The final ray of sunlight on vanished. I experienced the sun gradually leaving . I blankly stared at the floor. All I know was that, in my hazy state, I thought Veirya ca back. However, it was Angelina, who ca back with a hopeless expression. I almost hugged Angelina, but she shook her head: "Sorry, I don't know where that idiot has gone off to. I didn't find her nearby. That ans that she's ran far away. Sorry, I didn't think things would turn out this way. She doesn't understand anything, yet she ran away from ho I'm sure she didn't go too far, though. She'll be back once she's let off so steam."
I shook my head. I no longer felt pain; all I was left with was a despairing calmness. I didn't know what I could do. I brought Queen Sisi back for Veirya, only for her to storm off in a fit of anger. I couldn't find her. My fate with Veirya was sealed when she called a traitor.
I already did everything that I could and satisfied everyone, yet couldn't keep one person by my side. I was used to it. The sa thing happened to from as far as I had my mory. I'd try my best and repay other's kindness to . Alas, I would never receive any gratitude from them. In the end, I'd leave in a battered and torn state, while they'd enjoy it all with peace of mind. They'd even curse incessantly. I was used to it.
I thought that history wouldn't repeat itself in this world, that Veirya would understand and that she was different to others. I thought my new life was different to the past. I wanted to treat others kindly. I didn't mind destroying my relationship with Lucia to satisfy Veirya, but it still ended tragically. I expected too much from everyone.
I knew that I feared loneliness. The reason I didn't sleep at noon wasn't because I wasn't tired but because I couldn't stand being alone in the room with the lonely sunlight. I wanted to have soone who could understand and always be with . Even Leah said, "Papa, you went too far this ti!"
I was alone again. Nobody understood . Nobody knew what I went through while I was with Lucia. I didn't have ti to be romantic with her. My head would've been lopped off at any mont during the countless tests. Did I risk my life just so that I could be with Lucia?
"Why does nobody understand ? What exactly did I do wrong? If I loved Lucia, why on Earth would I have co back? Why not just stay there with her? Why would they suspect of having a change of heart? Why doesn't Veirya get it? What else does she want?" I brooded.
Queen Sisi gently wrapped her arms around my neck from behind. She leaned on my back. In a soft voice, she stated, "I'm still by your side; I'll always be by your side. I know your pain right now. You want to go and search for Veirya, right? Go ahead. I don't know where she is, but I'll always follow you until you find her."
I dawdled for a mont before quietly replying, " No."
It was just as in the past, except that it wasn't who left in pieces but Veirya, who left of her own volition. That ant it was even more impossible to bring her back. I didn't know where to search for her, and what could I have done if I found her anyway? Would she co back if I found her?
I had lost everything. I no longer had a place to stay. All I could do was find a shelter as a stray dog would. I just rejected the elves. I could no longer return to them. As such, Queen Sisi was the only one I could stay with.
"Your Majesty, let us go to the imperial capital." I spun around and continued, "Let us put you back on the throne. I am worried now that Veirya is not here. She is your biggest competition for the throne. If the military locates her, then the situation will beco difficult to undo. Therefore, we need to head out as soon as we can."
"I don't care for the throne."
"But I do."
Queen Sisi froze. She chuckled: "Little Doggy, I have a question. What is your reason for wanting to crown ? Last ti, you rescued for Veirya. What about this ti? Veirya is gone. Are you crowning to give yourself a shelter?"
"No. Your Majesty, I am crowning you to prevent the military from taking advantage of Veirya. She does not have the capacity to be a Queen. If she allows her emotions to get the better of her and ends up being their instrunt, her entire life will be done for. I am partly to bla for her departure. I do not bla her. Even if is the last thing I can do after her departure, I will ensure its success."
Queen Sisi grabbed my collar and thundered, "She's gone! She abandoned you! What are you still doing things for her for? What did she ever do for you to devote your entire being to her? I can do what she can, and I can even do it better. She's left you. What's the point of you doing this?!"
I pressed my hand on Queen Sisi's: "Veirya never did anything to . You are right. She is very stupid. She has no idea what love is. And she has left . Even so, when I had nowhere to go, she was the only one who took in."
"But I can accept you now when you have nowhere to go, can't i?!"
"Sorry, Your Majesty. This is not sothing that can be replaced. Lucia was right. If you leave a wound on soone's heart, it is impossible to erase it."
I brushed off Queen Sisi's hand and shook out my clothes: "Your Majesty, you should get ready. I will call Leah and Angelina. This may no longer be as simple as I previously imagined. That said, one fact still holds true: I alone am enough."
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