ARIA’S POV - Day Five, Morning
Aria stood in the shower, letting the water run over her, and couldn’t rember if she’d already washed her hair or not.
Day five. Five days since she’d left the estate. Five days since she’d seen his face. Five days of this endless, suffocating pain.
She’d promised Marcus she’d take care of herself. Had promised her mother she’d try to heal. But every small action....eating, showering, getting dressed....felt like climbing a mountain with weights tied to her ankles.
What was the point? Her mother was recovering beautifully. The treatnt had worked. i would be discharged next week, fully healthy, with a future stretching out before her.
Mission accomplished.
Except Aria felt like she’d died to achieve it.
She turned off the water and stood there dripping, staring at her reflection in the foggy mirror. She looked like a stranger. Hollow eyes. Sunken cheeks. Bruises under her eyes so dark they looked like shadows.
She looked like grief personified.
Her phone rang from the bedroom. She ignored it. Had been ignoring most calls for days. What was there to say? Yes, she was still broken. Yes, she was still destroyed. Yes, she still couldn’t breathe without it hurting.
The ringing stopped, then imdiately started again.
With a sigh, she wrapped herself in a towel and went to check.
Marcus. Again.
She almost didn’t answer. But he’d been so patient, so kind, so worried. He deserved better than her silence.
"Hello?"
"Finally." Marcus’s voice was sharp with relief and frustration. "I’ve been calling for ten minutes. I was about to co over there and break down the door."
"I was in the shower. What’s wrong?"
"What’s wrong is that your mother is being discharged tomorrow instead of next week. The treatnt worked so well the doctors are clearing her early."
The news should have brought joy. Instead, it brought panic.
"Tomorrow? But I....the apartnt isn’t ready. I haven’t prepared anything. I...."
"Aria, breathe. It’s good news. Great news. Your mother is healthy enough to co ho."
"I know. I know it’s good news. I just...." Her voice broke. "I don’t know if I can do this. Take care of her. Pretend to be okay. Act like I’m not dying inside every single mont."
"You don’t have to pretend with her. She knows you’re hurting."
"But she shouldn’t have to see it. She should be celebrating. She survived. She gets her life back. And I’m....I’m dragging her down with my pain."
"You’re her daughter. She wants to help you. Let her."
"She can’t help . No one can help ." The words ca out flat, emotionless. "I destroyed the only thing that made feel alive. There’s no coming back from that."
Marcus was quiet for a long mont. Then: "Aria, I’m worried about you. Really worried. You sound...you sound like soone who’s given up. And that’s not the Aria I know. The Aria I know fights. She doesn’t quit."
"Maybe you don’t know as well as you thought."
"Bullshit. I’ve known you for six years. I know exactly who you are. And this....this isn’t you. This is what grief looks like when you let it consu you."
"What else am I supposed to do? Just move on? Pretend it didn’t happen? Act like I didn’t destroy the best thing that ever happened to ?"
"No. You’re supposed to face it. Feel it. And then slowly....so slowly...start building a life that has aning beyond him." Marcus’s voice softened. "I know it hurts. I know you think you can’t survive this. But you can. You will. Because you’re stronger than you think."
"I don’t feel strong."
"Strong people rarely do. They just keep moving forward anyway."
After he hung up, Aria sat on the edge of the bed in her towel and tried to imagine tomorrow. Her mother coming ho. Both of them in this tiny apartnt. i recovering, getting stronger every day. And Aria....
What? Still broken? Still destroyed? Still unable to function?
She couldn’t do that to her mother. Couldn’t let i’s recovery be overshadowed by her daughter’s devastation.
Which ant she had to find a way to function. To pretend. To put on a mask and act like she was healing even when she wasn’t.
She’d spent months wearing a mask at the Blackwood estate. Pretending to be soone she wasn’t. Lying with every breath.
She could do it again.
Even if it killed her.
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Aria stood in her mother’s hospital room at 9 PM, helping i pack her things for tomorrow’s discharge.
"You’re very quiet," i observed, folding a nightgown carefully. "More quiet than usual."
"Just tired."
"Liar." i set down the nightgown and turned to face her. "You’ve been crying. Your eyes are swollen."
Aria looked away. She’d tried to hide it, but her mother saw everything.
"I’m fine, Mama."
"Aria Chen, I have been your mother for twenty-four years. I know when you’re fine and when you’re falling apart. Right now, you’re falling apart."
"I’m just...I’m overwheld. You’re coming ho tomorrow. That’s good. That’s great. I should be happy." Her voice broke. "Why can’t I just be happy?"
"Because happiness isn’t sothing you can force. Especially not when your heart is broken." i moved closer, taking Aria’s hands. "Baby girl, you need to talk to soone. A therapist. A counselor. Soone who can help you process what you’re feeling."
