My Na is ‘Misa’ (3)
-Ricardo’s perspective in the viewing.
I glanced at Michail’s eyes.
“What…?”
Michail’s pupils, which initially held confusion, soon began to reflect the emotion of anger.
“How do you know that na?”
“Because I am that person…”
I said in a trembling voice.
“Shut up…”
Michail demanded, his voice rising as he questioned how I could possibly know the na of a mory no one else could. His emotions were laid bare, more intense than when he had hard soone, as he shouted furiously.
“Don’t you dare speak of my mories with that filthy mouth.”
In the viewing, I wore an awkward smile. My expression showed that I was troubled, unsure of how to handle the situation.
It was the first ti I had experienced soone denying who I said I was.
Watching myself, I let out a bitter sigh and shook my head. I wondered if I had really been that important to Michail.
I had only been his friend, yet Michail had rembered , holding onto the mories of from the past. It was both touching and awkward.
‘This is troubleso.’
In the viewing, I spoke to Michail in a calm voice, as if nothing was wrong.
“Thank you for rembering like that.”
“Shut up.”
“I didn’t expect you to still rember .”
As expected, I am who I am.
The thought was the sa.
I let out a hollow laugh and shook my head.
There was sothing I had been curious about for a long ti.
Once I revealed the truth to Michail, how would he perceive ?
As the benefactor who saved his life?
An old classmate he hadn’t seen in a long ti?
Honestly, I hadn’t expected Michail to treat warmly. From my perspective, I didn’t think I was soone who would leave a significant mark on him. At least, that was my assumption.
More than anything, I was curious about my own reaction. Even I didn’t fully understand myself.
Would I laugh and reminisce about the past, or would I lash out at Michail, venting the resentnt that had built up? I wasn’t sure how I would react when the ti ca.
In the viewing, I began to speak to Michail, who was glaring at with murderous intent, his lips tightly sealed.
Given the situation, I was exhausted, and my tone was laced with irritation as I spoke to Michail.
“I did my best, but Michail, you seem to hate so much.”
“…Who told you that na?”
“Are we back to that again? Why can’t you just believe ?”
“Answer .”
“Sigh…”
In the viewing, I began to hurl sharp words at Michail, who refused to believe .
“I did everything I could for you, Michail.”
“Stop evading the question and answer properly…”
“I tried to help you grow up more comfortably, and I did my best not to cause you any harm.”
“…Ricardo!!!”
“I…!!!”
As I slowly revealed the truth, Michail’s face began to pale.
“That day, I held back the High Priest in your place…!”
“Please…”
“And when I saved you from being swept away by the river, I didn’t even hear a single word of thanks, yet I still helped you.”
“No… This can’t be.”
“Why are you so disappointed in ?”
In the viewing, I shouted at Michail, standing in the rain. It seed that as I spoke, I was getting swept up in my emotions. How foolish.
“Why is everything I do considered arrogant or wrong in your eyes?”
“…It
“Do you hate that much?”
“…”
“I asked for nothing in return, only offering help. I was your childhood friend, standing by your side. Do you really hate that much?”
“…That’s not it. I…”
“Then what am I to you? I’ve been going through hell just to keep the promise I made to protect you as a child. When the Academy caught fire, I rushed in, worried you might be there. Why do I have to be called trash by you?”
With a voice filled with bitterness, I poured out my resentnt to Michail.
“Do you think I killed our friend because I wanted to? Do you think I killed him because I enjoyed it? I’m human too. I feel guilt, just like anyone else. Sure, I may be trash, but I’m still a person.”
“…”
“That friend you speak of, the one who was targeting your life from behind, I protected you from him. Was that a cri?”
“…Why.”
“Why did I do it?”
In the viewing, I had more pent-up resentnt than I had realized. Once the floodgates opened, I began to pour out everything.
All the misunderstandings.
Though I hadn’t expressed it outwardly, deep inside, I had been festering with grievances. Clenching my fists, I continued to spit out my frustrations.
“Because I made a promise.”
“…”
“I did it to keep that damn promise. I didn’t want you to suffer as much, so I stepped in.”
“…”
“I hate you for hurting her, and I want to punch you right now, but I made a promise. Damn it… I made a promise, and I keep my promises. I didn’t want to break it, just like your mother didn’t want to break hers.”
“I didn’t know.”
