’That may be true, but when you need a man, you need a man. For example, when I filled out the enrollnt information just now, there was a column that asked for the na and occupation of the children’s father. What are we supposed to write there?’
The reason why Nancy started nagging Joanna again was because she faced a dilemma when she filled out the enrollnt information earlier.
It made her realize that, be it Miss Joan or the two children, they all needed a man in the house.
"Just write "none". There are plenty of people who lost their spouse or their father in this world, so why can’t we be in that situation too?"
Joanna continued to paint, her mood not affected in the slightest.
The mont she decided to divorce Ace and left the City for Sun Island, she had already anticipated these situations and had accepted them. She did not think it was a big deal.
"We can’t do that!"
Nancy was a bit agitated. ’Miss Joan, you’re too carefree. Nowadays, kindergarten teachers treat the children differently based on who their parents are. If they know that Abby and Adie have no father, they’ll definitely get neglected to so extent. If the class finds out, the children will also mock and laugh at them. It’ll hurt Abby and Adie. That’s why, we must write a na in this column no matter what, and you must keep the fact that you’re a single mother a secret..."
"I think we should just write Master Liam’s na for now. The two children see him as a father figure anyway. Master Liam is also reliable. If you start a relationship with him, I’d be the first to show my support."
In Nancy’s opinion, Liam was the man who loved Joanna the most, and he was the most suitable candidate to be the man in their house. She had been hoping that the two of them would get married soon. She would be able to rest easily then.
But to her surprise, Joanna said awkwardly, "We can’t write Liam’s na. I have to cut all ties with him. Barring any accident, I probably won’t have any contact with him anymore."
"What?!"
Nancy’s eyes widened in surprise. She could not believe what she was hearing. "I thought you and Master Liam were going to get married? Even if you don’t, you two are so close that you would surely be lifelong friends. How did it get to this? Did he do anything to hurt you?"
Joanna shook her head. "There’s no way Liam would hurt . He would hurt himself first before he would hurt . The reason for cutting ties with him is precisely because he’s sacrificed too much for , more than I can bear. Therefore, in order not to hurt him, parting ways is the best way to handle this."
"But..."
Nancy looked at Joanna with sympathy and said, "But without a capable helper like Master Liam, you’ll be on your own from now on. Your life will beco even more difficult than before. How can I feel happy about this?"
Joanna sighed and smiled wryly, "Yes, losing him is like losing one of my limbs. I’ll need to work even harder and I’ll probably suffer a lot more hardship from now on. However, we all have to learn to walk on our own soday. I can’t keep relying on others’ charity. A love debt is really hard to pay..."
Nancy did not fully understand. She looked at Joanna and asked, "Miss Joan, I don’t quite understand what you an. In my opinion, Master Liam is a really good man. Since he can accept you for who you are, fully embrace the two children, and make sacrifices for you without holding back, why can’t you compromise and give him a chance?"
"You know , Nancy. If I could, I would have done it long ago. I also had the option to co back here anyti in the last four years to start over with Ace, the father of my children, but do you really think I could do that?"
Joanna’s words made Nancy co to a sudden realization.
’That’s right, Miss Joan. You’re not soone who can compromise in these matters. Don’t get involved with a bad guy like Ace anymore. Even if he’s the children’s father, we need to avoid him like the plague. I can’t bear to see you get hurt again!"
When Nancy spoke of Ace, she was filled with righteous indignation. She wished she could kick him a few tis.
"I won’t."
Joanna’s expression turned gloomy. She said faintly, "Because he’s already dead."
"He’s... he’s dead?"
Nancy was shocked. She struggled to process the sudden news.
How could a person who had everything like him die just like that?!
"Yes, he’s dead. If I’m not wrong, he probably died because he tried to save ."
Joanna spoke with difficulty, her expression heavy.
Although Susan believed that there was foul play in Ace’s death, Joanna still felt responsible.
If he didn’t hurt his leg trying to save her, his life would not be in danger, and the people who wished to cause him harm would not have an opportunity to take advantage of.
"For real?"
Nancy found Joanna’s words hard to believe.
Ace was a heartless beast. He caused Miss Joan a lot of pain. There’s no way he would sacrifice himself to save Miss Joan. There must be so sort of misunderstanding.
I’m not sure if it’s true either, but from the information I gathered, I might not necessarily be the direct cause of his death, but I do have to bear so responsibility. I feel... a little sad."
Joanna lowered her head and spoke quietly, her voice so low that it almost seed like she was talking to herself.
Yes, she was sad.
She kept pretending like she did not care, as if Ace’s death had no impact on her.
But at night, when she was alone, she had to admit that she felt a bit sad.
"Are you sad because you feel guilty, or because you still can’t let go?"
Nancy asked a sharp question.
"I don’t know. I only rember that the mont I found out he was no longer alive, my heart suddenly beca empty, like there was a small dot of emptiness that rapidly spread and turned into a black hole- like abyss. It constantly devours my will, making less and less like myself and less and less rational..."
At this point, Joanna curled up in pain. She hugged her head and kept repeating, ’I don’t know what’s wrong with , I don’t know..."
Nancy hugged Joanna lovingly and gently coaxed her like she always did when Joanna was a child. "Alright, Miss Joan, don’t be sad anymore. It’s all over. Yes, you two were married, but you’ve been apart for so long. If he’s gone, he’s gone. Don’t let him affect your mood."
"But he died because he saved . I feel so bad. My heart feels so empty... Nancy, I didn’t lose anything, so why would I feel so empty?"
Joanna looked at Nancy with tears in her eyes. Facing the nanny who brought her up from a young age who was also the person she was closest to, she no longer wanted to pretend to be strong.
’That’s... Miss Joan, don’t cry, don’t cry. The dead cannot co back to life. If you’ve never forgotten him, you should have returned to the City soti in the last four years to rekindle your relationship with him. No matter what the outco may be, at least you would have no regrets."
Nancy patted Joanna’s back and sighed. ’That Ace Moran... he seed invincible, unbreakable, but he actually died at such a young age. What a sha."
"Miss Joan, maybe he’s not dead? Maybe he has to fake his death for so reason."
"I don’t know. The Moran family has already chosen a grave for him. His corpse has already been cremated."
"If he’s not dead, what would you do? Would you give him another chance and start over with him?"
Nancy was hoping for a miracle. She hoped that she would suddenly receive news of Ace’s revival when she woke up tomorrow.
"If he’s not actually dead and is only pretending to be dead, I would hate him forever. I would not forgive him or believe him ever again. He doesn’t deserve my tears and sadness!"
Joanna’s eyes were cold and her tone was determined.
Nancy shook her head and pointed out, ’You and Ace Moran are destined to be a bitter couple. When you’re alive, you hurt each other, but when one of you dies, you make the other person feel sad. Aren’t you just torturing yourselves?"
"I....."
"Listen to . Dry your tears and stop feeling sad. Just pretend that he’s still alive sowhere in the world, but your lives will never intersect again, just like how it was in the last four years. You’ve already let go and you’re finally living your own life again, so why go back?" "Nancy, you’re right. I was too emotional. I shouldn’t have let soone who no longer exists affect so much. I’ll let go of all these ssy emotions like I did before. Only without love can I live a carefree life!"
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