"I can’t afford..."
"The treatnt Mr. Blackwood provided includes comprehensive aftercare for both and my family. That includes ntal health services." i’s voice was gentle but firm. "Which ans you have access to the best therapists in the city. Use them."
"I don’t need therapy. I just need ti."
"Ti isn’t going to fix this. Not by itself." i squeezed her hands. "Aria, I’m worried about you. You’re not sleeping. You’re barely eating. You’re disappearing right in front of . And I can’t....I won’t....watch you destroy yourself over a man."
"He wasn’t just a man!" The words burst out of her. "He was...he was everything, Mama. He was patient and kind and brilliant and he saw . Really saw . Not the masks I wear or the roles I play. . And I destroyed it. I destroyed the only person who ever really knew and loved anyway."
"Then maybe you need to find a way to forgive yourself. Because right now, you’re punishing yourself more harshly than he ever could."
"I deserve to be punished!"
"Maybe. But not like this. Not by destroying your own life." i pulled her into a hug. "You made a terrible mistake. You hurt soone you loved. But Aria—you’re not a terrible person. You’re a scared person who made a bad choice. And you need to figure out how to live with that."
Aria clung to her mother and cried. Great, wrenching sobs that felt like they were tearing her apart.
"I don’t know how," she whispered. "I don’t know how to live with this."
"One day at a ti. One hour at a ti. One breath at a ti." i stroked her hair. "And with help. Professional help. Promise you’ll call the therapist number I’m going to give you."
"Mama...."
"Promise . Or I’m not leaving this hospital."
The threat was absurd but effective. Aria pulled back, wiping her eyes. "Okay. Okay, I promise. I’ll call."
"Good." i cupped her face. "Because I didn’t survive a terminal illness just to watch my daughter die of a broken heart. You’re going to heal. It’s going to take ti. But you’re going to heal."
Aria wanted to believe her. Wanted to think that soday this pain would fade, that she’d be able to breathe without it hurting, that she’d be able to think about Damien without wanting to die.
But sitting in that hospital room, looking at her mother’s hopeful face, she couldn’t imagine it.
Couldn’t imagine a future where she wasn’t haunted by what she’d lost.
Couldn’t imagine ever being whole again.
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Damian’s POV - Day Five, Midnight
Damien sat in his study at midnight....showered, shaved, dressed in clean clothes for the first ti in days—and stared at the note Aria had left.
I’m sorry I wasn’t enough.
He’d read it a hundred tis. Maybe more. Each ti hoping the words would hurt less. They never did.
Julian’s words echoed: "You’re terrified that you gave her everything and she still chose to betray you, which ans you weren’t enough."
Was that true? Was his anger really about his own inadequacy rather than her betrayal?
He didn’t want it to be true. But he couldn’t stop thinking about it.
What if he had just told her from day one? What if he’d confronted her imdiately instead of waiting? What if he’d offered help without conditions, without tests, without needing her to prove her trust first?
Would it have changed anything? Or would she still have been too afraid to accept?
He didn’t know. Would never know.
His phone sat on the desk, silent. He picked it up, opened their ssage thread.
Her last text: Thank you. For everything. I’m so sorry. I know it doesn’t matter, but I’m sorry.
His fingers hovered over the keyboard. He could respond. Could say...what? That he forgave her? He didn’t. That he wanted to see her? He did, but he shouldn’t. That he still loved her? That was the most terrifying truth of all.
Instead, he opened a different app. Pulled up the security footage from the greenhouse that night.
He’d watched it dozens of tis. Torturing himself. Watching her cry as she harvested the plants. Watching her whisper apologies to him even though he wasn’t there. Watching her collapse when he’d confronted her.
And every ti, he saw the sa thing: a woman who was utterly destroyed by what she was doing. A woman who hated herself for betraying him. A woman who was choosing her mother’s life over her own happiness.
Not a villain. Not a criminal. Just a desperate, terrified person making the only choice she could see.
The realization should have brought anger. Should have made him feel vindicated.
Instead, it just made him feel tired.
Tired of being angry. Tired of hurting. Tired of this endless cycle of rage and grief and devastating loss.
He closed the app and set the phone down.
Tomorrow. Tomorrow he’d decide. Tomorrow he’d figure out if love could survive betrayal, if trust could be rebuilt, if forgiveness was possible.
Tomorrow he’d choose: move forward or stay stuck. Forgive or let go. Risk his heart again or protect himself forever.
But tonight...tonight he just sat in the darkness and mourned what they’d been. What they could have been. What they’d destroyed together.
And wondered if five days was enough ti for a heart to heal.
Or if he’d carry this wound for the rest of his life.
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