“You didn’t know! Why do you hate only ?”
Watching myself in the viewing, I smiled bitterly. I was grateful that I had finally said what I needed to, but it didn’t feel particularly cool or heroic.
I lowered my head and muttered softly.
‘Wasn’t that a bit too harsh?’
After all, I am a lady.
‘You wouldn’t understand.’
I let out a hollow laugh and nodded my head.
Michail stood there, unable to say anything. Tears stread down his cheeks, soaking the ground beneath him, and he couldn’t even look in the eye.
Sobbing, Michail reached out with trembling hands, trying to grab the sleeve of my coat.
“
“…”
“I’m a bad person. It’s fine if I die… So, please.”
In the viewing, I avoided Michail’s outstretched hand and declared the end of our relationship. I cursed him, telling him I no longer wanted to be involved with him.
“I don’t want to be tied to you anymore.”
“…Minhyuk!!!”
“Don’t call .”
“…Huh?”
“Just like you told . Don’t call with that mouth.”
“
Michail chased after as I walked away.
Begging not to leave.
Even when he tripped over a puddle, falling to the ground.
Even when the curious gazes of the students around him were fixed on him.
Michail ran for a long ti, trying to catch up with in the viewing.
‘…’
It didn’t feel good.
Watching that scene didn’t bring any sense of relief. Even knowing that Michail was a girl now didn’t change my feelings. Seeing a girl desperately chasing after while I coldly ignored her left a bad taste in my mouth.
‘Idiot.’
I shook my head as I watched myself walk away resolutely. If I had been swept up in my emotions back then, sothing like that would have happened.
I pressed my lips together and held back my words.
The scene shifted.
In the dark room, Michail remained alone, captured in the viewing.
The rain stopped.
The sun rose.
The moon set again.
Despite the many days that passed on the calendar, Michail remained holed up in the dormitory, not moving.
“I’m
In the darkness, with no light entering, Michail sat hugging his knees, worrying about soone who would never co, living out his days in that state.
Occasionally, soone would knock on Michail’s door.
-Michail, are you in there…?
Yuria ca looking for him.
-Michail, student.
A professor ca looking for him.
-Michail, if you don’t co out right now, you’ll be expelled.
Chartia ca, urging him to continue his studies, but Michail remained locked in his room, showing no intention of coming out.
“I’m
Michail opened a notebook and began writing letters. The recipient was Ricardo. At the sa ti, he addressed the letters to Lee Minhyuk, the person from his mories, writing apology after apology, though no reply ever ca.
-I’m sorry… I’m really sorry.
Apologies filled the pages.
-I want to co find you, but I’m afraid you’ll hate . So, I write letters instead. If you tell not to send them, I won’t. If you say you don’t want to see , I’ll leave. But please, just once.
Desperately, he wrote.
-Please, just send one reply.
As Michail wrote these unanswered letters, the darkness around him deepened.
***
-The viewing has ended.
They had seen different futures.
One man let out a deep sigh.
-Haa…
One woman writhed in uncontrollable sorrow.
-No… This isn’t right…
Having witnessed different futures, their hearts were filled with complex emotions.
Love.
Jealousy.
Friendship.
The musical score, filled with emotions too difficult to put into words, concluded with a period, not a repeat sign.
A period, not a repeat.
“…”
Both of them closed their eyes, lost in thought.
-Thud.
Rain began to fall.
-Thud thud thud.
Raindrops fell one by one onto my outstretched palm. The raindrops that fell on my shoulders as I walked through the streets of the capital slowly soaked into my collar.
I smiled faintly and opened my umbrella.
“Damn it.”
I thought speaking now would be a mistake.
I concluded that once I had regained so composure, I would be able to speak properly. After all, choosing the best option rather than the worst would be more beneficial for the life of soone who had been possessed.
“Hoo.”
Smiling faintly at the thought of sothing that hadn’t happened, I slowly strolled through the streets of the capital.
And then.
-…
Across the carriageway, a girl stood drenched in the rain.
I smiled faintly and walked toward her. I held the umbrella over her head and greeted her.
“Misa.”
“…”
“You’ll catch a cold.”
Michail stared at endlessly.
I cut off Michail’s words, smiling as I spoke.
“Sword.”
“…”
“When you have ti, co and learn.”
Her na was Misa.
At the sa ti, she was my friend.
End of Chapter
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