I pursed my lips, clasping my hand on my lap. Sam had been staring at across the table, cupping his cheeks.
I've never recalled being in this study room with Sam, alone. The room where I've been spending most of my ti with Fabian.
It was odd to be in here doing nothing or just being with the duke, discussing nothing. I moved my gaze around.
When my gaze landed on the paintings around, I cleared my throat. Fabian said they were the duke's precious collections. I've been amused by the art and beauty of the paintings, but because of my studies, I didn't have the chance to ask Fabian more about them.
"My lord?" I called out softly.
Sam raised his brows and humd. He blinked his eyes ever so slowly, but he never left his gaze from .
"The paintings… they're pretty, aren't they?"
"Are they?"
What was this short, disinterested response?
"Why…" I deliberately paused as I cleared my throat once again. "Why are so of them aren't hanging on the wall?"
La.
What a la way to distract ourselves with a la discussion? I secretly bit my tongue, knowing the topic wouldn't be engaging enough.
Sam remained silent. I knew it. He probably found my query foolish.
I didn't know the reason, but ever since yesterday, I had this urge within to please him. I didn't want to bore him and part of didn't want him to get… exhausted of .
The fear of my life was gone. However, new fears resurfaced in my heart. Especially in this silence between us, those fears grew profound and distinct, shouting in my ears.
I'm in cloud-nine for having my feelings reciprocated. Still, the deeper the feelings were, the more intense these fears.
I've never thought about it last night or even this morning. But now I had the chance to think, I sort of hate this anxiety creeping into my heart.
I'm scared.
"Of?" I snapped back from my thoughts upon his query.
"Huh?"
"You're scared of?" Sam blinked his eyes, tilting his head to the side.
Right. He could still hear my thoughts.
I bit my bottom inner lips slightly. Hesitant to speak my mind, but well…
"That… this is all a dream." I gulped, smiling bitterly. "That after all this, I will wake up to the sad reality that you're not real. That none of this is real. I fear the thought that once I wake up, I — I'll lose you."
My grip on my lap tightened as I looked down. Before, I had nothing to lose. But now, I had so many things to lose, including him.
I didn't mind going back to being a peasant and continuing my life as one. However, the thought of falling in love with a character I made with my imagination terrified .
Why? Because I'll never be with him. No matter how I fantasized myself in his embrace, it just wouldn't be the sa.
That scared .
After a while, I sensed him perched on the seat beside .
"Look at ." Sam instructed. I slowly raised my head and turned my head to my side, to where he sat.
As soon as I did, Sam flicked my forehead lightly.
"Aw…" Instantly, I rubbed my forehead, frowning with a furrowed brow.
"Did you know? If I keep flicking your forehead, it'll crush your skull and you'll die?" With a deadpan expression, Sam uttered his trivia.
I widened my eyes, my jaw slowly dropped, as I blinked my eyes countless of tis.
What?
"Do you want to try —"
Upon seeing him try to flick my forehead once again, I instantly drew back in panic.
"My lord, are you trying to kill ?!" I gasped in distress, in disbelief at what he was trying to do.
"Pfft—!" Alas, the corner of his lips stretched into a grin. "Are you awake now?"
"…"
"Didn't I tell you? I'm here, I'm real, and I'm in love with you? I'd be the first person who'll set this world on fire if soone wake up in this dream." His grin gradually turned into a reassuring smile.
Sam raised his one hand out, brushing the stray hair from my side.
"I was never terrified, I never had a reason to be." He mused, twirling the tip of my hair between his thumb and forefinger.
"But now, I do."
My breath hitched. Sam's voice was low and heavy. It was as if he lifted the mask he had been wearing for a long ti.
"I'm afraid that soday you'd wake up and wouldn't want anymore. That soday, you'd hate . That… you'll leave soday. And the long list goes on. I'm terrified."
I bit my lip as my heart lted instantly. How selfish of to only think about myself?
Obviously, Sam had been transparent with his feelings towards . He remained consistent despite all the suspicion and restraint I had before.
He'd been patient and kind to . He might have unique ways with his words and actions. But that only made him even more remarkably unique.
I reached for his hand, leaning my cheek to feel his warmth and coldness battling in his palms. But these feeling were certainly real; my heart could feel its legitimacy.
"It's who thinks this is all a dream." He muttered. A smile turned up on my lips.
"I'm here. I'm real. And I would go through even fire and brimstone just to be with you even for another second." I muttered with eyes closed and a subtle smile.
When I opened my eyes, Sam was staring at lovingly. Even if this was a dream and wake up, I'd slit my throat if that ans going back in this beautiful dream.
Going back to him.
I may not be immortal, but my love for him would be tiless. That, I'm certain.
I couldn't imagine living life without him anymore. I'm hopelessly, hopelessly in love with this vampire.
"Fabian, can you not interrupt and my lady? Can't you hear us having a sentintal mont?" Suddenly Sam spoke.
Although his eyes were still locked with mine, his words were not for . I glanced at the door and Fabian was smiling at us.
I flushed instantly.
"My apologies, my lord. But her ladyship had eaten nothing since this morning, that's why I rushed in here. We will return once you've finished."
Fabian prompted to leave. However, just as Fabian turned around, Sam stopped him.
"No, it's fine. My lady needs so nutrients, she'll need it to keep up with ." Sam smirked. I looked away, blushing as I guessed what he ant.
"Also, bring my tools. My hands are itching to sketch my next work."
I furrowed my eyes and shot a look at Sam. Instinctively, I glanced at Fabian, who sported a surprise expression on his face.
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