Aries didn't plan to see Curtis for a while since she would be busy and she didn't want him to get caught up with her shady business. But after her eting with Abel, she found herself standing in front of Curtis' room for a very long ti before she entered.
Good thing Curtis wasn't asleep yet while he was lying on his side. Aries sat down on the armchair near the bed, exchanging looks with him in silence.
"Curtis, do you rember the ti you said you had fallen in love?" she broke the silence after a long ti. "What is it like? I an, love… what is it like?"
As expected, Curtis was just staring at her without speaking a word. Her lips curled up bitterly, letting out a deep exhale as she lowered her eyes.
"Honestly, I don't know what true love really is. Was it just as terrifying as I thought it was? Joaquin told back in Rikhill he loved , but then led his army and ruined our land. He let watch everyone get executed and took every bit of what he can take from . When he had enough, he shared like an old, used toy." Aries laughed weakly in ridicule, summarizing the first form of love she encountered years back that wasn't ant to be platonic.
"If that is what love ans… then I do not want love." She raised her eyes at him again, conflicting emotions in her eyes. "But lately... I sort of understand Joaquin in a way."
Aries sighed deeply, leaning back, eyes up. Curtis still had his eyes on her, but she ignored it as she recalled her talk with Abel today.
"Love seed to be a very vicious emotion, Curtis. Because if love is embracing soone so tightly but still feels they're too far and so you want to chew your way under their skin or have them in your veins, then I think I am in love." She laughed faintly once again. "Or was I sick of having these dark and chilling thoughts?"
Silence was the only answer she received. She didn't understand the emotion behind Abel's eye, but it bothered her. He made her sad in a way no one else could ever, making her want to split her heart just to complete his.
"I shouldn't be thinking about this right now since I should be dealing with other things, but sohow… I'm terrified," she continued in the sa tone that was only above a whisper. "What will happen to us once everything is over?"
Aries slowly set her eyes back to Curtis, and he was just staring at her almost innocently. Her lips curled up bitterly, smacking her lips before she forced a much broader smile.
"Davien used to ask what sort of man will manage to seduce a tomboy like , and I used to tell him unless he's scarier than the devil with a face of an angel, then they won't even have a chance. I think I took that joke quite seriously, and it manifested in because… I ended up with such a man." Her mind drifted to the look on Abel's face and recalled the classic devious smirk he would usually give her. "He's a hundred tis scarier than the devil and a person who had a guaranteed spot in hell — he'll beco legendary there, for sure."
"There were many… tens of thousands of reasons I shouldn't yearn for a person like him. Joaquin did wrong and created the current Aries. But then again, whenever I think about it, there would also be a lot of Arieses if only Abel let them all live longer." — because, at the end of the day, Abel was still soone who antagonized people.
Joaquin and Abel had different ways of tornting people, but both ended with one conclusion. Their actions would bear vengeance. Aries wasn't as crazy as to justify Abel's actions with his past because, in the first place, Abel never justified his actions.
Now, that was another difference between Abel and Joaquin. Abel knew he was evil and his wickedness was bottomless.
"Now, he's telling I am his world…? ?" she laughed, tapping her fingertips against the armrest. "It's flattering, and even when I say I am confused, I think I understood him deep down."
"Just… what the hell was he expecting from after all this ti?" she continued, setting her eyes back to the silent Curtis. Aries kept quiet, reviewing everything Abel had done and took out only the key points of why he thought of this idea of sending her into this place and connecting it to his statents today.
It took her minutes to mull about it, listening to the constant tap of her fingers against the armrest. When another minute had passed, she laughed in ridicule as if she finally figured out Abel's real reason.
"Really…" she chuckled and set her focus back to Curtis once again. "I always thought n are a bunch of simpletons. Davien and you always protest whenever I say that, but you're right. There were n out there who were far too complicated for their own good."
Aries pressed her lips as she rembered all those good tis with the n in her life before the tragedy. Her eyes softened after a mont, leaning her upper body over to reach for his hand. She caressed the scars on the back of his hand with her thumb gently in an attempt to soothe them.
"He is giving a tough decision and I am foolish to only realize that now," she whispered but her subtle smile persisted. "I am in an unstoppable current and I'm not a monster in the making anymore. What they did to and to you and to our land is sothing I cannot forgive, Curtis. And every damn ti I think about it, my blood boils."
"Their demise is what I only want right now, and I won't stop." She paused and squeezed his hand. "But if sohow… never mind. Ti will only tell how angry I was."
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