I walked slowly in the darkness of the night, wearing a coat that hid the blood on my clothes. The girl I was carrying was also wearing a coat, but I was still not walking in the open.
Even if it wasn't extrely important, I was going through the blind spots of the caras, through the bushes, and the place I was approaching was the back of the dormitory buildings.
When I finally reached the back of the dormitory building, unseen by anyone, I first looked up to the eighth floor, where my room was.
If I rember correctly, I had left the balcony door wide open to let the room air out, which was enough to get in.
I just... to be honest, I have doubts about what I'm about to do.
I should theoretically be able to accomplish what I think I can with my magical ability as a wiera, the boost I get from my passive skill, my increased magical power and mastery, but... Still, I'm not confident, I can't be.
What if sothing goes wrong?
This thought gnawed at and made hesitate. Yet I was also aware that I couldn't just stand still, my ti was limited.
"Haa..."
I took a deep breath and closed my eyes. I had to be fast. So I did the best thing I could think of.
I poured mana into the Absolute Mind, tried to use it to its full potential, and then, sothing strange happened.
Just like Celine's Sixth Sense, passive skills can have more than one function. It is often up to the user to discover them. Soone can die with such skill and not even know that it has an extra function.
For ... I think I discovered a new function of the Absolute Mind.
When I poured mana into the skill, all my thoughts suddenly disappeared. My senses, the movent of my muscles, my thoughts... Literally 'everything' was focused on this mont, on my purpose.
At least I was still myself, I would be out of this the mont I stopped channeling mana into the skill, but why throw it away when I could use it?
I exhaled deeply, fixed my eyes on the balcony above, and then focused on the mana inside .
Even though my passive skill drew a considerable amount of mana, I knew I had enough mana capacity for what I wanted to do.
So when I refocused, the mana swirled around inside , spread throughout my body, ca out, and surrounded like a tornado.
A stiff, almost solid, layer of wind rose up around my body and I lost contact with the ground.
It took only ten seconds to reach the balcony on the eighth floor. And the mont I reached the level of the balcony, the wind, which was slowly losing its strength, pushed inside and I stepped onto the balcony.
Imdiately after that, first, my thoughts returned to one by one, and then the wind that had been carrying dissipated as if it had never been there.
Suddenly dizzy, I almost fell to the ground with Olivia in my arms, but I managed to lean against the wall before that happened and closed my eyes to regain consciousness.
There is no extre effect of soone running out of mana. However, this is not so true when the sa person has spent almost all of their mana reserves in less than half a minute.
Absolute Mind had already drained more than enough mana from . On top of that, intensifying the wind to an almost solid force was too much, even for , whose efficiency is especially good for wind magic.
As I waited for the dizziness to slowly pass, I sighed deeply and looked at the girl I was still holding in my arms.
Her eyes were red from crying, but she looked quite peaceful now. Compared to girls like Lucia, Alice, or Celine, her beauty was a bit dull, but she had her own charm.
She was just an ordinary-looking girl. No more, no less...
Ah, what are you thinking, idiot... Snap out of it.
I took a deep breath and finally realized that the dizziness had subsided a little, so I walked through the door, which I had left wide open, just as I rembered.
I gently placed Olivia on my bed, ignoring the blood stains, pulled the covers over her, and then took a bottle out of the closet in the room.
I had bought a lot of potions before the preliminary, just in case, and I had even gone overboard and kept so at ho for future use, and this was one of them.
I was holding a bottle of the most potent potion in the house. It could heal a great many wounds, including broken ribs, in just an hour or two.
I uncorked the potion and poured it gently into Olivia's mouth without waking her. After she drank the whole bottle, the pained expression on her face seed to relax a little. And so was I.
After I finished with Olivia, I looked down at myself.
I'd better take a shower... My clothes are just as bloody, if not more so, and I'm covered in dust from falling on the floor or whatever.
With that, I hurried into the bathroom and took a relaxing ten-minute shower. I changed inside the bathroom and then ca out clean.
After checking on Olivia again, I went into the small living room, the only room in the house beside the kitchen, bathroom, and bedroom, and plopped myself on the couch.
