The Werewolf's Chapter 233: He left

Chapter 233: He left

Gyles.

I open my eyes and the sky is dark. A whole day passed before my eyes. There is this ache in my chest. All the mories that I wanted to forget are all stuck in my head. I want to have Blue for doing this to

but I can’t. I don’t even have the courage to hate him anymore. My heart is at the point where it is beating ferociously for him. All the fighting, the pushing. It was all a waste of ti because now, all I want is him.

Rex is asleep next to . I don’t know how long I have been asleep but I think about everything. There is no way I will share these mories with anyone. Not even Rex. The only thing I got out of them is the fact that Roger is the one that caused everything. Is that why I have been holding on for so long? Trying to fight it?

I don’t want to rember him as the person that killed my whole family. I only want good mories. The tis we shared, all the things that he did that made

happy. Now all I rember is that man calling him and he told the guy to kill .

I stand up from the bed and he doesn’t even budge. Slowly, I walk out of his room because I need so air and a bottle of water. I sll a presence in the kitchen before I even walk in and it cos as a shock when I see Alanis devouring chicken. It is weird to

and when he asks

to stay. A part of

feels happy. I don’t have anyone in this community to talk to and most tis, I feel like I don’t belong here.

Our conversation goes smoothly until it is my turn to tell a secret. The one thing I don’t want anyone to know. I know what it is but there is this fear inside . The one that makes

not want to trust him. He told

sothing major—thinking about it, I can’t even believe it.

It just seems so impossible.

"Co on, your turn. You need to keep your word." He pushes

with a smile on his face. I take a deep breath because I know I have to do this.

"I got my mory back,’’ I confess.

He opens his eyes wide, probably shocked "Everything?’’

I nod.

"And?’’

"It was a lot.’’

This is harder than I thought it would be and I can’t believe that the one person I am pouring my heart to is none other than Beau’s mate. Roger’s worst enemy.

"I wasn’t kidnapped. The people that took

were my real family. When I was a baby, my father’s best friend planned with a vampire—the man I lived with all my life. They took

away from my parents. Kept

for so long. The ambush that happened was just to get

back. My father wanted

back.’’

It is harder saying this out loud. So hard that my hands start to tremble. He stretches his hand out to

"Chicken?’’ he offers . I burst out in laughter imdiately as he drops the chicken back into the bucket "That was just to get you to smile,’’ he winks.

I smile back at him gratefully. He is making this easier than it would have been. Talking to him is so easy. I didn’t even expect this.

"So, the vampires were the bag guys. I hate to break it to you but we knew all this already,’’ he tells

still smiling.

That is the easier part of this.

"I was with them for a long ti until Roger—" I correct myself "Cassius attacked the pack," I explain because even saying this is very hard. I feel all the guilt I have carried with . In my consciousness and subconsciousness.

"Wow, so he killed your family?’’

I nod.

He did and that is why I feel like complete shit. I hate that the reason why they lost their lives is because of the man that I loved—who did it because of . Which in turn makes it all my fault. They all died because of .

"You think it is your fault?’’ he asks , almost like he just read my mind.

I nod because I don’t think. I know that it is my fault and the worse part of it all is that I don’t hate him. Roger will always be dear to my heart and even though I know of the things he did. I don’t hate him.

Does that make

a monster?

"You know you don’t have to hate soone just because they are a bad person. Cassius did so bad things in his life and I hate him because of those things, I only knew him as the person that wanted to kill Beau’s family. I didn’t know who he was before all the bad things he did. You knew him when he was good. He made a lot of mistakes but there was still a little good in him. You don’t have to hate him for the things he has done."

It should make

feel better but it doesn’t.

"I feel like there is no difference between

and him. The fact that I still care about him even though I know all the things that he did. The fact that all those people died because of .’’

He smiles "You are not like him. You might feel like you are but you still have a chance to make different choices than him. Don’t make the sa mistakes that he did. Live your life knowing you did good things."

I close my eyes because he is right. I still have a chance to have that happy ending that I desperately crave. The one that I can only get with Blue and Rex. I have to make things right. I have to get him to forgive

and see that I am different. I am not the person I was.

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The next morning I try to talk to Rex about talking things out with Blue.

"I need him to forgive . I need things to be cool with us. I am ready for everything.’’ I tell him with hopes that he is on my side.

I don’t want to do anything anymore without Rex’s permission—okay, maybe not permission but I want him to be in the know. I won’t go around doing this that he won’t be proud of anymore.

"I didn’t want to wake you up yesterday. There is sothing you should know,’’ he tells

and I already know that it is sothing bad.

"Did sothing happen?’’ I ask him scared.

I can’t handle anything bad right now.

"Blue went ho.’’

My heart freezes from his words. I don’t even know why he left but it already feels like it is my fault. He left because of .

He left because of you.

My wolf accuses .