***
Finally, Ren was done. He ca back to slump down on the sofa.
As the sound of music died out, Charlotte snapped back to reality. "Oh, it's over?"
The others also moved at her voice, realizing it was over now.
"Yeah.." Amon said, trailing off as he eyed their conditions.
From the side, he felt a nudge on his arm.
Looking, he saw Alya flashing him a drunk smirk.
"Go on. It's your turn now."
Everyone also nodded after realizing he was the only one left.
'Hmm'
"Alright." Amon stood up from his seat, heading towards the front.
Picking up the microphone, he started to choose a song silently.
But the song wasn't there, on the list.
It was to be expected. The song was by a rapper who had been jailed many tis in his previous world.
Especially for the lyrics he used in that song.
Later, he was imprisoned for several years in jail for the accusation of killing his 2 best friends.
It brought a lot of hate to his songs so it not being included in this world probably ant the author hated it as well.
Though, for Amon, it was a different case.
There was one particular song by a rapper that resonated a lot with his ntal condition after his parents died.
A certain part of the lyrics of that song.
He used to listen to it non-stop, reminding himself of the things that he wanted to do to the people who killed his parents.
Yes, in his mind, it wasn't just a simple accident because they were drunk.
There was more to the story. Especially because of how high his family was in the society.
In any case, Amon turned back to his friends.
"The song isn't here for so reason. I'll just sing the acapella version."
They were surprised.
"That's surprising. Didn't know there was such a song that they excluded it." Alya said. Amon nodded.
"Well, go ahead dude." Ren took another sip of his beer.
"Alright."
Amon brought the mic to his mouth.
"I ain't get to roll no weed.
I ain't get roll no swishers" He started.
"I was locked up on Christmas, aint get to see my fuckers."
This was the first ti Amon was speaking so many curse words in front of them but fuck it.
"And I'ma smoke all my pain away, cause that's the only thing that gon heal it."
He was surprised to find this body so fluent in singing.
It had a great voice. To the point that they were already invested despite it being an acapella.
"I wake up in the morning I got murder on my mind."
Yes, the song was called 'Murder on My Mind.'
He still loved it.
For so reason whenever he was stressed out, singing it out loud helped him get it all out.
He sang and listened to this song continuously when his parents died, wishing to murder the people who killed his parents.
It was an unrealistic wish, a child's fantasy. They were thoughts that just ca to his mind whenever he thought about it.
However, in the end...
Nevermind.
"Yellow tape around his body, it's a fucking homicide. His face is on a T-shirt and his family traumatized."
"I didn't even an to shoot him, he just caught by surprise. I reloaded my pistol, cocked it back, and shot him twice."
A tear threatened to leak out of Amon's eyes as he sang this song again in a long while.
But he controlled it and kept going.
"I might just kill the man, don't wanna kill the man, bake him, say he want beef, we gon' grill the boy."
"Haha, murder on my mind." He laughed madly as the mories replayed in his mind. [Calm down...] Vain spoke from inside him, trying to calm the sea of emotions inside him. Fortunately, it worked and he was able to quickly finish the song.
Setting down the mic on the table, he looked up for the first ti and found the whole room silent, staring at him.
'Yeah, seen this a lot before as well.' Amon thought as he started to walk back toward his couch.
But he was surprised when Ren was the first to put a hand on his shoulder.
He looked at him with a concerned gaze, his previous drunkenness completely gone.
"You good bro?"
Amon found himself speechless, raising his brows at the unexpected response.
But eventually, he nodded, composing himself.
"Smile," Ren said, frowning.
'Huh?' Amon looked at him in confusion.
"Do it." Ren deepened his frown.
Amon did it, spreading a slight smile on his face.
Ren's frown didn't disappear but he nodded.
"Okay." He patted Amon's shoulder multiple tis.
"Anyways, we done?" Amon asked, changing the topic.
Everyone nodded.
Amon checked the ti.
"It's pretty late, we should head off as well." He said, standing up.
Everyone followed his lead, standing up silently.
"I'll see y'all tomorrow I guess." He opened the door, looking at all of them.
'I shouldn't have sung this song.' He said, rembering so unwanted mories of his
previous life where he did the sa.
"Okay." Elizabeth, Alya, and Charlotte replied, leaving the room.
Michael gave him a forced smile.
"I'll see you tomorrow as well then." He patted his back, before waving off.
Amon waved off.
"Yeah, sure."
Then he turned to the last remaining person, Ren.
"Sa for you bro." Amon turned, seeing Ren walk up to him.
Waving his hand, Amon started walking off but was stopped when Ren called him out.
"Yo."
Amon turned, finding Ren still frowning.
"Listen man, if you got any issues bothering you, I'm all ears. So stay good."
His hand locked around Amon's hand and pulled him into a brotherly short hug.
"Take care right?" He patted Amon's shoulder once more before walking off.
'Did I do sothing wrong?'
Even Vain was silent after that previous comnt during his singing.
***
Ren took a sharp corner, entering a narrow alley.
Exhaling sharply, he settled down on the ground ruffling his hair.
It had started off fine.
It was just a normal rap song like the one he himself had sung.
It was surprising for all of them to see Amon cursing that much.
Even though his personality and wording were a lot similar to Ren's, the forr restrained himself from cursing that much.
But it had changed when he had reached the chorus part of the rap.
An eerie grin had spread on Amon's face. Eerie to the point that even if a person knew it was a
joke, it would bring them chills.
And that was what happened to the others. Literal chills.
Especially the laugh that followed. It was like a madman's laugh.
But out of all, Ren knew it wasn't what they saw.
That trembling of his eyes and body as he sang it clearly showed that it wasn't just madness.
It was painful. As if he was reliving a bad experience from his life in those lyrics.
Ren was sure of it.
After all, he could awfully relate to that experience.
But the pain Ren saw in those eyes made him shudder. It was violent, like a sea threatening to
leak out at any mont.
As if Amon wanted to scratch and peel off his grin from that face.
It was painful even for Ren.
That was why he was concerned.
It was weird for others, but he could relate to that experience. He understood what was
happening to Amon.
Not to ntion the disturbing lyrics of the song. Personally, Ren didn't have any problem
with that.
But he could see the people in their group edged out by that. 'Pussies.' Was the only word that ca into Ren's mind.
It baffled him that they thought nothing was wrong with him.
Even Michael.
'There's obviously an issue in his mind. Fuck...' Ren scratched his head.
He took out a cigarette and lit it after putting it in his mouth.
He knew that it wasn't his place to pry in his issues. But he couldn't help but concern himself with what happened today.
It was because to him, Amon was like the first real friend he made in the academy. A family to
him.
Even closer than Michael because of their shared experiences when around Athena.
And also because he often finds himself relating to Amon a lot. Their personalities, their
issues...
They were similar.
Maybe that was why they clicked together so well from the start.
'I need to help him.' Ren took a puff, standing up finally.
Adjusting his jacket, he stubbed the cigarette and moved.
Hey, everyone. Author here.
Just wanted to make a quick notice that all the songs in these chapters or any gas and such
aren't owned in any way by .
It was just a way to reference them in a funny way and to portray the feelings I wanted more
clearly since I love music.
You are free to go and check out the songs on their official platforms or anywhere, just that
they aren't owned by .
Here are the artists if anyone wants to know, even though you probably know most of them.
HUMBLE: Kendrick Lamar
7 Rings: Ariana Grande
Espresso: Sabrina Carpenter
Thick Of It: KSI (lmfao, i know what I did)
Murder On My Mind: YNW lly
If you don't like the songs or artists or anything, that's your opinion and I respect it. No
intention to start any fight here.
Thank you.
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