Chapter 230: Wish everyone will just get along
Rex.
The whole thing is beautiful but I can tell it won’t change anything with Blue. I have never seen him this upset and I understand why he is but I wish he would just try and understand that Gyles is miserable because of the life he has been dealt with. I am not justifying his behaviour on his past traumas but I understand how it can ss a person up.
I saw him when he realized his mistakes and yeah, he might be the most selfish person I have ever t but I see the good in him. There is a lot of good in him—even though he keeps it pretty hidden but it is there. He just has to let go of all the anger and hate and just be free. We are his mates, we are the only ones that can help him with that.
"I need to talk to you,’’ Blue grabs my hand.
We are back in the house. Gyles is back to his human form. I Gyles the whole thing was a little overwhelming to him. He is in my room, asleep. He will probably rember everything when he wakes up.
"We can talk here,’’ I tell him.
We are outside my room. He looks very nervous. I can already tell that he is about to tell
sothing that I won’t like.
"Can we talk outside?’’ he asks scratching the back of his neck nervously.
He leads
outside and I watch him, unsure of what to expect. After a couple of seconds, he grabs my hand in his. The butterflies attack
imdiately. I close my eyes for a second because his touch does things to
that I still haven’t gotten used to.
"What is wrong? You have
worried.’’
He sighs "I have so things to do, so I need to leave for a couple of days.’’ He says those words so casually. All I can think about is that he is leaving us. I know he is upset right now but he is leaving us.
"Is this because of Gyles? Are you that upset?’’ I blurt out all my fears. He is watching
and I can’t even tell what he is thinking.
Is he leaving
too?
"I am not leaving you, Rex. I love you,’’ he says finally.
I close my eyes because even being apart from him for a couple of days seems very hard to handle. I don’t want him to leave. I want to figure out how we are going to make it through this ordeal we are facing. I haven’t spoken to Alby or Beau. I think I need to talk to Beau about this—find a solution for all that is happening and how we can get through this.
"I can co with you. I don’t want you to leave." I pull him closer to
and he stays in my arms. He is not fighting . He was sincere when he said he wouldn’t let this affect .
I just wish he would forgive Gyles. Maybe it selfish of
to just want all of us to be together and happy. This relationship just always seems two-sided. It feels like one person is always being left out. Right now, Gyles is the one that is left out.
It shouldn’t be that way.
"I don’t know what I am walking into. I need to make sure that things are okay first. You have to trust . I will co back.’’ He assures . I don’t know what to believe anymore. I know I can trust him but he hates Gyles right now and I don’t. What if he is angry with the two of us?
"I am not angry with you. Gyles doesn’t have anything to do with you. You are two different people,’’ he assures , doing that thing where he reads . He is the only one that can really see right through . he is the only one that I want to see right through .
"I don’t want you to leave Blue. We need to figure things out, I just want us to be together.’’ I cry with so much desperation. I hate that my mating had to be this difficult. With everything I have been through, I just wanted an easy love.
I didn’t want to have to juggle between two guys, try to convince them that we could all be happy together. I don’t even know if that is possible. I don’t know anything anymore.
"I will figure this out. I promise you Rex, don’t worry about anything until I get back. Just keep being you,’’ he leans forward and I close my eyes imdiately. The second I feel his lips on mine, my whole world crashes. I suck all the energy that he gives
and I believe him. I completely trust him and all I have to do is be patient. Blue is strong enough to carry both of us. He will find a way to make things right.
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"Wow, they actually fucked?’’ Beau asks
with a smile on his face. He is not taking this as seriously as he should. Maybe because this has nothing to do with him and Alanis.
"I am serious Beau. What happens now?’’ I ask him desperately.
He laughs and then shrugs "You seem to have forgotten that I didn’t even know anything about this until you told . It’s such an irony that your mates will do the exact thing that you warned
not to. Didn’t you give them a lesson on what not to do when you’re mating?’’
Beau is being an right now.
I don’t like it.
"I didn’t know they would have sex. They hated each other until they didn’t anymore—they still hate each other.’’
He laughs again. This ti I glare at him because he is frustrating
right now "Okay, sorry Mr. grumpy pants."
We are in his room right now, I didn’t know who else to talk to about this. Blue leaving is kind of getting to
right now and I don’t know what to do about it. I am going to miss him, I have gotten so used to him being around. He gets up from his bed and for the first ti, I notice a ring on his finger.
A smile sprawls up to my face and he traces my eyes to his finger "Don’t say anything," he warns . "Follow ,’’ he adds and we both walk out of the house.
"You know when you have situations like this, Alby is the one you should talk to about them. I have no clue on what is going to happen to you guys. I don’t know shit about any of this but I doubt it will be that serious."
"I just thought you would be able to tell
what to do.’’
He laughs "I am the last person that would be able to tell you what to do. You have more knowledge on this stuff than I. I am terrible at rembering shit.’’
I sigh. He slaps my shoulder playfully "Why did they exclude you?’’ he asks curiously.
I should feel jealousy or rage. They actually did keep
out of it and that should make
angry but my wolf and I know that they both feel the sa way about . They didn’t do it, thinking about hurting . Gyles did it to hurt Blue and even though that doesn’t make things better. It makes
feel a little better. I know how they feel about
and I feel the sa way. This thing between us is confusing. It has never happened before and we will make mistakes. I don’t want to dwell on those mistakes. I want us to move past them.
"Long story man."
"I can’t even imagine sharing Lanis with soone else. Just seeing him talk to other people make
jealous."
Do I get jealous when I see Blue with Gyles or the reverse?
"It is different for us. I just want them to get along. I want them to accept each other so that we can all be together."
Saying those words out loud makes
feel even better. It is hard to watch the two people I love, turn against each other. Even when Blue assured
that he would be back, he didn’t even ntion Gyles. He will be leaving him too. Gyles will feel the void of his absence and I wouldn’t be enough to fill it. He needs to get over his anger and forgive him.
I just want them to get along.
"Dude, you have beco a cheesy motherfucker,’’ he laughs at
as we get to Alby’s house. I roll my eyes because I know he is teasing .
"Says the person that is wearing a ring. I am sure you said so cheesy stuff when you were proposing,’’ I tease him back.
Before he can respond to , the door to Alby’s house opens "Co in,’’ he says, almost like he was expecting us.
I hope sothing good cos out of this.
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