Chapter 134: Wish you didn’t have to suffer
Alanis.
The Elis leave and father asks
into his office. I have been stalling because talking to him ans explaining everything that has happened to . I am not saying he was right, but there are so things that are happening that make
think he is, not that anything would’ve changed if I actually knew the outco of the ritual.
’’Co in,’’ he urges
as he walks in and stops in front of his desk. The room is dark except for a little lamp on the table next to his chair.
I walk into the room and the expression on his face is not inviting. I know he is not happy with .
’’Darrien did the ritual too,’’ he mutters blankly as I sit down in front of him.
Oh. The source of his anger is not . Darrien didn’t tell him, maybe that is why he is so upset right now.
’’Yes, we did it together.’’
Being honest is the most important thing right now. There is no point hiding this from him. He will find out eventually and it is better it cos from us. This is not my truth to tell but Darrien is nonchalant about these things. He should have inford Father about this, but he didn’t feel the need to.
’’How did it turn out?"
I know what he is fishing for. He wants
to go into details. I don’t have the information he needs because as at right now, I don’t even know how it is going. Everything is still uncertain to . The fact that I don’t even know what is going on inside , cannot be explained to him.
’’We are not sure yet,’’ I tell him honestly.
He manages an insincere smile. Father is not happy; I can tell that much. There is this disappointnt lingering in the pits of his heart. He doesn’t want this for .
’’I didn’t want this for you,’’ he admits, which confuses .
He didn’t choose this, no one chose this. It happened and even though I never expected it. I didn’t have a say in it but I don’t regret it. I have never been happier in my whole life. Even through all the drama with Cassius and Fallon. Seeing Beau and his beautiful face makes up for it.
’’No one chose this,’’ I retort wanting to make things clear for him.
He shakes his head, removing his glasses. His eyes focus on mine, there is a sadness deep within them. I feel his pain, not sure why it is there in the first place. I am not complaining about this. Everyone seems to be worried for
when I am not even worried. Beau is scared that sothing will happen to , Eligio and now m father. I wish they would all have faith in
and this process. i never disagreed on my mating with Beau, from the first day I found out about it, I accepted it. I felt it deep within, there was a pull that no one can take away from . I couldn’t deny it, I didn’t even want to deny it.
I love him so much that a life without him is unimaginable.
’’I never wanted you to suffer. You suffered enough before I found you. I thought turning you would be a way for you to truly live the life you were supposed to but now I see that I was wrong.’’
This is the life I am supposed to live.
’’I am not suffering,’’ I tell him point-blank.
He sighs running his hands through his hair. I notice the ss he makes on it imdiately. ’’You don’t know it yet because you are so in love with the wolf but there is a lot of destruction ahead. Nothing is going to be easy. You will have a lot to deal with.’’
I already know all this. I don’t care, as long as I have Beau by my side. I don’t care about anything else.
’’You can’t control every single thing that happens to . I will forever be indebted to your for saving . I will never forget all the love and kindness you have shown , but you have to let
choose my own destiny. At the end of the day, this is my life, it is mine to live, alone.’’
I don’t know If he is really listening to . I can see it now, the fact that he blas himself for this. Everyone seems to bla themselves for everything that has been happening. I don’t see it as sothing that needs to be thought about so deeply. This is like any normal link to . yes, it is different, but I love him and that is all the bonding is about at the end of the day.
’’This will not end well. You think this is a blessing. A gift from the god’s but I think it is a mistake. This is all a big mistake that we will all regret.’’
Now he is going too far.
He is calling my love for Beau a mistake. This is not a mistake if there is one thing I am certain about. I am ant to be with Beau. This was all ant to happen.
I stand up from the chair, looming above him because I will not sit here and let him make a mockery of my relationship. Father needs to accept this or he will end up losing . Beau is my number one priority. Everyone else cos second to him.
’’You will take back your words. I promise you will see how special our relationship is. I just hope you don’t end up losing
at the end.’’
He shakes his head and releases a loud sigh of exasperation. I feel the sa way. The fact that I have to keep convincing people that this is ant to be is fucking exhausting. I am done trying to prove to people that our love is ant to be. If they don’t see it, then I will let them continue being blind.
I need to focus on Beau and the pack.
So we can have a beautiful life together.
’’I love you more than anything. You are my child and I will never abandon you. I am just tired of seeing you hurt,’’ he admits. I completely believe him. father is a control freak. He likes things to go his way.
Right now, it seems like nothing is going his way. If this was in his hands. I would’ve never done the ritual with Beau but deep down he knows that he can’t control this. He knows that I have no choice but to do this.
’’I promise, things will work out,’’ I try to assure him because I have never been more sure about anything.
after my eting with him, I head back to my room to get a few of my things. don’t get
wrong, I actually like wearing Beau’s clothes but they are all pretty big for
and it would be good to have so of my stuff in his house.
My phone rings in my pocket and I am surprised to see a call from Beau. The last ti I heard from him was through a mind link. The fact that he is calling
is worriso. Any little thing that happens has
worried. Their community is not the safest place right now, that is why I didn’t even want to leave in the first place. It has just been a couple of days, since Cassius’s attack but I know he will be back eventually. We have to be ready when he does try to attack again but my hopes right now are Bade and Brone. If we could get to him before he gets to us. He wouldn’t know what hit him.
Right now, beau shouldn’t be calling , especially since I told him I would be coming back soon. The Elis want to et him. I told them I would let them know by tomorrow. It would be good to have them on our side.
’’Hello,’’ I answer his call with a smile on my face.
He releases a heavy sigh into the phone and I know sothing is wrong from just that. The smile on my face wipes off instantly. What could have gone wrong in the couple of hours that I left?
’’What happened?’’ I am quick to ask because I can tell sothing happened. Now all I have are regrets. I should’ve never co ho. He needs
with him all the ti.
’’Where are you?’’
I drop the bag in my grip, completely stopping the clothes stuffing I am doing.
’’I am still at ho. Dad wanted to talk to .’’
’’Haven’t you been talking to him all day?’’
I rember that I didn’t tell him about the Elis. the plan was to talk to him about it when I got ho. Right now, it seems like the least of his problems.
’’What happened?’’ I aks him again.
’’Can you co ho?’’ he avoids answering my question.
Now I know sothing is wrong. Just from his voice, I can tell that sothing happened while I was away.
Am I ready for whatever it is?
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