Zed grabbed the crystal and closed his eyes. He felt a warm, jovial sensation from it, just like he always felt when he held Hope in his Kiba form.
Rebecca didn’t say anything more. She ca here to give him what was his.
Of course, she desired more, much more, but she knew her desires didn’t hold any value, at least not for him. Perhaps rightfully so...
But she knew he didn’t wish to et her, maybe never did.
So she left the chair and rose to her feet to leave.
Zed placed the crystal on the table and spoke.
"Except for the last six months... I always wished I could et you."
"!" Rebecca stopped and looked at him.
Zed gazed at dreamy lighting on the ceiling, the waterfall that created a calm, soothing atmosphere, and the fireplace that emanated a royal feel. The entire hall was a display of sinful vanity, with money poured like water to build it, for no other purpose than to look really good.
"And for the last few years of my life... I wanted our eting to happen in this hall."
Rebecca remained silent, letting him speak.
Zed ruefully smiled and shut his eyes.
"I think... I was around three years old when I first actually desired to et you. No, desire would be an understatent. Back then, I begged and prayed.
"Whenever the caretaker whipped with his belt, I prayed you will show up and save . When he trampled under his feet for not getting alcohol, I begged to every god that I knew... to please send you to rescue . And when he kicked ... I was ready to apologize to you for any sin I have committed and beg for rcy."
"!!!" Rebecca was stunned.
Caretaker?!
Can he be talking about Red Fox!?
Did he abuse Zed!?
Her body turned icy cold as she imagined the scenes her son spoke of.
Him getting whipped, trampled, and kicked by Red Fox.
Despite her extraordinary powers, she felt her stomach twist with a terrible sensation.
"Even though you never ca... I still waited. Then again, what else I was capable of? I believed a day will co when you shall forgive for whatever wrong I might have done.
"Days turned to weeks, weeks turned to months, and months turned to years... but you still didn’t appear! I then realized my fate: rotting in the slums, getting abused by those powerful than , and dying in so unknown street.
"And all these tis I thought of you.
"Caretaker... I guess for you he must be Red Fox... well, he never revealed your na or background... but he always told about how rich and powerful you were.
"He assured if I have to bla soone for my fate, it has to be you... sotis it was also my father, but most tis, it was only you!
"Whenever I thought of that, I wondered how soone so rich can let her child starve, force him to seek food from trash bins... while herself enjoying the most lavish als the world has to offer.
"When I turned nine... I let go of the illusions.
"Maybe it was so enlightennt or just a mont of clarity. But I learned sothing very important.
"The only person who can help ... the only person who can save from my fate!
"And that person was... I!
"So I stopped apologizing and praying!"
A burst of wild flas erupted in his eyes as he took a short pause and continued.
"And the first thing I did after that... was murder!"
"!!!"
Rebecca tensed up. She stared at him, perceiving how the flas in his eyes were tainted with the aura of murder.
"Red Fox! It was him I murdered!"
As he said this, he broke into laughter. His face was pale and his body weak, but his laughter was maddening and powerful.
The guards were dumbstruck. They didn’t know why but they felt dread from that laughter... that despite him being weaker than an ordinary human!
"Oh god! Even now it feels so liberating! You should have seen his face when I ripped his throat and stabbed holes into his heart!"
Rebecca clenched her hands tightly. Not because Red Fox was murdered, but because at an age where her son should have a happy, carefree life, he murdered to escape from abuse.
"And that day I decided!
"I don’t need a mother or a father for a set of warm clothes... a two-ti al...and a roof over my head!
"It wasn’t a fairy tale I wanted, but I survived... and finally years later, I beca capable enough to never worry for anything!"
Zed looked at Rebecca and paused.
"And can you guess what I secretly wanted when I beca capable enough?!"
Rebecca gazed at him for a mont before shaking her head.
"You! I wanted to et you!" Zed answered. "I wanted to show you... that you might be rich and powerful, but even without you... I lived! I achieved everything you refused !
"So I built this villa... Don’t misunderstand, I always wanted to have my ho! But never this grand and luxurious! I only made it like this so I can throw it on your face!"
Rebecca lowered her head. She never knew what he had suffered nor the amount of resentnt he carried.
"I did fool myself by believing I was doing everything for my sake... while secretly hoping to et you and show-off!" Zed took a deep breath. "But then six months ago, I realized sothing far more important! There was no reason for to hate or resent you!
"You didn’t owe anything so why do I have to be angry at you for not giving a life I felt entitled?
"I was wrong and I realized that.
"Even this doesn’t matter. Why should I care about soone who was never a part of my life, to begin with?
"Everyone has their own life, their own reasons... why waste it on past or thoughts of others?
"Life is far too precious to waste it on anyone else!
"And that day... six months ago, along with my past of being a discarded bastard, I beca free of my wish to et you!"
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