on but I can’t. It feels like I am out of the loop. I am numb on the bed with no idea what is going on with my body.
"Oh my God, I see them,’’ Beau cries. His voice echoes through the room. It makes
feel a little better. Beau lets go of my hand and I don’t even fight it, I want him to go to our babies. I want him to make sure they are okay.
The minute I hear the first cry, it feels like my heart is about to lt. I feel like I am floating on top of the world. I haven’t seen them, I can barely hear everyone in the room but their beautiful cries swarm all parts of my brain. I am at this point where I can barely even keep my eyes open but I want to see them.
I want to hold them.
"They are here,’ they are so beautiful,’’ Beau says and I try to look at him but it is getting harder as each minute passes by. I open my eyes again and my vision is blurry. They are here, I don’t have to struggle anymore. I use all the strength left in
to focus on him and I see him, holding one of them. I see the joy in his eyes. I want to see them too. I want to feel everything that he is feeling right now. He walks over to
and I manage a faint smile as all my focus is on him and the bundle of joy in his arms.
Ogma walks over to
and she is carrying my baby in her arms, I manage to stretch my hands out and she places him in my grip gently.
"Congratulations,’’ she smiles widely as I feel my baby in my arms. My heart is out of my chest right now as I look at the little features on his face. He is quiet in my arms, not crying anymore.
He is beautiful.
I take a deep breath because I want to see the other one. I turn my head slowly, trying to get a better view but in a split second, my hands beco numb and my eyes fall closed. The last thing I see before I blackout is Beau and the fear in his eyes.
All because of .
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