"Anywhere," I said to the cab driver.
"Just keep driving, I have money," I said again and he nodded, I watched as he was subtly staring at from the rear mirror and I rested my head against the leather chair.
Why did it feel wrong? Why did it feel like I was about to make a mistake?
I know I care for him but I can’t stay, if I stay, I will ruin whatever is left for us, I will ruin whatever it’s left in my heart for him, I left Aria in his care, I know she will be out of the house as soon as he finds out I am gone.
I know she will try to make a move on him when she realizes that I am not coming back, I know for sure that by the ti I am gone for a long ti, she will still pretend to need care and Luca will not be there.
Luca needs to work on himself, not on the pack, not on the mbers but on him.
I wrote him a letter, I had hoped that he would find it and read it, I didn’t tell Ares about that part, it’s between and Luca. I need him to understand what I am doing and why I am doing what I am doing.
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He drove for four hours, we had gotten out of town when I headed out of the car and I found myself in a little town and I didn’t even want to be here, I can tell maybe Luca would be able to trail from here and I didn’t want that.
I took another cab from here, maybe two more before I found myself in another little town I had never heard of; it looked beautiful from the mont I walked into the town, like a weight had been lifted from my shoulder and I felt better.
I glanced across the area for a second, when I found myself finding a good hotel to stay in, for a couple of days before I figure out what I want.
I have never been one before, it’s always been , mom before Aria and her mother ca and then it beca and Conrad, I didn’t have any friends because he is not happy with having company over, it was hard to keep friends when I always tell them coming to my ho is off limits, it’s a little weird.
And then Luca, I shook off my thoughts and a breath fell out of my lips.
—-
"Luca I just got here, it’s a little dull, I know it’s stupid writing to you when I should not even care about you but this feels right, this is what I want, the room is large and I had a wonderful lunch, it feels like I am ant to be here, this little town, they seem nice and okay, I have not t anyone yet, but it doesn’t seem chaotic like the city, I don’t even think they would know about you here." I wrote in my book.
Tears fell against my cheek and onto the paper when I stared at it before I squeezed it against my hand and I threw it to the floor, this is what I want, I need this to know who I want to be, what I want to be.
Did I want to be a powerful wolf?
Did I want to have a ho?
Did I even want to be a wife?
Did I want to have kids?
Do I want to have a career?
I had hoped I would get the answers to these questions by the ti that I find myself, I need to find out what is happening, who I am?
After lunch, I took it upon myself to have a walk, I always loved walks especially with my mother, I wondered how she would be, did she find Rebecca and father up there, was she happy to see them or was she sad that he was there because I know she loved him more than she should have.
I glanced around when I saw a little gathering by the other side, the place was filled with lights, it was filled with people wearing all sorts of clothes and it looked perfect.
Like a festival, the last ti I was in one was when mom took for my birthday, it was perfect. I forgot how much I enjoyed it.
I started to dance around alone. I didn’t cry, for the first ti I could find a little part of that was happy, for the first ti it felt like I could have control over everything going on.
When one girl ca toward and she danced with . She seed like a lot of fun, I made sure to cover my mask before leaving the house, I don’t need anyone recognizing the mark on my pack,
—-
"You ran away from ho." She smiled, Natalie is her na, she had the biggest smile on her face and she is kind enough to even offer to get us food especially when she found out it’s my first night here.
Here we are, sitting by the bench while we spoke to each other.
"And you ran away with your boyfriend only to find out he is married with kids," I spoke and a chuckle escaped her lips.
"Yes, he thought I would be cool with it, his wife didn’t even know about it then tried to manipulate into thinking it’s a great idea and he loves more before he told the truth and this is why he would never lie to ." She said.
That’s the worst type of manipulation I have heard. He is even more horrible than Conrad, I only told her about my parents, nothing about Conrad or Luca
"Why here?" She asked
"Don’t know." I breathed out.
The festival light twinkled and I smiled, the loud music felt like ho to , like this is where I should have always been.
I glanced around in circles, I can be anyone I want, I can choose not to be Olivia, I can have the life I always wanted, for the first ti, I felt like I could control the narrative, I can choose how I want my future to be.
"You are smiling, you’re finally out of that house, you thought about it for a long ti." She asked, I told her about my family but I hid many things
"You have no idea." I smiled, she really didn’t, my parents are where they deserve to be, I don’t even care about Aria anymore, if by the ti I get ho, I have a feeling I would want to head back, to have an idea of what is happening, maybe I would be ready to see Luca this ti, or maybe while being here, I will fall for the place completely.
"I will get us ice cream," Natalie suggested and I smiled, I watched as she headed toward the other side when I saw soone standing by the far end of the road, he looked creepy, he didn’t have a smile on his face.
All he did was stare, I turned back to see if he was staring at soone else but there was no one behind .
"You are overthinking things, Olivia." I breathed out when I closed my eyes for a second, by the ti I opened them, the man was not there and a smile appeared on my face.
It’s just my mind, I have been through so much, maybe I needed help too, I told Luca he did, maybe I need to talk to soone, but I can’t, what happened back there, those are secrets I would bury in my heart, there are things I would never tell anyone about.
"Olivia." She called and I turned to look at her, she settled beside handing the ice cream when my eyes caught the man again, this ti he was with soone else, he was dancing with a woman.
His eyes were on hers but on mine, maybe he is just a weird creepy person, I don’t know how most people behave, I have always been secluded.
A breath fell out of my lips when I looked away from him and my eyes t hers.
"Where are you staying?" I asked.
"At a hotel, I don’t want to go ho, I didn’t think it was a good idea and I bragged so much before leaving." She said and I smiled
I didn’t want to be alone here either so I guess I found soone to stay with . Soone that I can try and trust, soone that would never know anything about my past
She distracted from that man yet his eyes were always on mine, no matter where I was, I was going to ignore him, this was a new beginning for
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