Chapter 215: Feeling like a third wheel
Blue.
There is this awkward silence in the car as we head over to the mall. The only reason why I picked watching a movie is because Rex ntioned that Gyles has never been to one. I wanted to be there to share the experience with him.
I want to get to know him so bad but he is not giving
the chance to know him.
I have to be patient. I look over at him through the rearview mirror and he manages a fake smile. It almost seems too forced. I know he doesn’t want to be here with . I wish he would look into his heart and see . Not what he thinks I am but who I really am.
We get to the mall and he gets down from the car faster than any of us. I look at Rex and he gives
this pity look. Almost like he feels sorry for . I don’t like the way this is going. It makes
frustrated about the whole thing.
Patience.
My wolf reassures . I know that Ro was not built in a day. I can’t just expect this to go as smooth as it went with Rex. I need to give him the ti to co around. "He is very stubborn,’’ Rex smiles at
and touches
gently on my shoulder. I close my eyes for a second because his touch is suddenly everything I need to relax.
"I just didn’t expect this to be as hard as it is,’’ I confess. I don’t know a lot about mates and Links but my willed sense helps
to read and understand things. I have felt a lot of things but, with Gyles, it is very hard to feel him. I had to get into his head to even get a sense of how he feels and even though deep down, I know he wants , I also know that he could deny this to the point where it becos rejection.
"Give him so ti. I know he wants you too, he is just trying to push it away.’’
He says it like I am supposed to be happy about that. I am not happy, I just want him to take
in his arms and accept all of . Is that so hard?
We get down from the car and Gyles walks over to Rex and I watch them as they exchange a smile. Sothing that says ’Our own world without you,’ it feels like they are excluding
and I know for a fact that Rex isn’t but with Gyles, I don’t even know.
"What movie do you want to watch?" I ignore the hostility and direct my question to Gyles because he is the reason we are here in the first place. We walk into the building as he answers . The mall is large. I don’t even know anywhere in this town but I ca here a couple of days ago to get a few clothes. Rex leads us in the direction of the cinemas as we pass people.
"I don’t know any that are good,’’ he smiles at Rex and then I watch his cheeks turn red "Can you recomnd one?’’
I watch them and do I feel like a fucking third wheel. I still don’t understand how this relationship is supposed to work. How I am supposed to be in the middle when it seems like he wants
to be pushed aside.
They converse until they finally reach an agreent. After they pick the movie, I pay for the tickets and snacks and we go into the theatre. I watch them as they walk all the way up to the back and the anger resides within . I know Rex isn’t doing this intentionally but I hate that they are leaving
out of their conversation. Once Gyles sits down, I watch Rex as he leaves a space in between him and then he winks at . This is his way of giving him a chance to be with . I sit in the middle of them and Gyles speaks up "I kinda thought Rex could sit in the middle. That way, we could both share him.’’
I hate that.
This is not about sharing Rex. This is about sharing all of us. I don’t know if he is doing this intentionally but I just want to slap so sense into him.
"I want to sit next to you,’’ I interject with a soft tone. I might be angry right now but I don’t want him to know that. Sure, I want him to see that his actions are hurting
but I also want him to have a good ti tonight. This date is mostly about him.
"Okay,’’ he accepts dejectedly. It is weird to
that just sitting next to
could make him so irked.
I lean into Rex and he has a smile on his face "You are actually cute when smitten,’’ he exclaims. I am glad one person is having fun right now. I don’t take it as an offence because this involves him. I doubt this mating could work without him. I don’t even know how it will all co down in the first place.
I grab Rex’s hand in mine just as the lights around the theatre dim and the screen cos to light. With the side of my eye, I watch Gyles. I should be more focused on him because this is my opportunity but I can’t ignore Rex. A part of
just wants him right now—even with all the longing, my wolf has for Gyles.
The trailers start and by reflex, I feel Gyles touch
gently "Is it starting?’’ he asks
with excitent in his eyes.
My heart thuds as I answer him because I didn’t expect him to ease into
so quickly. "Not yet, they usually show a bunch of other movie trailers before they start,’’ I explain to him in a hushed tone.
He turns to
fully and our faces are just an inch apart. My heart thuds even louder, I am so sure he can hear it. Fuck, everyone in this room could hear it for all I care.
"What is a trailer?’’ he furrows his brows and the lines on the top of his forehead crinkle. It takes a lot from
to control myself at this mont. I want to reach out to him and just touch him. Know what that feels like.
Just touch him already.
My wolf urges . A couple of minutes ago, he wanted
to be patient and now he wants
to take control of this situation. Once I touch Gyles, he is going to get that overwhelming hit that cos with finding your mate and I don’t even think this is the right ti for this.
"It’s kinda like Ads for other movies, it helps market them before they co out,’’ I explain it to him. Very happy that he is giving
this chance. I know this is pathetic. Like, I am so happy to be explaining about movies and trailers.
I feel Rex as he squeezes my hand encouragingly, letting
know that he is here through it all. the movie starts and I realise imdiately that they picked a horror movie. I have never been a fan of horror movies—not like I can’t stand them. I just have never seen the appeal.
"How did you guys agree to this?’ I ask Rex.
He smiles and I see the guilty expression on his face. "I kinda convinced him. He was indifferent about it, so I don’t know if he will like it."
So Rex chose the movie. I don’t know if it is a good idea to start out with horror movies but I am sure he will be able to handle it. Rex seems to like it, I an, I expected him to be scared of these kinds of movies.
"Thought you would be scared of horror movies,’’ I voice out my thoughts as he starts to devour the popcorn.
He shakes his head, his eyes fixed on the screen. "I live for these kinds of movies,’’ he mumbles with popcorn in his mouth. His attention goes back to the movie and mine stay on Gyles. There is a lot of confusion on his face and I know he wants to ask questions but he is trying to focus on the movie. So far, it doesn’t seem like he is scared of it. So this is not a complete fail.
The movie continues and all my focus is on him. I don’t even care about the movie. All I care about is connecting with him. After about thirty minutes through the movie, his reactions change. I sense him losing interest.
"Are you okay?’’ I ask him wanting to make sure.
His eyes shift to mine and for a second, he has a confused expression on his face as he shakes his head "I am fine, I need to use the restroom,’’ he pipes up, his voice shaking.
"I can co with you,’’ I try to push but he shakes his head again.
"I saw one on the way. I will be fine,’’ he assures
and I watch him as he walks down the steps and out of the theatre.
"Is he okay?’’ Rex asks worriedly.
A big part of
knows that sothing is wrong and I should’ve followed him but how do I do that when he didn’t even want
to?
"You should go check up on him,’’ Rex tells .
In that instant, I stand up from the chair and walk out, in hopes that he doesn’t get upset with
that I didn’t listen to him.
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