There were a lot of things that I hadn't thought about much before because I wanted to be quick, but now that I had free ti, I had a lot on my mind.
That percentage statistic and its notification, the purple-eyed 'Ethan' who appeared out of nowhere, the fight between and Clara, Justin's sudden death, and Olivia who was lying in my bedroom...
First, I opened my statistics window and looked at what I was curious about.
The statistic is still shrouded in question marks and the only value it shows doesn't make much sense...
What has increased this value so far?
I rember it increasing when I was emotionally unstable and also when I had just used caora.
I'm not sure if there is anything else that increases the statistic, but so far, I have only seen these two things affect it.
The last ti the statistic reached ten percent, I lost myself.
I don't rember a bit after that, but I still rember how I couldn't control myself, and how my thoughts changed one by one before I was plunged into darkness.
This statistic is... absolutely frightening and if I don't want it to increase, I have to avoid emotional monts and use as little caora as possible, or even almost none.
Normally wieras don't go mad only when they use caora. Madness is in their nature. Other than that, they are all normal thinkers, but they are just a little bit crazy, that's all.
, I'm sothing else because of this statistic.
Is it because I'm half wiera? Could it be that my human side is still straight, so it contrasts with my wiera side and that's why there's such a 'ratio' between them? As this ratio increases, it's like my wiera side is slowly overpowering my human side...
My eyes shifted to the 'Status Effects' section on the holographic screen in front of .
There's a question mark here too, but I don't know anything about it, so I'll ignore it.
As for the body dissonance, I guess it's because I'm half wiera and it supports my previous theory.
As for the divided soul...
I thought about the other , the purple-eyed Ethan I t in the woods.
He told he was the other half of my soul. So Sith had managed to preserve my soul, but I had lost the other half in the process.
The other half of my soul that I lost must have interacted with caora to form my wiera side, and it must have taken on the appearance of my old body, Ethan.
So that Ethan is a personality representing my wiera side while I am the other personality representing my human side. The more I think about all these things, the more my theory makes sense...
Of course, on the one hand, these are just my guesses, but I believe my margin of error is quite low.
"Haaa..."
I took a deep breath and cald myself down. Thanks to the Absolute Mind, I was in pretty good condition when I should have been banging my head against the walls. At least I had no complaints about that.
Nevertheless, I feel a little bit relieved, I think.
I've identified most of my problems now, so I can think about other things.
I sat up quickly from where I was leaning, and then I just remained as I was.
Wait a minute...
Absolute Mind didn't fix my emotional breakdown when I encountered Justin. There are a few other situations where it didn't affect in the sa way.
Suddenly, with these thoughts coming to out of the blue, my mind started spinning with all sorts of different ideas.
Absolute Mind is a skill that clears of any stressful thoughts and tries to keep my mind as it should be.
So what if when my wiera side ca to the fore, it didn't fix because that side of was already inherently insane and chaotic and that was their 'normal'?
I an, the purpose of the skill is to keep my mind 'normal' in the first place, but wieras' minds are not normal to begin with. That's why it doesn't interfere with in such situations. This ans that every mont that the Absolute Mind doesn't step in, my wiera side slowly starts to overpower my human side...
"Hah..."
I kept my eyes fixed on the wall, as I felt my body trembling.
No, nothing bad was happening to my body. I wasn't sad or anything, I wasn't stressed.
Well... Maybe I was stressed, but the real reason I was shaking was because I wanted to laugh.
"Hahah..."
I wanted to laugh. I could hardly contain myself.
It seed funny to for so reason to make a connection between everything, to put it all together to create the big picture. Even though I was the 'problem' standing between these connections...
It was funny. It was even tragicomic.
I put my hand on my face and grinned, and then I took a deep breath and transferred a very little mana to the Absolute Mind to calm down.
Okay... I feel better now, just...
I looked at the clock, then focused on the tiredness in my body and sighed deeply.
I closed my eyes, wanting to rest at least for a little while, and it didn't take long for to fall asleep.
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