The Love That Remains Chapter 17: It's a nightmare

When I wake up, I don't see him. My body is aching in pain. I wait for a while before I climb down the bed. I see a red patch on the bed. I take a bath and wear my clothes. Sung Jun is still not back. His things are also not there. Now, I feel anxious. Did sothing happen to him? I pick up my phone and dial his number. It doesn't get through.

Probably, it's the network problem. I take my bag and go downstairs. My classmates are also gone. I find the receptionist.

"Miss Fang?" The receptionist looks at with surprise. "Do you want to book the room for one more day?"

"No..." I blush and look away. "Did you see Sung Jun? He is tall and good looking. He has honey brown eyes."

"Yes, he left three hours ago." She eyes with pity. "He paid for the room."

"He didn't leave any ssage?" What is this feeling in my heart?

"No...Miss Fang, you should call him."

I leave the hotel and reach ho. I change my clothes and call Wang i. She didn't pick up the phone as usual. I try to call Sung Jun again.

Sung Jun never told his address or any other phone number. Half a day is gone and there is no ssage. I check his social dia.

He is in Korea.

I ssage him there and wait. After a while, I find that I am blocked.

What's going on?

The day passes by and I don't get any ssage or call. I am restless and worried. I can't eat or sleep. Sothing must have happened to him. Granny Lan is also worried about . She asks to see him in Korea.

"Go and find answers." She says. "It's better to face him than worry about it here."

Next day, I leave for Korea.

Through his social dia, I have so idea where he lives in Korea. His fangirls are a great help and a bit scary. I go to his house and get turn away at the gate.

This goes on for three months until his butler decides to tell the truth.

"Miss Fang, Sung Jun has a fiance."

There is a pity in his eyes. I hate seeing that.

"He is getting married next month."

"Oh!" I laugh at his butler. "Tell , your master can't even co out himself and tell that? What a coward!"

"Miss Fang, he has arranged for you to go back to your ho." I hear his butler say nervously. "You should hurry back ho. Your family is worried about you."

"I should." I get up and smile at him. "Tell him, I will never love him again. In this life or next, I will never ever love him again."

On my way back to the hotel, I collapse in the taxi. When I wake up, I am lying in the hospital.

"What's going on?" I ask the doctor in confusion.

"Miss Fang, you had a miscarriage," The doctor replies in English, "You have not been taking care of your body. Recently, you must have experienced a shock."

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My bowl in my hand is broken. The porcelain shards pierce my skin and bring my mind back to the present. So things cannot return. So things cannot go back to the way it was. I don't care whether he can see ghosts or demons. My child cannot co back.

I am tired of everything. I don't want this second chance. I don't want revenge. I don't want to see these people. I just want peace. If possible, send back to my child. Bring back to that ti when I can save my child.

The doctor and the nurse co in. They see the blood in my hand and asks questions. I can't respond. Their words sound like background noises.

"Aisa?" A familiar touch.

"Co back from the dreamland." Sa soft but firm voice.

"Look at ." He waves his finger in front of my face. "This is not a dream."

"I know...it's a nightmare."

He caresses my cheeks. "I am here in this nightmare with you."

I laugh at him. "You called a liar earlier. Did you ever look at yourself? You are worse than the worst. I will never forgive you."

His face pales.

"Leave. I don't want to see you ever again." I push him away. I turn to face Lan Hui Yao. I don't know when he ca, but he is always like this. "Get out of this place. I hate hospitals. I hate him. Get out of this city. Send sowhere far away."

"Even going to ntal asylum is better than being here. I can't even breathe. I can't deal with this reality. I don't want to exist here. If Fang Qi can't even do this, he should cut my na out of the family register. I am not a Fang anyway. I will never claim that I am his daughter."

"And, tell Wang i. I don't care why she refuses to talk to . I will not forgive her either. I am leaving this place whether you people let or not. I will go sowhere far away. Away from anyone who makes rember the past."

Everything breaks out like the overflowing dam. I take a deep breath. My tears are falling on my bandaged hands. I have been broken for a long ti.