Ye jun
anwhile Si Woo acted like nothing was wrong. He ca ho from wherever he disappeared to during the day and tried to corner every night. One ti he pinned against the kitchen counter while I was grabbing water and kissed right over the biggest hickey on my neck.
"Still mad about your little hospital trip?" he muttered against my skin. His hand slid down my back way too familiar. "You look like shit but these marks look good. My favorite color on you."
I shoved him off harder than usual. "Not now Si Woo. I feel like crap."
He just laughed that an little huff and let go but his eyes stayed on the whole ti like he knew sothing was up. "Whatever. You’ll co crawling back like always."
I hated how right he usually was. But this ti I stayed away. Locked my door at night. Ignored his texts until he stopped sending the crude ones and started with the annoyed ones like "the fuck is your problem".
On the third day Ohm finally got a hold of for real. I was sitting on the couch staring at the wall when my phone rang and his na popped up. I almost didn’t answer but the guilt won again so I picked up.
"Ye Jun what the hell ," he said right away no hello or anything. His voice sounded stronger than in the hospital but pissed. "I’ve been texting you nonstop. You said you’d help and then you just vanish? I get you’re sick but this is bullshit."
I rubbed my eyes which still felt raw. "Sorry. Fever’s been kicking my ass for real this ti. Not just the onion thing. What do you need?"
There was a pause like he was trying not to snap. "I need you to co by tomorrow so we can go over the evidence again. I printed so stuff out. The doctors say I can go ho soon but I want this handled before I do."
My stomach dropped. Evidence. The stuff I kinda sorta gave to Si Woo when he showed up at the hospital acting all concerned brother. He had said he wanted to help look into it for . "Yeah sure," I lied again. "Tomorrow works."
"Good. "
I froze.
Ohm kept talking but I barely heard him. "Ye Jun you there? You sound weird."
"Yeah I’m here," I said too fast. "Just tired. We’ll sort it tomorrow okay?"
We hung up and I sat there feeling the walls close in. Later that night Si Woo ca ho earlier than usual. He found in the kitchen eating cereal straight from the box because cooking felt impossible.
"You look like you saw a ghost," he said leaning in the doorway with that smirk. "Ohm called you again? Your little boyfriend is getting needy?"
"Shut up," I snapped without thinking. The words ca out sharper than I planned. "He’s not my boyfriend and this isn’t funny Si Woo. Soone tried to kill him."
He shrugged like we were talking about the weather. "People get shot every day. Sucks for him."
I slamd the cereal box down. "Did you do it? Just tell straight for once."
Si Woo’s eyes went cold for a second then he laughed. "You really asking that? After everything? Wow Ye Jun. Your fever must have fried your brain."
He stepped closer and I backed up until my butt hit the counter. "I saw the ssages. The paynts. It all points to you."
"Points to or points to soone who wants it to look like ?" He reached out and tugged the collar of my shirt down exposing the hickeys. "You believe so hospital pictures over your own brother? Cute."
I slapped his hand away. "Don’t touch . Not right now."
He didn’t listen. Just crowded more until his body was pressed against mine. "You love when I touch you. Stop pretending you don’t. And stop playing detective. It doesn’t suit you."
We went back and forth like that for what felt like hours. Him denying everything in that mocking tone. yelling questions that got weaker each ti because part of didn’t want the real answer. He ended up kissing anyway and for a stupid minute I let him because it was easier than thinking. But then I pushed him off and locked myself in my room again.
The next morning Ohm called way too early. His voice was different this ti. Not just pissed. Cold.
"Ye Jun. We need to talk. Now."
I sat up in bed still half asleep. "What’s wrong? You okay?"
"No I’m not okay. The printed evidence I had? Gone. Soone took it from my room last night. And guess what? I checked the money trail again. The guy who actually pulled the trigger? So random thug Si Woo paid off big ti to take the fall. It’s all there if you know where to look. But you already knew that didn’t you?"
My heart started hamring so loud I could hear it in my ears. "What? No I didn’t..."
"Cut the shit," Ohm cut in. He sounded hurt under the anger and that made my chest ache worse than anything. "You gave the evidence to Si Woo. You told you’d help and then you handed everything straight to him so he could destroy it and pin it on soone else. I trusted you man. I thought we were in this together."
"I didn’t an to," I said but the words sounded la even to . My voice cracked. "He said he wanted to help. I was confused okay? Everything’s so fucked up right now."
Ohm let out this bitter laugh that didn’t sound like him at all. "Confused. Right. You’re not confused Ye Jun. You’re just a sucker for your brother. He fucks you up, and you still run back every ti. I saw the way you looked at the hospital. Pathetic."
Tears stung my eyes again and this ti I didn’t blink them back. "That’s not fair. You don’t know what it’s like."
"I know enough," he said quieter now but still hard. "You chose him. Again. Even after he almost killed . Hope those marks were worth it."
The line went dead before I could say anything else. I dropped the phone on the bed and just stared at the wall. My whole body felt numb then hot then cold all at once. I wanted to laugh because how ridiculous was this? crying over my stepbrother who might be a criminal while my friend called a sucker. But the laugh turned into a sob and I curled up hugging my knees because it hurt too much.
Si Woo knocked on my door a few minutes later. "You alive in there? I heard you talking."
I didn’t answer. Just pulled the blanket over my head and tried to disappear. Outside the door he sighed like I was the annoying one.
"Fine. Ignore . But we both know you’ll tell everything later when you can’t handle it alone."
His footsteps walked away and I stayed under the blanket shaking. The hickeys throbbed like they were alive reminding whose I was. Ohm’s words kept replaying in my head. Sucker for your brother. He was right. I was. And that scared more than any gun or evidence or hospital beeps ever could.
Because if Si Woo really did it, what did that make for still wanting him anyway? And if he didn’t, then I just betrayed the one person who never treated like shit. Either way I was screwed. And the worst part? Deep down I already knew which way I’d probably go when it all blew up.
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